Hell or Heaven

Chapter 2: Dreams or Reality

James didn't talk to me for the rest of the day. But sometimes, I felt his glance on me, or perhaps was it what I wanted? James was once again starting to attract me towards him. Was this good or not? So many thoughts were in my head... He was beautiful, muscled... All the girls would run after him, he changed a girl every two days, they accepted, they were sometimes jealous. I believe being the only one not wanting him. It was what brought them to me at the beginning, that I could talk to them without giggling or blushing. Because the marauders, they were more than good-looking.

Sirius, the womanizer, the dream of every girl, he used them like toys, two or three each day. James equaled him in handsomeness but didn't change as quickly as Sirius. Then Remus, he was mysterious, that's what attracted the girls in him, but he wasn't like the two others, he thought of the consequences of its facts. Last of all, Peter, I don't know, something troubled me with him... He wasn't at all like the others. Small, not too good-looking, the girls used him just to get to the others. What I want to say, James wasn't the type of guy to have a normal relationship with. But he attracted me, as he could with any other girl. I had to be careful, careful to not repeat the same mistakes.

This first day was much more tiring than I thought it would. I went up in my room and immediately went to bed. The following day I woke up just in time to arrive in class in time. I hurried towards the second floor for my charms class. I just got in that the bell rang. But other people didn't have the same luck. 5 min. after the bell, two people came in out of breath: James and Sirius.

"Sorry professor, we...

- Yes, yes. Sit down please Mr. Potter, there is a place next to Mr. Diggory and Mr. Black, next to Miss. Evans."

Yes, just what I needed: Black bugging me throughout my favorite class.

"Hello, he tells in a dry tone.

- You know, you don't have to speak to me if you...

- Looks Evans, I didn't sit here because I wanted ok? It disturbs me more than it does to you.

- I never said it disturbed me.

- Always the same, aren't you Evans?

- For you perhaps...

- Miss. Evans, called professor Flitwick, could you make us a demonstration of this spell please? I sighed and did what I was asked.

When the bell rang, I left and went to my arithmancy class. After lunch, I still had an hour free so I went to the library. I greeted Mrs. Pince and sat down at one of the tables. I liked the silence of this place, the smell of the old pages... I took my head between my hands and closed my eyes to relax. Several memories came to my mind. James, Malfoy, my mother, my cousin, Richard... I suddenly opened my eyes.

My shoulder was starting to hurt badly. The wound was healed but the weight of my books had it reopened. I started to feel a liquid running down my arm, my back. I took all my stuff and left the library running. I ran towards my room to stop the bleeding before all my dress was soaked of blood.

During my race, I didn't see the two persons walking towards me and I ran in one of them. Under the shock I fell backwards on my shoulder. My wound was completely reopened by now and bleeding like hell. It hurt atrociously. I started to have the tears on my eyes because of the pain.

"Watch out where you're going."

I knew this voice. It was Sirius's. I raised my head. He was standing above me. He looked at me like he despised me. James was besides him. He didn't do anything he looked on the ground.

"Evans, you..." started James. I turned my head towards my left to see the state of my shoulder. The wound was bleeding even more than I thought it was. I put my hand on my dress; just on top of the old scar to find it soaked because of the blood. I took off my hand of my shoulder and got up. Seeing the state of my hand, James asked:

"Are you okay? Who made you that?

- Euh... Yeah I'm fine. It's nothing really, just a simple wound that's all.

- A simple wound! Are you kidding me? Your dress is soaked of blood! I'm bringing you to the hospital wing.

- No it's nothing really. Nothing I can't resolve on my own "

And I took my bag and went to my common room which I shared with James.