(Sorry lost my laptop, downgraded to a vista computer and haven't had a working word program for months, here you go…I own nothing)
Kaede stood staring at her small hands making small movements. She had perfect muscle memory of how to walk and move but she had a mental problem of overestimating her strength, misjudging distances and making many unnecessary movements like a stranger in someone else's body. She shrugged knowing her physical strength was unimportant compared to her vectors. Wanting to test them she mentally reached out for her soggy pack.
Nothing happened, frowning Kaede moved closer…closer….closer, till she was pressing up against it. Her eyes opened up in shock, she couldn't clearly remember what it was like to live without her vectors save for an oppressing feeling of helplessness. She wrapped her arms around herself feeling cold slipping in state of fear. "NO!" she shouted at herself before her feelings overwhelmed her, "they simply haven't woken up yet and this can be an advantage," she reasoned. "Think Kohta will except me the way I look, the only thing that stands out is the horns. To humans I'll mostly be some deformed freak and there opinions mean nothing, through my vectors I could infect some humans, and if little Diclonius are running around the scientist, the experiments, that island…" she calculated thinking what could happen. She thought back trying to remember, her first killing, "what was it," she remembered the four children but the reason eluded her.
She grabbed her bag lifting it up, seeing milk drip from it figured she may as well clean it up and act normal till she could go out and make her meeting with destiny happen again. In the bathroom she emptied her bag onto the floor not caring for the papers or notebooks, they where useless to her the bag could carry food and other camping supplies she'll need. To her surprise half a lunch fell into the pile of sodden papers. She paused wondering why didn't she eat it earlier not only was she hungry at the moment but she clearly remembered being normally hungry, why did she only eat half. Then it donned on her she used to share half her lunch with a dog.
Kaede simply left her stuff and snuck out of the orphanage, walking up a dark forest trail, it didn't take long for her furry friend to find her. She looked down on small animal that looked up at her expectedly wagging its tail. She opened her mouth saying to the animal that didn't understand, "sorry but this time I can't feed you you'll just die if I keep you and your death will ruin everything so just scram!" The dog flinched when she yelled at it, cocking it head at her after her outburst. Kaede decided to give that dog a message it would understand. The dog let out a loud cry as she kicked it hard.
The dog looked back at her whining. Kaede chased after it kicking that air in front of it. The dog limped away as fast as it could, crying as it did so. She looked back coldly not allowing herself to feel anything for the animal lest it make her cry, "sorry bit in a way I just saved your life she," mumbled to herself.
Kaede was worried she wouldn't be able to remember her meeting spot, but she found it as soon as she saw a pile of rocks that she would've made her dog's shrine. It was getting dark and the night was cold for sleeping under the stars but excitement kept her warm as she curled up against those rocks. It took a while but she fell asleep. She awoke late in the afternoon, hungry, cold, and above all excited for what was to come.
She stood waiting in the middle of the rode facing the empty rock shrine glancing at the rode ever now and then remembering it was Kohta saw her first. She really pressed her memory to get every detail right this was most crucial moment that needed to happen for her future to work out the way she wanted. She worked her face into a pitiful frown waiting for hours like that. Movement from out the corner of her eye made her turn and face the road seeing her dog. Kaede was annoyed at the dog, it slowly walked up her head down, she guess it desperate reason for clinging to her was that she was it only source of food.
She looked down on the animal covering her face with her hand sighing. "Stupid animal I need the moment to be perfect you can be here," she told raising her foot before bringing it down on the small animal with all her weight and force. The animal gave a shrill cry but the blow broke some of it bones immobilizing it. Kaede felt nothing as she rose up her foot again and again stomping the animal to death. The last stomp ended with the sickening crack of wet bones snapping silencing the animal for good. Kaede mumbled between heavy breaths, "Guess you died anyways but I guess you got to live a few hours longer."
Kaede eyes opened wide in horror when she heard the most beautiful melody that she would remember through several life times. "No not now!" her mind screaming in panic her body was frozen in place by fear.
"So…so cruel," the voice of a small boy said. Kaede could feel hot tears well up in her eyes as she numbly turned to her her young Kohta looking at her with the small animal firmly crushed under her foot.
"No…" she quietly murmured seeing the shock, disgust, and rejection in his eyes that all other humans have shown her when they'd look at her.
(Please don't shoot me I'll fix I swear, please I love to hear your reviews any suggests would be gladly appreciated.)