hmm... I dont think this is as long as some of the others... but oh well it was only a filler chapter anyway...

Chapter 4: Somewhere In Between

A KuroFai Story

When I finally arrived home that night, it was already one in the morning. After I had left Kurogane I had made a stop at Yuukos'...er... lot, as I couldn't see the house, and had left the wig sitting on the grass. Though it was late I knew Fai wasn't worried, as it was around the time I usually got home. If anything he would ask why I was home early...

I unlocked the door. "I'm home!" I called out. I could hear soft music coming from the living room. Closing the door and locking it, I made mu way to the living room. When I entered I saw where the music was coming from.

"Yuui! I can't do DDR!"(1) Fai whined, not even bothering to follow the arrows anymore.

I snorted, crossing the room and sat down on the couch. The music stopped and the word 'FAILED' appeared in big block letters. "And you've known this for about what two years now?"

"It's not fair!" He pouted, crossing his arms over his chest. "You're like a pro at this, and I get..." He pointed to the screen which now had his total scores for the three songs he had tried. "This."

I raised my eyebrows, impressed. "Hey, you got a D on the second song. That's an improvement!" All the rest were E's... and he was on beginner mode too...

"Shadd up!" He sulked, turning off the game system, and rolling up the mat. "What game should I- Ooh! Kingdom Hearts II!!" He pulled out the case and popped in the disk. He turned the system back on, and sat down in front of the TV. I noticed that he forgot to do something, and wondered how long it was going to take him to notice.

The main screen popped up, and Fai began messing with the controller. "Down...Down.... Down damn you down! No! I don't want a new game! I wanna go dooooown!!! ….Okay fine a new game.... Yuui! It's not working!!" Fai whined, turning to me. I had been trying to hold back my laughter. But when he turned to me with tears in his eyes, I busted out laughing.

"Y-you're such..... an idiot sometimes!" I gasped out, sides hurting from laughing so hard. "You forgot to turn on the controller!"(2)

Fai blinked, turning back to the cordless controller and noticed there was no red light. "Oh..." was all he said before he turned to me with a slight frown.

I stopped laughing when I noticed his frown. "W-what?" I asked.

"You seem happier."

Well I did get off of work about two hours earlier than normal, and spent more than half of that time with a growl puppy-cop. "Really?"

He nodded. "Yeah, I haven't seen you this happy since before..." He trailed off, eyes darkening and filled with sadness.

"Fai?" I asked, concerned, knowing what he was thinking about.

He shook his head, clearing it of the memories. "No I'm fine." He turned on the controlled, but stood up and sat down next to me, on the couch. He clicked down and selected his save.

He wasn't that far into the game, as he refused to play as Sora, so would always restart the game when it got time to play him.

"Axel's so sexy." Fai said in a wistful voice, when the character made his entrance. Fai looked thoughtful for a second before saying, "And Riku too... and-"

"And just about anyone in his game who doubles as a seme." I said, cutting him off.

Fai giggled, "Yeah."

I rolled my eyes. He noticed and turned his attention to me, with a smirk. Before I knew it, he leaned over and licked my cheek. "That's 'cause you're the only uke for me!"

I felt my face heat up. "Eh!!" I whined, trying to wipe his saliva off of my face. "Jerk!"

"But it's true!" He protested. He grabbed my chin in one hand, the other pressed into the couch by my side. "I'd love you no matter what." He whispered seriously, face coming closer to mine.

"Right," I said, playfully rolling my eyes at him. He smirked, and was about to kiss me when I let out an unexpected yawn. I blushed when he blinked, hoping my breath didn't smell bad...

"S-sorry!" I stuttered.

He grinned. "It's alright. It's late anyway, and you have school in the morning right?"

I pouted. "Yeah," I grumbled. I had failed 8th grade, and so had to repeat it... It had been hard on me at first, because I could no longer be with Fai, and Ashura was no longer going to pay for my college. But I had somehow managed, and made a couple of friends. Watanuki had been one of them, but I haven't had a decent conversation with him, Doumeki, or Himawari since his accident. Because we had been co-workers we had been closer to each other than the other two, but now he only knows that he and I used to be friends.

"Hey, it'll be okay," Fai said, taking my sad features in a different way. "You only have to finish this year, then it'll all be over!"

"You have to get up too, though, right?"

"Yeah... just not as early!" he said winking.

I pouted. "I'm going to go take a shower now."

He nodded, turning back to his game which he had neglected to save, which now said: Game Over.

I made my way out of the living room and up the stairs; on my way to the bathroom I made sure to grab a towel. Stepping into the small room, I shut the door, not bothering to lock it. As Ashura wasn't going to be home until 3 something, long after I got out.

Stripping off my shirt, shivering as the cold air hit my skin, I turned on the faucet. After checking to make sure that the temperature of the water was to my liking, I hit the switch to stop the water from draining. I don't like taking showers; I have a fear of water falling down on me in enclosed spaces...

Stripping out of the rest of my clothes, I sat down in the middle of the tub, not bothering to close the curtains, and brought my knees into my chest. With my arms wrapped around my legs, tracing a scar with a finger, humming a light song, and waited for the water to fill up. The scar was long and thin, and crisscrossed with several other older ones. I have a lot of scars on me... mostly on my legs and wrists. The majority of them were from Ashura, because he liked cutting my legs more than my arms, says that he could cut deeper without hitting any significant artery. The ones on my wrists were from the handcuffs that I had to wear before I learned to not struggle.

I blinked when I felt water brush against my hand, and was glad that I hadn't gone to far in thought to not have noticed. Deciding that the water level was good enough, I turned the faucet off. Slowly uncurling from the fetal position, I sighed in pleasure as my back come into contact with the warm water.

After dunking my hair in the water, I reached for the shampoo and began the normal process of bathing. It didn't take long for me to finish cleaning myself, and before I knew it I was already out and drying myself off.

Wrapping the towel around my waist, I grabbed my old clothes and made my way into my room. me and Fai shared a room, seeing as the house was only a 3 bedroom and when we came to live here, when we were 6, Ashura was already using two of them. One for his room and one for his study... which I don't see why he needs one. Studies are for major business men, and I don't think owning a bar and a prostitution ring counts as that...

I don't mind sharing a room with Fai, but living with Fai can get a little messy, as he tends to like clutter. I'm the tidier twin, while he's the pig-sty twin.

With a sigh I threw my clothes in the hamper, and grabbed my sleeping pants. Quickly throwing them on, as well as a shirt, I stretched slowly before hopping into the bed. I had a feeling that I wasn't going to get that much sleep tonight, so I set my alarm to 6:20. This would give me two pushes of the snooze button, before it was time to start getting ready.

Clicking off the lamp, I rolled over and in a few minutes I was fast asleep.

1) hehe sorry about that I just love DDR, and when I had one of my friends over one day I got this idea... cuz she really sucked... Fai is actually better at it that her! I swear she misses just one and it says FAILED!

2) this has happened to me before! it sucks! I couldn't figure out what was wrong with the stupid thing!

Okay I also have this uploaded up on DeviantArt, and several people on there told me that they wanted more abusive scenes of Ashura and Yuui, so~ the next chapter will have a rape scene. Im just warning you people now. this is rated M for a reason

until next time~! (which will be False Pretense, cuz I need to upload the next chapter to that one before I go to this one)