It's late afternoon . Slowly it starts to become dark in the house . Michael didn't recognizes this. The fifth times now he hits the print button.
" Come on no strike now. Please !" he tells the printer . It took a while before he recognizes the red light for running out of paper is blinking. Hectically he starts to look for new one . He opens all the drawers of the desk.
" Damn I need this pictures! " he is thinking . He is close to yell " Paper where are you?"Turning around on his search for it he find out there would be no room for new pictures anyway. The wall he normally using to pin on his blueprints is full of pictures and articles around FOX River eight , Lincoln , Sara and Michael Scofield .
When he saw Sara's picture this morning he wasn't able to move . He just sat there, staring on the screen for minutes, not knowing what to do . Desperately he bothers his head to remember something . Just one scene, one name , one little piece of remembrance , but there is nothing except for Sara's face and her begging for help.
" Why do you need help? What's wrong with me not to remember more than a face ? "
He feels more helpless and much more lonely now ." Michael Scofield" is nothing but a name for him. It brought nothing back in his mind. No memories flashing up, how he always hoped they would if he just find out who he is . He is close to give up. Just to tell no one about what he find out and live his life in loneliness far away from the public. He is so sad and desperate in opposite true the feelings he has had awaited. It seems to him the endless darkness which covers his past in a malicious way of no return, will never go away. He feels exhausted and for a short moment he wishes he would never has find out. But he had and this must have happens for a reason, he reminded himself . He needs to confess to himself that he never would be able just to do things like he was used to do the last 6 years .
"I need to know who I am , more than ever before !" Michael says loudly.
So Michael starts his research . In a short time he found a lot of stuff about the escape, Sara and Michael , the brother he has and so on … He opens site after site and it doesn't takes long and his server crash because of overload.
He is so upset , he needs to start his search again now ,when his gaze fall onto the wall with the blueprints . Now he knows what to do. He pulls everything from the wall,
except for some drawings he made weeks ago. Then he starts with printing every site he find during the research and pin it on the wall without reading them.
Finally he hold the printer paper in his hands and refill the printer . A picture showing him and Linc comes out 5 times. He takes the first one and while doing this the other falls down on the floor. The pages surrounding his feet . Lincoln face look at him from all directions . "Maybe this is a sign that I need to find my Brother first ." Michael is thinking, and his hands start to form a paper bird , the crane. He doesn't think about what he is doing . Careful he lift up the pictures and go to pin one of them on the wall . Hardly he find a place for it . The crane is still in his hand . Somehow he can't just put it away . He hold it in front of his face , Staring at this origami bird like it would be the key to his past, the key to his lost family , the key to his love , his life, his destiny , his future. All the faces he find today circles in his mind . Somehow he feels Sucre touching his shoulder , hear him laugh and cry and being so desperate about his girl. He see T-Bag and can feel the danger coming up from this man and he sees Linc . Brother, friend , one of the most important persons in his life . Slowly like the thoughts circles in his mind he starts to whirl around by himself . The bird looks like flying away any second,
" Fly away little bird , start into endless freedom !" he says loud . Linc's eyes are looking at him from one of the wings of the crane and those eyes flashing back the first memory into his mind :
" Family obligations !" " Family obligations , this is what it's all about . This is why I did what I did !"
He knows now the crane was his brothers sign to let him know he's watching over him, his way to tell him I'm here for you if you need me . His way to say I take care of you. "
Carefully he put the bird in his pocket. Somehow he can feel the power of brotherly love and unconditional surrender that's between him and this still unknown man.
Slowly he goes along wall, still not reading anything . He just strokes with his fingertips over the prints . It looks a bit like he wants to sucks the information into his brain with doing this. It's already much too dark in the room to read anything .
Michael has a look at the clock on the wall and recognizes it's already 8 pm .The noise which comes out of his stomach tells pretty clear he doesn't eat or drink anything the whole day. He needs to confess to himself that he needs a break.
