Chapter 4

Spock walked quickly and stiffly toward the holodeck with the Romulan Commander in tow, trying to figure out what the looks that Kirk was giving him meant. He could easily tell that though his Captain was being very polite with her, he did not like her one bit. The reason behind this dislike was most puzzling, however.

He wondered if it was just a simple and illogical human prejudice, as she was Romulan and not so long ago, they faced Nero and his crew, who were also Romulan. He knew it couldn't be that simple though, as his Captain was quite a bit more complex than he gave himself credit for. Was it just the fact that Kirk did not like this woman talking to him?

If it could be believed that Kirk was not interested in Spock for a relationship, then there would be no logical basis for his dislike toward the Romulan Commander for having such this interest in him. Though Kirk was quite adamant in insisting his non-committal intensions toward Spock, his actions and words at times suggested otherwise.

It pained Spock that Kirk really didn't seem to know what he wanted, and how this kept giving him hopes that he felt were closer to being false with each passing day. He couldn't help that he wanted Jim with all of his heart and soul and body…he couldn't help the way that the other had completely enchanted him.

But he was beginning to feel as though his situation was likened to a piece of meat being dangled in front of a dog's nose. He could see what he wanted, he felt it every time the two of them touched, and yet it was never his. This knowledge was the worst of all.

"So, how is it that this holodeck works, Mr. Spock?" the Romulan Commander spoke finally, breaking his thoughts.

Spock saw that both of them had arrived at the holodeck, and that his deep thoughts had prevented him from realizing it. He stood further at attention at her question, and he replied, "We enter into the computer the type of environment we would like to visit, and using information stored in the computer banks, it will recreate this environment for us to the best of its ability, based on information it has available about that environment."

She then smiled in response and replied, "I have always found waterfalls to be some of nature's most precious gifts. Would it be possible for the holodeck to create an environment such as that?"

"Most certainly." Spock replied, keying the necessary codes into the computer to create this environment for her.

When the computer signaled it was done, Spock led the way inside the room. It was a terran rainforest kind of setting, and near the back of the room was a small, but indeed beautiful, waterfall. The holodeck was so convincing, he could feel the water vapor in the air and smell the dampness. He didn't fully appreciate the capabilities of the holodeck room until this moment.

"This holodeck does live up to my expectations." she finally said, seeming as though she really was enjoying herself.

Spock was glad that she at least was getting the optimal enjoyment out of the room. Though he was definitely commending the individual that created this wondrous invention, but his mind was understandably distracted from things such as this.

"I am glad to hear this." Spock replied finally in an even and almost disinterested tone, not looking a t her, instead fixing his eyes on the waterfall in front of him.

"Do you enjoy this scenery as well, Spock?" she asked him as she approached him, her voice now being tinged with something suggestive.

"It is a nice change from the way Vulcan...used to be." Spock was silent for a moment as he pushed down unwelcomed emotions that threatened to overwhelm him if they were given the chance to do so.

Though a considerable amount of time had passed since the destruction of Vulcan and the loss of his mother, the emotions were still formidable. He was able to cope up to this point only with Jim's help. Jim...it always came back to him.

"It is not surprising to hear that a desert planet was left wanting of this splendor." she said softly as she stepped near him, now also looking at the waterfall.

After standing together a few moments in silence, she then said, "Let us move closer to the water. It might be pleasant to feel it as well as look at it."

Spock said nothing, but he nodded, deciding that hers was a logical conclusion. Perhaps the proximity to the water would succeed in calming him where hours of meditation had failed. As the both of them observed the water cascading down perfectly into a small pool at the bottom, he felt the Romulan Commander stand yet closer to him.

Eventually, when he did not make a single move on his own, she lightly rubbed two fingers over the back of Spock's hand in a very slow and seductive motion that made a shiver travel up his arm. He hid this well though, and he turned to meet her eyes with a calm face, regarding her with an inquisitive look.

She moved boldly by taking a gentle hold of his hand and she softly said, "Move with me under the waterfall. You cannot say you have truly experienced its majesty without letting the water fall upon you and glide over your whole body."

