4. Unforgiveable
I waited out the rest of the drive patiently. I had awoken at about 1 a.m. Alice seemded to be wanting to take her time. No doubt the reason was to delay me seeing Jacob. She liked him, but the fact that she can't see around him frustrates her. As I sat in the car it gave me time to think about my dream. Maybe Alice had been right. Maybe some part of me wanted to see Nahuel. That part was deep deep down however. I have never been the type to mull things over for a long time. I usually had my answers right away. This was different. This had a meaning behind it. A meaning that was meant for me to figure out and put into action.
As we neared the big house my heart started to race. I could smell him already and Alice wasn't going fast enough. She seemed to have sensed my eagerness and sped up a little bit. We reached the house in a mintue. I jumped out of the car and flew into his arms. He was waiting on the porch with my parents. My dad had his nose turned toward the river. No doubt trying to be as polite as possible. I would have to give him props after I talked with Jacob. I pulled away and smiled.
"Jake" I said smiling
"So what was with the trip to L.A.?" he asked a smile twisting onto his lips. I growled automatically towards my mother. She just smiled. Backstabber I thought. My dad laughed and everyone looked at him.
"Sorry it is just what Nessie thought" he laughed again and walked inside.
"Let's go" I said grabbing Jacob's hand.
"Where?" he asked confused as we began to walk at a slow human pace. Stupid slow human pace Jacob I thought. I heard my dad laughing inside the house. Get out of my head dad I yelled at him in my thoughts.
"Ummm the cliff?" I asked looking up at him.
"Sounds great" he smiled down at me a playful grin on his face. "I'll race you"
"On the count of three" I paused for a moment looking into his eyes "One-two"
Before I hit three I started to run. He stood there for a moment stunned before he came running after me. In his wolf form. I always out ran him, but I had a sinking feeling he always let me win. As the wind began to howl I caught the scent of a hunter. I stopped in my tracks. Jacob skidded to a stop nearly falling ontop of me.
"Jake transform. Hurry!" I hissed through my teeth. It only took him a moment before her transformed. I kept my back turned while he changed. My dad did not need to see anything like that in my thoughts.
"You can look now" I turned my head at once at the sound of his voice. Clear crystal raindrops glistened on his body. It was hard to focus. I shook my head and ook his hand.
"Would it kill you to wear a shirt?" I asked as we walked.
"Would it ill you to not be so tempting in the rain?" he countered and I rolled my eyes playfully at him. I heard the hunter approach and squezzed Jacob's hand slightly.
"You lost?" the old man asked worried. He eyed Jaob's bare chest questionably.
"Trying to find his shirt" I said with a giggle "He jumped off the lower part of the cliff earlier when it wasn't raining and we think he lefted it up here."
"Alright well you better hurry up your parents might be looking for ya" he said looking only at me. Let's face it Jacob looked like a twenty three year old. "and aren't you a little old to be hanging out with such a young girl?" Jacob had to tense up a bit to keep from getting angry.
"Actually she is techincally older then me. I am only sixteen she is seventeen" I rolled my eyes. The old man didn't notice. "We'll be going however. My dad wanted me home by five"
"Dang I really liked that shirt too" I pretended to scowl and left with him. As soon as we were a safe distance away I started to talk. "Your house?"
"Yea I guess" he said shrugging his shoulders. Something was wrong.
"What is wrong Jacob?"
"Nothing" he said simply enough that I almost believed him. Almost.
"Jacob Black tell me what's wrong right now" I demmanded. He caved.
"I just wish that this could be more easy for us. To be with you without anything or anyone to want to break us up or hurt us. Then the whole vampire wolf human thing makes it so much more harder"
"You got it asy. You don't have a house full of vampires who think you reek and complain about it when they think you're sleeping" I told him as we walked nearing La Push.
"I can't believe you think I don't have it that bad. I have the wolves" he said we heard playful growls "No offense guys"
"Alice" was all I said before turning around "what do you want?"
"Permission to go on La Push grounds real quick" she said looking at Jacob who nodded. She stepped out of the shadow of the trees and skipped to my side. "Edward wanted to relay a message to you" I rolled my eyes for like the millionth time today and nodded my head for her to continue "That school is tomorrow so you have to be home tonight. No accidently falling asleep" she said using air quotes.
