Okay I am soooo sorry for the fist instalment of this! I tried to change it but it wouldn't go cuz i had already uploaded it! i hope it didn't stop you from reading it... and if youre reading this I guess not...

okay hope you like this chapter... oh and some other chapters contain FaixYuui, but its very light

Chapter 1: So Cold I Could See My Breath

A Kurofai Story

I emerged from Ashuras study, some two hours later, when he was finished with me and the pain in my wrist was nothing more than a stinging sensation. I shut the door quietly and turned to see my twin, Fai, watching me. He was older than me, by 10 minutes, and almost a foot taller as well.

I smiled at him. "Morning, Fai." As twins we both looked a lot alike. We both hand blond hair and sapphire blue eyes. Our hair length was different, however, he liked his on the long side, and swept back in a ponytail. While I liked mine to stop about the middle of my neck.

He smiled back, his grin a lot more sincere than mine, and swept me up in hug. Another difference was that he like physical contact, while I tended to try and avoid it... but I have my reasons for that. Our personalities are really very different from each others now that I think about it...

"Morning, Yuui! What did uncle want?"

I did my best to shrug. "Oh he just saying he was worried about me, is all. Says I've been 'spacing' lately." I feel bad for lying to him. But he had always held Ashura on a pedestal in his heart and who was I to crush that? He never needed to know what Ashura does to me.

Fai rolled his, but a smile played on his lips, "Does he ever stop worrying about you?" he asked dragging me off to the kitchen. When we got there, I sat down in one of the bar stool and draped myself over the counter. Giving a slight shrug, I said, "Probably not." I watched him as he rummaged through the fridge and take out left over Chinese food. He stuck it in the microwave and turned to me while he waited for it to cook.

"So hows work at the cafe coming along?" he asked with his back to me.

I sighed softly. A couple of years ago when I was about 16 I had told him I had gotten a job at a cafe. I never want him to figure out what my actual job is. That I'm a prostitute and that it was Ashura who had gotten me the job when I was 10. Or that Ashura had been my first, when I was 9. "Pretty good, I guess. We got slammed yesterday, but even then, I wouldn't trade working there for the world." I said, faking the wistful tone in my voice.

He made a noise in the back of his throat. The microwave dinged. He grabbed the container and sat in the seat in front of me. Grabbing two forks from a drawer he handed one to me, "You look like you could eat." was all he said, before he stated eating.

"You know, we are about the same weight." I pointed out. We took alternate turns, one digging in the box and the other chewing on the food. I was surprised at how much control I was having... I hadn't eaten for several days now,as food tends to make me sick most of the time and ends up coming back up anyway. Though the food wasn't really good, it was better than nothing. We finished the food quickly; I had made sure that he had eaten more then me.

I watched him as he threw the container in the trash, and my stomach growled again, reminding me I was still hungry. "Hey," I called out, making my way over to the refrigerator. "what else is there to eat?"

"Nothing, that was the last thing that was in there." I opened the 'frig and found out that he was right.

"Okay I'll make sure to go grocery shopping before I leave for work." I turned to Fai, and noticed him looking down at the trash can with a confused look on his face. "What?" I asked, not sure if I wanted to know the answer to that.

'Do you think Ashura has a lover?" he asked tilting his head to the side with a finger on his lips.

I blinked, 'where did that come from?'. "I don't think so...I mean wouldn't one of us have noticed... And where did this come from?"

Fai shrugged, "Come over here and see for your self." he told me, pointing to a spot in the trash can.. I walked cautiously over to where Fai stood, and peered into the trash can. My face headed up when I realized what Fai was pointing to; a used condom...

'What the HELL is that doing out here?!' I thought resisting the urge to both throw up and slam my head against the wall, repeatedly.

"Eww!" I muttered. Fai turned to me, with a chuckle. "What? It is gross!" I replied, glaring death by chibis at him.

"I think that only you would be grossed out at the sight of that at the age of 19." He said, starting to walk off.

I gasped, indigently, following after him. "That is not true! Theres a lot of people that would be grossed out by that!!" 'Especially if that thing is proof of what happened last week, in the living room no less!' my mind added. I was very very immensely thankful that that thought stayed in my head.

When I reached him, I grabbed onto his arm. He spun towards me, and I blinked at how little distance there was between the two of us now. I stiffened in surprise, but quickly relaxed them so that he wouldn't notice.

"You're so cute sometimes, Yuui." he smiled, and closed the distance between us, pecking me on the lips softly. With a sigh I leaned into it. He was the only one I would ever allow to kiss me, because I knew Fai would never hurt me. He might not be 'in love' with me, but he at least loved me, he wasn't like everyone else he didn't want me for my body... seeing as he pretty much had the same one, just a bit taller...