Michael just put some ham and eggs into a pan, when a car stops in front of the house. For a moment he wants to turn out the light and just to ignore the person , when it knocks on the door .
A female voice says " Hello . Is someone in here ?"The voice sounds gently and a bit scared.
Michael still not sure if he can handle company in his situation answers much more impolite and annoyed than he wanted , " What's the matter? " while opening the door. He regret it in the moment when he see the maybe 30 year old ,black haired woman in front of his door which scared steps back . He can hold her back in the last moment from falling down the stairs with pulling her in his arms.
" Oh sorry . " he manage to say while giving her free . " I didn't meant to scare you !" His voice sounds dark and somehow magnetic mysteries now. He can't avoid to stare a bit on her . She is well shaped, her skin shimmering a bit like white velvet in the light that falls out from the opened door and the dark red shirt fits perfect to her slightly wild frizzy nearly curly dark –red hair .
" It's ok !" she answers while staring on Michael too. First she was scared when this tall ,angry sounding , with this black beard and his disheveled hair scary looking man comes out. But when his voice changes and she look into his so blue greenish so sad looking eyes all concerns are gone.
" I didn't wants to bother you . Sorry again, but I must have made a wrong turn somewhere down the hill and can't find the way back now. I saw the light and thought maybe you can show me. My kids are so tired and hungry and this wood scares them and they crying for minutes now and …"
Michael interrupts her with putting his finger on her mouth.
" Sure I will help you. " and without thinking about the wall he invites her and the kids in the house with saying
" Maybe you come in first with your small ones and get something to eat and drink. I was just on my way to prepare dinner for me. " While saying this a biting smoke that comes from the kitchen-corner reminds him on the eggs , With a short "Damn" he turns around an run to the oven . He let the door opened .
The woman smiles a bit the fear she felt when this angry man opens the door pass away. She goes back to her car and take her kids out .
The scene she can see while stepping into the house makes her laugh a bit .
Michael looks like dancing a crazy dance with the hot steaming pan in his hands , not sure what to do. Quickly she goes to him and take it out of his hands . She fill some water in it and put it back to the oven then. The kids stay near the door a bit anxious .
The woman turns around to her small ones . Michael still looks a bit confused . His feelings are a bit strange. For the first time he feels relaxed in company of someone after 6 years of isolation. With a warm smile he look at her and the kids. He almost doesn't recognizes the
" I am Julie by the way and those are Joshua and Gina my darlings ".
With a small gesture she shows her babies to come closer,
He just look at the kids recognizing they must be in the age of his kid .
Julie look at him a bit confused because it takes some seconds before he responds to her words.
" Oh sorry " he says with shaking his head a bit , " I'm John !"
The evening runs very normal now . Julie doesn't say a word about the wall she recognized off course . Michael wins the heart of the kids in storm with his dark gently voice and Michael feels somehow relaxed. For the first time he can really enjoy the company of strangers. And the words
" Maybe you stay here for tonight" comes out of his mouth before he doesn't even realize it.
Now he is sitting on the only armchair in this house and watching the sleep of a mother and her children. His gaze changes from the peaceful picture in his bed with a mum sleeping with her kids close in her arms to the wall that still have something dangerous on it..
Julie can't really sleep too. She saw the wall off course and she realized this is the story her friend Heichen reporter of Miami Herold , put a lot of emotions in. She hesitate to ask what John has to do with it course the evening works so well and take a lot of pressure from her .
Very quietly Michael leaves his place on the chair after a sleepless night. He was thinking about the kid he must have. He goes to the bathroom and starts to shave his beard. He looks much younger now . He wearing some new clothes on and goes out to prepare breakfast for the kids and Julie before showing her the way back to the street. Slowly he opens the door not to make noise and awake his guests , but Julie is already on her feet and work in the kitchen corner . When she recognize he opens the door she turn around wants to say "Good Morning " but what she says is a surprised :
" You are Michael Scofield ….. "