"He doesn't believe that I really did accidently fall asleep?" Alice nodded her head. "Whatever tell him that I will be home when I am home"
"She'll be home by ten" Jacob added quickly and I looked up at him "I don't want to be ripped apart by vampires thank you very much" I giggled a little as Alice left.
";et's go to your house"
I suggested lightly taking his hand again. We walked in silence to his house. I could feel the tension between us and let go of his hand. He didn't seem to notice. Maybe he was talking to her. Stupid dog I muttered in my head and began to walk faster. That's when I saw her. Sauntering around the corner a short skirt on and a tight shirt. I wanted to rip Jacob's head off for the way he looked at her. Just because I won't give him sex. I ran into his house calling my father.
"Yes?" he asked answering before the first ring had even stiopped.
"What have you been hearing in Jake's mind dad?" I demmanded anger evident in my voice. The edge in my voice shocked him for a moment.
"Are there anything breakable near by?" he asked and I turned arouns to see Jacob leaning up against the wall.
"Yes" I answered slowly
"Then leave that area now. In fact just go into a big open clearing where no one can hear you" he replied smoothly. Great there was something going on. I walked outside telling Jacob to stay inside. Hollie was laying in front of her house reading.
"What is it?" I asked keeping my voice even. He hesitated for a moment. "Tell me" I demmanded again.
"He had sex with Hollie"
"When?" I asked trying not to cry.
"While you were gone with Alice. He thought you were leaving him or at least that is how Hollie put it to him. She seduced him" I didn't wait for anything else the phone crushed beneath my fingers.
"You horrible excuse for a dog" I yelled to Hollie who stood up and walked over to me.
"What is it?" she asked trying to sound casual.
"You think you can get away with it" I roared. Jacob came out of his house. The other wolves in their human forms were quick to follow, "If I had no love for my family I would kill you right now"
"I have no idea what youm mean" she said a gleem to her eyes that only I caught.
"You think you can get away with having sex with Jacob?!!" I could hear Jacob choke on his gum behind me. "Well you can have him because I am done with you dogs" I turned to Jacob the tears spiling over my eyes "and I thought imprinting was supposed to last forever. Never be with no one else. I guess I am nothing to you if leaving with my aunt for one night would give you reason to have sex with that thing"
"She told me that you told her-"
"Why would I tell her anything? she tried to kill me once. You should have gone to my mom or my dad any of my family. They would have told you the truth"
"Sorry I don't have bloodsuckers on my speed dial especially that dumb blonde of an a girl you call your aunt" My jaw dropped and Jacob looked stunned as he realized what he had just said.
"Well then I guess I am nothing more then a bloodsucker to you to"
I turned around and began to walk away. His hand caught we spinning me around to look at him. The anguish in his eyes made me want to hug him, but the hurt inside me was ffar greater then that. Without thinking I threw a hard punch into his jaw. A loud snapping sound was heard. His jaw was broken and I walked or rather ran away. The wolves almost follow but I could hear Jacob his a command to them.
It did not take me long to reach the house. My dad was waiting on the front porch. I collapsed into his arms as soon as I reached them. He knew what had just happened and had not told anybody. I had to thank for that as soon as my heart healed. If it ever did. Looking up to him I dried my eyes. For a moment I was quiet not wanting anyone inside to hear.
"Can you bring me to the cottage? I don't think I can walk" I choked out through my tears.
"I could do more then carry you"
He scooped me up anyway and began to fly towards the little cottage. I knew what he had meant and part of me wanted him to. The other part knew I would regrett it one day. Then he laid me down on my bed and walked to the door.
"Dad?" i said in a small voice.
"Yea?" he asked turning around. No doubt he had been listening to my thoughts, but was trying to be nice.
"Could you not tell anyone about this? especially mom"
"Of course. Goodnight"
"and dad?"
"Yea?" he asked again to be polite. I almost giggled at that.
"Could you not listen to my thoughts for the night? I kind of want them to be locked away"
"Sure. Your mom and I will stay up at the big house tonight"
"Thanks dad. I love you" I choked out as a new set of tears started to form.
"Anytime Renesmee and I love you too"
He turned off the lights and was gone and was left alone to think. My head free of my father's constant listening for one night. That was only because he knew I was going to be thinking things he did not want to hear. Things that are hurting me would hurt him just as much. I can't help it if I am an only child.