A/N: Okay, chapter 4. I've been working on it all day and I couldn't wait to get home so I could post it! :D Hope you like it. REVEIW.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything but the storyline...not the characters.... :( Boo hoo.
Chapter 4
I wasn't paying attention. Not like me, I know, but I was wrapped up in the dream that I'd awoken from not more than an hour and a half ago. It was a dream that I'd been having, and would continue to have for several months. It started two weeks ago when Naruto and I went to lunch. Now the blonde was haunting me every moment of my life even though it was better when I was asleep, I liked what I saw. Now the blonde was sitting beside me, listening intently to what Professor Airi was lecturing about. I elbowed him gently in the side and he looked at me.
"What's she talking about?" I whispered so as to not attract attention.
"Are you seriously not listening," Naruto responded worriedly. "Sasuke, what's going on with you? This is the third time this week!"
"I'm sorry! I've just got a lot on my mind right now."
"Like what? What could possibly be so thought consuming that you're unable to pay attention?"
"I'm just..a bit preoccupied."
"That doesn't answer my question, Sasuke."
"Just tell me what's going on." Naruto just shook his head and slid his notebook over to me. It felt weird to copy someone else's notes. I was hoping that it wouldn't become the norm for me, it would become a really bad habit if I did in fact continue. I handed Naruto back his notes and he glared back at me.
"You'll tell me what's going on later," he said sternly, it was then that I realized that it wasn't a question.
"But I don't want to."
"You don't have a choice. I don't remember asking."
"What?!?" I was shocked. Naruto didn't usually make me do anything that I didn't want to, he would try to persuade me by the means of making me feel degraded, but he wouldn't force me if I wasn't ready.
"It's rather simple, Sasuke. You're going to tell me whether you like it or not."
'Damn.' I pouted and crossed my arms in defeat. He won, but I couldn't tell him the truth. I sat there thinking of what different reason that I could make up . How awkward would it be to say " I'm distracted by the idea that I have feelings for you," to NARUTO? Extremely...
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I sat down on the other side of the table at the Usagi-To Cafe, Naruto glared at me suspiciously. He leaned forward and rubbed the back of his neck. I just remained silent. I still hadn't thought of anything different to tell him but the truth. It bothered me.
"Now," he started after a few minutes "here's what I think." I became nervous my fingers tapped against the table repeatedly until Naruto placed his hand on top of mine to stop them.
'What if he knows?'
"I think that you like me, but you're afraid to tell me because you think that I'll reject you."
'Oh shit.'
I pulled my hand away angrily but I was speechless. He continued "I can't say that I like you because I don't." My heart sank; I was ready to pull away from that table and run until I died. "But I don't want you to be upset, it's not like it's the end of the world."
"Maybe it's not for you." I got up and ran away trying to hold my tears until I was at a safe distance. I knew that he didn't like me already but I didn't stop it from hurting. I felt like an idiot for even thinking that it was possible for us to be together. I wanted to die, I wanted to kill myself, I just wanted to disappear off the face of the earth.
I was in a dead sprint until the student dorms were in view, I walked solemnly to my dorm and locked the door. I laid on my bed face down and let the tears flow. 'Dammit, I promised myself that I wouldn't do this.'
I ignored Naruto when he knocked on my door fifteen minutes later, I ignored Naruto when he passed me on campus and I skipped all of my classes, avoiding him at all costs. Shikamaru knew that if I wanted to talk about it then I would but he didn't ignore me all together. He would occasionally say things like "I'm sure whatever it is it will all get better," or "I'm always here if you want to talk." I'd always considered talking to him about it but thought that the situation was something that he'd never dealt with so I kept it to myself. All I knew was that Naruto rejected me and it hurt.
A/N: I feel for Sasuke, I really do but since I'm the writer I know that it will all get better. Just keep reading and REVIEW please!
~ Amia Carden ~