The kiss only added a couple of seconds, and it lacked some of the emotions for it to seem like forever. Fai put his head against mine and smiled gently at me. "Don't forget the sugar~!" he giggled, before running out of the room. I shook my head at my twins antics, but couldn't help the little laugh that escaped my lips.

I could hear him running from room to room; giggling still. I stepped out into the hallway and he zoomed past, a nice breeze was the only thing suggesting that he had been by. I had to take a moment to wonder how he had gotten so hyper all of a sudden, then remembered who I was talking about. A room to my right opened, and I tensed when Ashura stepped out.

"What's he doing now?" he asked, face showing well rehearsed curiosity.

"Ashura!" Fai screamed, and another gust of wind rushed past me, and latched onto Ashuras arm. My fists clenched and I glared at Ashura glad that Fai's back was turned. I didn't like it when Fai touches Ashura, it reminds me of when I was that naive enough to trust him. I don't trust him around Fai, but Ashura had said that if I didn't tell anyone, he wouldn't hurt Fai. It wasn't that I trusted him, but if he did hurt Fai all I had to do is walk down to the closet police station and tell them all the shit hes done. So we both have a kinda lever above the other, we're just at a stand still.

"Hello, Fai." Ashura said with a real smile on his lips.

"Ashura-kun! Yuui's going SHOPPING~! He needs money~!" Fai laughed like it was the funniest thing in the world.

"Is that so?" Ashura asked, looking over at me.

I nodded, hesitant for some reason. "We're out of food." I explained.

"Ah, well I do suppose I own you for your services earlier."

Fai's head tilted to the side, "Services?" he asked.

"He helped me sort some papers earlier." Ashura smiled, lying through his teeth. He reached into his back pocket and pulled out his wallet. Opening it he handed me a single bill; 100 dollars. Not nearly enough to buy food for 3 weeks, but enough to get by at least.

'Thank you." I said, not bothering to look at him.

I began walking to the door, when Fai asked, "Do you want me to come?" I smiled over at him. "No, its fine.... Don't you have to go to work?" he gasped, hand flying to his mouth. "Crap!" he yelled, releasing Ashuras arm and running into the other room. That left me and Ashura in the room together.

I ignored him, walking over to the coat hanger and grabbing my jacket, and proceeded to put it on.

"Don't forget to go to the club tonight. You're going to have to make that hundred up." he said, voice no longer held the warmth that it had when he was speaking to Fai.

I chuckled, but my voice also lacked warmth. "I thought I was getting payed for my services?" I mocked him.

With a growl he moved closer to me. "Don't you forget who has power over you." he snapped, hand coming up, before he dropped it, when Fai speed back into the room

"Alright I'm ready! Hey Yuui we should walk together, its been a while since we've done something like that!"

I smiled at him, "You're right it has been a while!" We put our coats on and walked over to the door, sitting down to pull our shoes on.

"You kids have fun now, alright. And come home safe!" Ashura smiled and walked back to his study.

Fai was the firs to put his shoes on and laced. He stood and opened the door. A blast of cold air hit us, surprising for the screen door should have stopped it...I finally finished lacing my shoes, and we both headed out the door.

"Wow, its really cold out here." I commented. Fai didn't seem to mind the cold, and was currently splashing in a puddle. It had snowed last night, but it wasn't to cold enough for it to stay as such.

"I like the cold~!"

"I can tell."

It was silent for a while. Several cars passed us, but we were lucky enough not to get slashed... too much at least. Fai seemed kinda disappointed by that fact.

"Hey, Yuui, you know what would be fun?" Fai asked, hands in his pockets, and staring up at the gray sky

"What?" He's been asking a lot of questions today, I noted.

"If we traded spots, you know, like I pretend to be you and you pretend to be me."

I stiffened and stopped walking. "No, Fai-"

He cut me off, "Aww, come one, Yuui! Lots of twins do stuff like that! We're probably the only twins in the history of man who hasn't tried!!"

"Have Kamui and Subaru tried it?" I asked, already knowing the answer.

"Well of course not!! They don't look alike!"

I had to think of something, and fast. Once Fai got an idea into his head it was almost impossible to get it out.

"Coooooome oooooooon!! pwease?!" He got in front of me and made puppy dog eyes at me. Now I really had to think of something! It was impossible for anyone to withstand that look once it took affect. Then I found a good reason.

"You'd have to cut your hair."

He blinked in confusion. "What?"

"You'd either have to cut your hair, or I'd to grow mine out, and we both know that neither of those are going to happen."

He pouted, slumping forward.. "Fiiiiine!"

I sighed with relief. It was good that it had been shot down before that thought could have time to grow and accumulate. I don't like I could take it if Fai were ever to have to deal with the things that I have been through.

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