a/n: Do you guys know what today is?.............. If you guessed just Thursday than your right ;) ! But if you also guessed my birthday than your AWESOME! :D That's right it's my b-day! YAYYYYYYY! So sorry this took so long but I just suddenly got inspired by my sudden b-day so review and tell me what you think and give a quick shout-out to me for my b-day, thanks guys/gals!

disclaimer: I own the Oc Carson O'Conor and his family, along with the plot. Everything else belongs to however the hell created Degrassi up in Canada. I love that country, I wanna go there again one day.

Promise

Episode 3.

Don't Wanna Be Torn

Okay, so as far as coming up with a plan to get Riley and Auden finally on speaking terms, yeah it sucked. I couldn't think of a single thing to do beside luring both boys into a room and locking them inside, but by the time I let them out to see if the smoke had cleared they would probably have already killed each other and I didn't feel like have being an accessory to two-counts of murder going down on my permanent record, that definitely wouldn't look good on my Banting application.

School was finally over for today and I was currently waiting for Mia inside the gym along with the power squad as the practiced their routinee for the first football game of the season today which would be starting in about and hour or so. Jane and Riley were in the locker room with the rest of the team putting on their uniforms before their pre-game pep talk from Shep, and Auden of course still wasn't talking to me yet so I didn't know if he was coming or not.

"D-E-G-R-A-S-S-I! Go-go, Degrassi!"

I smiled as I watched Mia, the stand at the front of the gym before the rest of the members of the power squad, as she made sure everyone had learned all the moves perfectly before the game. She was a really good leader, she'd be a tough opponent when we went head-to-head for position as Student Council President.

"Alright girls it's all looking really good so I'll just meet you guys out there, go Panthers!" The rest of the members of the power squad clapped and cheered before they each skipped out of the gym to go and get changed into their uniforms before the game began.

"Wow, you guys are good. The power squad hasn't been better since they voted you captian," I praised as Mia walked over and grabbed her gym bag from beside me off the bleachers.

"Really? Thanks. I choreographed it myself,"

"I can tell, your moves are perfect. So, you still planning on running against me for Student Council?" I asked as Mia and I headed out of the gym and towards the front doors of the school to go out to the football field.

"Ah, so that's what all the compliments are for, your trying to butter me up to get me not to run aren't you," Mia joked.

"Oh you know that's not true," I laughed. "Just trying to make small talk so I can take my mind off Auden."

Suddenly Mia quickly moved her hand in front of me preventing me from moving any further before she quickly stepped around so that she was now standing in front of me giving me this very peculiar look.

"What?"

"Auden, don't tell me you two are..."

"What?! Mia, no! He won't talk to me like he use to, and every time Riley and I are together, or even if Riley is just in the area he leaves, and I really don't want one of my best friends, and boyfriend hating each other over me, it's stupid!"

Mia laughed. "Wow, you are the only gay guy... or any gender that like boys, that I know that doesn't want two extremely hot guys fighting over him,"

"And by extremely hot guys I do hope that refer you are referring to me," Mia and I around to find Peter running down the front steps of the school to catch up with us.

"Hey Peter," Mia and I both greeted in union, except Mia added a quick kiss on his lips.

"Yuck, and that's my cue to go," I laughed. "I'll catch you guys at the game."

I threw the happy couple a wave and headed towards my car in the parking lot. Once I climbed into the driver's side I adjusted my rear-view mirror and smiled at my reflection; black hair was actually a really good look on my, way better than the blonde. I smiled at my thoughts as I pushed the key into the ignition.

"Yeah, you wish honey, black is not our color"

What the....? I looked around for any sign of where the voice came from but there was no sign of anyone else in the parking lot, and there definitely wasn't anyone else in the car. I hope.

"Up here you idiot!"

I glanced back up to the mirror and gasped, my reflection staring back at me, it wasn't me, it was Lauren! I waved my hand in front of the mirror to check my assumptions, and when my reflection simply laughed at me I was pretty sure that it wasn't me. It was like looking into a mirror of a few month ago; blonde hair and all.

"H-..how is this..."

"Possible?" He replied cutting me off. "Oh come on Carson, don't be so dumb. By the way Carson? Were you high... again? It sounds like the name of some cheap motorbike," he cackled.

"Your not real, you can't be real," I tried to assure myself closing my eyes hoping he'd be gone when I opened them; he wasn't.

"Oh I'm very real Carson, as long as your alive, then so am I. You'll never get rid of me, no matter how much you try, and considering the fact that your still wearing that necklace, neither are you ready to get rid of him and move on with poor-sweet Stavros,"

My now shaky hands reached down and gently brushed over the charm of the four-leaf clover on the necklace he gave me. Why hadn't I gotten rid it yet? And a better question, why was I still even wearing it? I shook my head in protest but Lauren only laughed.

"You may be able to fool everyone else into believe this 'goody-goody' act you've got going on as Carson O'Connor, but you'll never ve able to fool us.... Lauren,"

"No! No I'm not Lauren, my name is Carson, you hear me? Carson!"

"Carson?"

I suddenly screamed and jumped as I turned to the side to find Auden tapping on the window on my side of the car. Sweat was dripping down my forehead and I felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest. I rolled down the window and forced a smile even though I was terrified inside.

"Hey, Auden what's up?"

