Chapter 4
Thinking was beyond me at this point, the only thing I could do was feel. The feel of Gibbs five o'clock shadow as it rubbed my face. The taste of the beer with a hint of the coffee he had drank earlier. His hands as they slid up my face and into my hair. I prayed this was not one of my fantasy's as he continued to take me to a place I had never been. When the kiss finally ended due to the need to breathe he rested his forehead against mine, hands still in my hair. "Please tell me I wasn't wrong Tony." The look in his eyes told me everything I needed to know he was scared. Scared of the step he had just taken, afraid he had destroyed whatever we had.
"You're not wrong." I said as I gently placed another kiss on his lips. He looked into my eyes a little longer and then pulled me into the house.
"Come on, we have to talk, and I don't want to give the neighbors a free show."
We ended up on the couch facing each other Gibbs still holding my hand.
"How long?" he asked. Good question. How long had I wanted Leroy Jethro Gibbs? It had started as deep admiration for this man and his ideals and then slowly had developed into something so much more. I had denied it for so long an actual time frame was impossible.
"I don't know boss, it feels like forever." He grinned at that.
"I think we've moved passed boss Tony, while we're home why don't you try Jethro." While we're home he said. That sounded so good, I had finally come home.
"Okay…Jethro." I liked the sound of it as it rolled off my tongue. Jethro. "What about you? How long?" I said.
"Since Baltimore." No hesitation whatsoever, typical Gibbs. I didn't know what to say.
"Why didn't you ever say anything?" I asked.
"Didn't know if you felt the same way. I was your superior. I didn't feel right just springing it on you, but after that damn letter your father wrote I knew I had to do something. I knew you were hurting. I wanted to be there for you, not just as your boss." He finished, looking up into my eyes.
"You've never been just my boss…Jethro." His eyes lit up at the sound of his name.
"Do you know how long I've wanted to hear you say my name?" He reached up and cupped my cheek those blue eyes staring into mine and pulled me forward. The kiss was slow, his tongue dancing with mine. He deepened the kiss and I was on fire. Every touch seemed electrified. I just didn't know what to do. Of course, Gibbs being Gibbs sensed what was wrong.
"Have you ever done this before Tony, with a man?" I felt my face turn red.
"No." I whispered quietly.
"It's okay Tony we'll go as slow as you need." he said stroking my face.
"I want this more than anything Jethro. I've never felt this way with anyone else. Hell I've dreamed about this for so long and now it's right in front of me and I don't know what to do." I dropped my eyes looking everywhere except at Gibbs.
"Hey, its okay I've only done this once before, and this is about as far as I got. We'll take our time Tony. You're mine now that's all that matters."
"Thanks, Jethro." Gibbs scooted back on the couch running a hand through his silver hair.
"We need to talk about work, and how we're going to deal with the fall out from your father's helpfulness."
"That's putting it mildly." I said trying to smooth out my spikes. "What exactly did you tell everyone when I left?"
" I told'em you were on mandatory leave and that you would explain. They've heard all the rumors, Abby's beside herself by the way, but I convinced everyone not to call at least give you some time to deal."
"Thanks, I appreciate that. Maybe I can have everyone over and explain things. I just don't want everybody to get all weird when they find out the truth."
"Tony, nobody's going to get weird, they all care about you, even McGee was worried."
"Ahh obi-wan-McProbie was worried?"
"Yeah Tony he was." I could see the seriousness in his eyes. That's when I knew I was right where I needed to be.