Chapter 2
I woke up with a start, like I normally do nowadays. It was 3 months after that devastating discovery that the high school slut was fucking my boyfriend.
The scene still burns in my mind. But I was numb to it. I might have a few nightmares on nearly every night, but I guess I would just have to suck it up and live with it since Jacob was obviously not worth it.
Wiping my sweat away with my blanket, I fell back onto my bed. Sleep just wouldn't dawn on me even though my eyes feel like lead. Shit. It's their entire fault. Their? Who's they? God… I shouldn't be blaming my crumbled life on the people around me.
Even though I knew I was in a mess now… but I can't help it. At least I'm improving on my job; I had even been promoted [sort of] to guarding the jail cells. It was an improvement from desk jobs.
I should be ready for duty tomorrow. I needed sleep! But it just wouldn't come. Everyday, every single day, I would just wake at this unearthly hour and never sleep again till the next day.
Sigh…
I rolled out of bed, resigned to the fact that I would not get much rest tonight either. I took a quick glance at the neon clock at my bedside. 3.30 am. God! How am I going to find the energy to work tomorrow if I only had four hours of rest?
There's no use thinking though…
Pulling myself to the kitchen, I moped around, feeling for the lights. Finally, I found the switch and bright yellow lights poured into the kitchen. I squinted as the light hurt my eyes. Instinctively, I turn around, hoping that I would not wake my father in this hour. He needed his rest.
Heaving a sign of relief that he was nowhere in sight, I reached for my mug and made a cup of hot cocoa.
The sweet chocolate concoction slithered down my throat. Cocoa was the best drink ever invented. I could not imagine my life without it. It can calm me even during a storm. As I sat down on the kitchen chair, drinking my cocoa, I wondered about my life, just as I do every single day.
Why am I in such a mess? My love life is broken, my job sucks but I don't have the guts to quit it, and plus I have an overprotective father who thought highly, too highly in me. Pressure just seemed to build on. If this continues, I will be jumping the building soon! Too bad this small town does not have any building that is higher than 4 storeys, none that I know. Even suicide is out of option……
Oh well, no more brooding for now, I've got better things to do. I took another glance at the clock. 4.15 am. Hmm… I might as well read through new information on my job.
I log into my laptop, fingers tapping impatiently as I wait for the old thing to start up. The old computer growled to life, engines purring as the log in music blared through. Shit.
I muted the damn thing immediately before anyone could wake up. Go! This thing doesn't usually make any sound, at least when want to. And when I actually don't want it to, it sounded. Blast it!
After a few hits and knocks, the desktop page flashed and the computer growled defiantly in protest. Ought to change this old device…… I'll take note of it once I got my next pay.
"Let's see… who's on the list for my next to guard prisoners…" I scrolled through the countless faces and amazed myself at how many offenders there were. "Bob… what a brute. In for RAPE! God damn him! He should be in for life and not a measly 25 years!" I was appalled by the crimes committed. And amused by some. Amused because some got in because of really stupid reasons. Like, graffiti, and littering and all sorts of daily stuff. "Look at this idiot… Got in because he failed to pay his car fines on time, and even refused to pay for it when the police came running! What an idiot he is…. Hmm… Edward Cullen… Nice name for an idiot. Though he looks quite yummy, he mustn't be any good since he had a half-fried brain. Poor guy!" I chuckled. Seems like this Edward is serving for 3 months. Hahas.
Satisfied that I haven't been wasting my time, I shut down the laptop and sighed. Time's 5.45 am. Oh well, won't hurt to go to work early.
I rushed to make toast for my dad and saved some granola bars for myself. I chewed on it as I changed into my uniform. I hate that thing; it made me feel like I'm some sort of cosplaying freak. But it IS my work uniform. Pratically everyone of my colleagues wore the blue restrictive layer of clothe.
I took my bag and hopped in to my car, an upgrade from the red truck that I once had. It was a nice black Ford. A bit rough on the edges but never the less, it's still my baby. Fancy riding ford in Forks.
I stuck the keys and the engines spluttered, shuddered and finally came to a peaceful purr. Pulling out of the garage, I drove off to work. It was another typical day, minus the nightmares, and I was determined to enjoy life, whether or not it had planned otherwise.
so? What do you think???? It's been a while since I updated… along while. My files got deleted and that certainly cuts off all mood to redo it. And hopefully I will continue to update too. Please don't forget to review and update more about what you think! And if you've anything you find interesting or want me to read, please strongly recommend it! Cos I'm bored and have nothing better to do. Well, actually I do but since lifes like this, I wouldn't mind spending a good day to just sit and relax and enjoy a cup of hot chocolate while I read. Yeah…. That's what I would like ^^
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sry... the heat in singapore has finally got to me... XD