"Hey, I noticed your car was still here, are you okay? You were just staring in the rear-view mirror all out-of-it,"

I laughed trying to cover up, "sorry, I was just looking at my hair and guess I got a little mesmerized. Call my conceited,"

I glanced back into the mirror quickly and only saw my frightened expression staring back at me this time. Had it all just been a daydream? It felt so real, maybe I'm just overstressed with everything going on now, it is senior year after all.

I could tell from the look on Auden's face that he wasn't buying my smile, or my fake 'peachy' attempt, but by now he knew me well enough to just simply shrug his shoulders, smile, and change the subject. "Where ya headed?"

"I'm was on my way to go to pick up Katie. I promised I'd bring her to the game today, she wanted to see Riley and Jane play today, you wanna come along, I could use some company, and she'd love to see you" I spoke truthfully, he had no idea how true.

Like that one question was the highlight of his day Auden's smile spread across his gorgeous face as he nodded and walked around onto the passenger's side before I quickly stepped out stopping him.

"Oh no, you're driving," I laughed as I tossed him the keys and like a pro he caught them in his right hand.

"What? You are one of the laziest..."

"But I'm cute though, right?" I cut him off with an innocent smile as we switched places and I climbed in on the passenger's side, and he took my former spot in front of the wheel.

He jabbed the key into the ignition and brought the car to a roaring start before he turned and looked at me, his bright playful smile fading into a smaller, more serious smirk.

"Yes, very."

Oh crap, I blushed. I quickly turned my head so that my hair fell into my face, but from the chuckle I heard fall from Auden's lips I knew that he'd noticed, I couldn't be falling for him, not again. I was in love with Riley, the one I'd gone through hell and back for, the one who 'came out' for me, and the one who seemed to completely slip from my mind the moment Auden pulled out of the Degrassi parking lot.

What was I about to do again? Oh... right! The game!

It was counting down to the last two minutes on the board, Degrassi was down by a few points and we only had time for one more play. Auden and I were sitting side-by-side in the stands with Katie rested comfortably in my lap as the entire audience on the Degrassi side waited anxiously, praying that Degrassi had one good play left in them to win this.

There was the sound of small chatter coming from the audience, the people from Kingston High; the rival team, were ecstatic cheering wildly for their players to send us Panthers home with our tails between our legs, hopefully they wouldn't get their wishes.

From my spot in the stands I could still feel the nervousness radiating off the Panthers, in the mist of all that nervousness I felt Riley. I don't know but I was like that with everyone, when there was too many emotions going on in one place I could pick up on the strongest emotion, and I was sensing a whole lot for fear radiating off my boyfriend. I had to do something, anything! Here goes nothing.

"GO PANTHERS! YOU CAN DO THIS!" I screamed at the top of my lungs causing stares from nearly everyone to direct onto me. Crap, but I couldn't say I wasn't expecting this.

"Lets go Panthers!" I began cheering beside me and clapping his hands in a cheer-like rhythm. Thank god, I wasn't alone.

Katie joined in, followed by the Power Squad, and then soon the whole crowd was cheering on the Panthers, I then looked my eyes on another pair of gorgeous blue orbs surrounded by a mud-stained pale face. I gave him a soft smile before he let out an animal-like roar and just like that Degrassi was back!

The clock started, the players breaked or whatever the hell it is they do in football before they took their places back on the field. I didn't sit back down, I couldn't, I had to let Riley know that I was in this with him, all the way.

The clock started and Danny had the ball, he began running and was soon nearly trampled by two opposing Kingston players, with a mighty heave the crowd watched in awe as he tossed the ball halfway across the field and no surprise it landed directly in the arms of Degrassi's hottest running-back ever. Well obviously he was surprised since he just stood there.

"RUN!" I screamed at the top of my lungs again attracting a little attention but this time I didn't notice as I watched Riley take off towards the other half of the field swiftly moving past every obstacle that came in his way.

We were almost out of time, he wasn't going to make it. Suddenly he quickly glanced in my direction before suddenly his speed picked up dramatically and a mere two second before the clock hit zero he jumped over a sliding defensive and landed in the safe zone or.... whatever! The point is he made the winning touchdown!

Along with the entire Degrassi crowd I burst into cheers, and applause whilst the Power Squad began jumping up and down squealing and the game announcers shouted that Degrassi had won the game over the speakers, and the roaring crowd.

Once the game was over I drove back to Degrassi behind the bus and as soon as I stepped out of the car I was instantly pulled into a death-grip embrace by Riley as he lifted me off the ground for the second time to today and began twirling me around before setting me back down on my feet and crushing his lips against mine. I didn't even care that he got my entire outfit covered with mud, well I didn't care right now. I'm sure I would later, I wasn't about to ruin his moment.

"We won!" He exclaimed.

"So I heard," I laughed before he kissed me again, this time more softly.

"Um.... Riley,"

his lips broke from mine as we both turned and looked at the rather confused, and a little uncomfortable looking Shep, but he covered it us quickly with a smile and handed Riley the ball he smiled and held it up into the air.

"Once again player of the game, STAVROS!"

The entire team, and Power Squad who traveled back on the bus as well burst into applause and cheers chanting Riley's name, he smiled to them before turning back to me.

"Thanks... for helping me out there,"

I smiled and nodded. "Anytime."