Her eyes darkened with desire as she said it, every word dripping with very obvious suggestion. Even if Spock didn't look it, he was feeling a great deal of conflict over this. He knew what she wanted, and he wondered if he really could go through with it. It was not as though either of them were under the impression that this would amount to anything more, and, truthfully, he was still stinging from Kirk's rejection of his commitment, so he decided not stop this.

Though Spock did not often have casual relations, he just wanted to stop thinking about his Captain…his t'hy'la…whom he would never have. He let her lead him to stand under the waterfall, and he decided it was like stepping into an old terran shower, nothing like the sonic showers that were standard on the ship.

He took a deep breath and looked at her, keeping still as she moved closer to him, tilting her head up until her mouth was level with his ear, and she whispered in a low tone, "Can you feel the water cling to you, Spock? Can you feel it moving through your hair and over every muscle?"

She then raised a hand to run her fingers down the side of Spock's face in a long and passionate Vulcan kiss, and the sensation ran equally through the both of them at the motion. When he felt her lips softly come into contact with the bottom of his earlobe, he let his hands come up and rest at her waist, and he stood still to allow her to do as she wished.

Her lips then moved from his ear, down his cheek bone, and then finally to his lips. Spock was restraining most of his reactions, but he let his lips part with his slightly heavier breath to allow her to deepen the kiss. She took advantage of this opportunity and slid her tongue into his mouth, moving it over his in a very sensual way. Spock allowed her all of the control, just kissing back softly enough to show his willingness to participate.

The water made their hair and clothes stick to their bodies as they kissed, and she then moved her hands down his back, quickly hooking her hands under the bottom of both his uniform and under shirts, not wasting any time.

Giving him a very seductive smile, she said, "I wish to see you free of these garments provided to you by the humans. They are far too restrictive, in my opinion."

Spock said nothing, but he did move to make it easier for her to remove it. She seemed to then delight in rubbing her hands all over his bare chest, and Spock allowed himself to let out a small pleasured breath to leave his mouth as she did so. Her hands then rested on the hem of his uniform pants and she began to kiss her way down his chin and neck.

When the pants were also pushed down, she ran her hands up his hips and sides and kissed and licked at his chest. Finally, she stepped back and gave him a sexy smirk, and she began to disrobe herself, being careful to reveal her skin slowly and tantalizingly until she also was only in her undergarments.

"I am sure you have missed the company of women closer to your kind during your service in Starfleet. I assure you that I am nothing like any of those human women." she said in a low tone, every step she took closer to him careful and deliberate.

Spock readily admitted that this was an arousing situation, realizing only a fool would try to deny these feelings in himself, but he couldn't help but be disappointed by this deep down, since she wasn't his soul mate.

He took a breath and focused his mind on the task at hand. He would not and could not think about Jim in such a manner, since it was all a useless hope. One cannot simply wish something into being, he knew that better than anyone. Being lost in these thoughts for a moment, he didn't realize that she had gotten close to him again until she was pressing her nearly nude body against him.

She raised her mouth up to his ear again, and whispered huskily, "Touch my body, Spock."

She underlined her words by then running her tongue along his earlobe, and it was so sudden and unexpected, Spock couldn't help the shiver that coursed through him as a result. He rested his hands on her waist and then slid them up her sides, deciding her skin was warm…almost a little too warm.

Nothing like Jim's inviting and cool skin…he gasped when he felt her tongue push further into his ear and her hands slid down his back to grab his ass. He reminded himself that this was a distraction, and that thoughts of Jim had no place here. As if to challenge himself, he then moved his hands more deliberately over her back and began to disengage her brassiere as she now kissed her way down to one of his nipples, taking it into her mouth and running her tongue roughly over it.

Finally, she ran one of he hands over his arousal, and he couldn't help but make a small sound of approval at the action. Spock then put a finger under her chin to gently, but firmly, tilt her head up to meet her lips once again. Perhaps she wasn't Jim, but her attractiveness and talent in the activity could not be denied, and Spock decided that it would be best for him to let her do as she wished and try his best to enjoy it.

He then removed her top garment as they kissed, letting out a hot breath as she continued to stroke him. Now left only in their underwear, she began to walk the both of them closer to a large rock that was under the waterfall, and then leaned herself very invitingly over it.

The seductive smile was back on her face as she hooked her hands under the band of her underwear and slowly pushed them off of herself. She then held out a hand to beckon him closer.

"A Romulan woman is nothing like a human one." she practically purred at Spock when he complied with her, then beginning to push down the last article of clothing as she continued to speak, "We are not nearly as fragile and take much pride in our ability to handle our mens' full strength."

She raised an eyebrow at him and so challenged him to test her statement. Spock then leaned himself over her and kissed her deep, her skin rubbing against his in a delicious way with the coolness and wetness caused by the water on their bodies from the waterfall, and the water vapor that was ever present in the air.

He felt her bury her fingers in his hair and pull his body on top of hers, and he tried his best to settle himself on her in the most gentle way possible and this caused her to chuckle lightly.

"Please do not feel that you must treat me with care. I would much rather see you pushing me to my limits." She said in an amused and provocative way, but then her tone darkened considerably as she continued to speak, "Take me now, Spock."

Spock then looked at her and took a deep breath, his heart rate considerably elevated from this encounter, and his breath coming out in short pants. Though her request was a logical expectation from the chain of events, he felt a strange kind of anxiousness at the idea. He refused to consider the root of this feeling, however, because it was inevitably something to do with Jim, and he refused to entertain those thoughts at this time.

To dispel any further thought, he nodded and gracefully positioned himself above her, and then buried himself inside of her in a quick thrust. He found her face quite fascinating as he created a rhythm between them, and decided that this was pleasant. Her eyes burned with her desire and soon she was moving her hips against his to cause his thrusts to go deeper.

"Harder!" she practically commanded, and Spock easily complied.

With so much of their bodies in contact, Spock could feel what she needed, and he couldn't deny that he would like completion himself. Though this definitely wasn't like any time with Jim, where he could so easily lose control of himself, he felt himself approaching his orgasm quickly with her squeezing so tight around him. Wishing to please her, he moved inside of her fast and hard, and the deep groans and gasps he heard in response let him know he was on the right track.

Finally she was pushed over the edge with a loud cry and she took Spock with her as the amount of stimulation he was receiving was impossible to withstand. He held on to her as they gathered themselves, and he naturally recovered much quicker than her, due to his Vulcan training. And, he long acknowledged that Jim was the only person that could devastate him to a point where he would need a significant amount of recovery time.

He pushed that thought out of his mind as he felt an illogical stab of guilt. There was no reason that he could not enjoy others' company, especially due to his Captain's view of how their situation should be. When he felt as though she had recovered an acceptable amount, he carefully distanced himself and then worked on getting his wet clothes back on.

She did the same, but she carefully watched all of his movements as he dressed. Internally he felt a little embarrassed at her scrutiny, but he did not let this show as he said, "My shift is to start in twenty point four six minutes, and I would like to visit my quarters to change before that time. Please allow me to escort you back to your quarters as I make my way there."

She raised an eyebrow and then gave him a small knowing smile.

"That would be acceptable." She remarked when she was fully dressed in her also soaked clothes.

Before they made their way out of the waterfall pool, she put a hand on his chest and placed one more kiss on his lips, then meeting eyes with him for a moment before pulling fully away to move towards the entrance into the holodeck. The moment that the two of them exited the room, their clothes, hair, and bodies were back to being as dry as ever, as even the water in that room was a complex hologram, and once again, their tryst would be a secret from the rest of the ship.

As the two of them walked swiftly to her room, Spock pushed down the sense of guilt and wrongness he had of the whole situation. On reaching her door, he said quickly and politely, "I will be proceeding to my shift at this time. If there is anything you require, do not hesitate to contact me on the bridge."

"I will keep this in mind." she replied, her eyes as scrutinizing as ever.

Spock nodded and then quickly made his way to his quarters to change before his shift, hoping that seeing his Captain would not increase his guilt.

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