Chapter 15
My One True Love
When I woke up it was still dark out and Edward was gone. I could hear soft voices from downstairs and I knew Edward would know I had woken. He had told me once that he was so attuned to me that he one heard my eyelashes flutter when I was in gym even though he was across campus. I got out of bed and stretched and put on the bathrobe that was left for me at the edge of the bed.
After stopping in the bathroom for what Edward calls my "Human Moments" I made my way downstairs. Edward was sitting in the living room with Jasper and Emmett, they were playing some game on Xbox that I had no clue about. I walked over to Edward and crawled into his lap, Jasper and Emmett both looked up for a second to smile at me but than went back to their game.
"You only slept a couple of hours Kitten, did we wake you?" I yawned and he smiled, "No you didn't wake me, sometimes I just wake up!" I answered. "How are you feeling," he asked concerned. "Ok I guess," I answered, "What happened to Justin?" Edwards jaw snapped shut and he answered; "Carlisle went and got him and left him at the edge of the woods. Someone already found him and he is at the hospital, he is going to be ok but he won't be making it to graduation or anywhere else for that matter anytime soon!" Emmett guffawed, "Yeah my Rosie really did a job on that guy!" "How did Rosalie get there before you guys?" Jasper paused the game and both he and Emmett turned in our direction and my body went still and rigid, "What?" I asked searching Edward's face frantically, "What happened?" Edward starting drawing small circles on my back, "Calm down Kitten everything is ok, it's just an interesting story that's all!" My brows knitted together in confusion, "Well lets hear it already!"
Emmett started, "Bella, the night that you asked Rosie to go home with you was more significant than you probably realize. As you were sleeping Rosalie watched over you that night, she said that you had the worst nightmares and the sound of you crying out in your sleep broke her heart so to speak! She has always wanted children so much and I think she made some type of inexplicable connection with you that night, she came back different than she left here!" I looked at Edward and he simply nodded.
Emmett continued, when Edward came home from your Seattle trip alone, Rosalie was very upset to hear that you would be attending the party with Angela and none of us would be tagging along. She begged Edward to go or send Alice but Edward would not budge saying you deserved to have this night with your friends. Rosalie said she had a feeling but Alice did not see anything happening probably because nothing was decided at that point so Edward refused to interfere."
I hung my head, this all could have been avoided if I had not made such a big deal about independence and boundaries, Edward sensed my shame and brought my chin up to face him saying "Bella, don't you dare feel bad about this, none of this is your fault, in fact it is not our fault either, for once lets let the blame fall where it belongs, with Justin!" I smiled softly at him, "Ok Edward" I said.
Emmett continued with his story, "Anyway, when you did not call Alice in a timeframe suitable for Rosalie she all of a sudden needed to go "hunting"." "How did she hide that from you?" I asked Edward, he laughed softly, "Rosalie has a lot of experience hiding her thoughts from me, one quick way to get me to ignore her thoughts all together is to start thinking of whatever it is her and Emmett did last night or what she plans on doing with him tonight!" I laughed softly, "Yeah I guess that would do it for me too!" I laughed.
Anyway, she went by Angela's and you guys weren't there so she went by the party, she knew that you left and followed your scent which became mingled with another scent that went into the forest. That's when she smelled your fear and followed that into the forest and found you there, and I guess you know the rest."
"She came looking for me?" I whispered. Edward held me tightly into his chest, "Isabella, when are you going to accept that you are a part of this family and we will protect you with the same ferocity that we would protect each other with?" I nodded my head, tears starting, "Where is she?" I demanded. "I'm here Bella," Rosalie answered from the foot of the staircase. I put my hand on my heart and hung my head, "Rosalie," I whispered, "I am so…. I…. You have to know…" "I do know Bella!" She came and took my hand leading back to the sofa where I sat by Edward and she took her place by Emmett, there was streak of white down the stairs and Alice was in Jasper's lap.
"Bella," Rosalie started, "You have to know that you saved Edward, saved him from himself, saved him from a life devoid of true happiness and solitude, you saved his humanity. What I did not realized until tonight is that you have truly touched this family. You saved me too Bella! You made me realize that I can be more than I ever thought I could be, I can be a friend, a sister, a wife free of jealousy and bitterness. I helped you tonight because I did not want you to experience what I went through, I did not want my brother to have to experience the fall out, I did not want your father or the rest of my family to have to see you like that, because you're my sister Bella, I love you!"
The tears were streaming down my face, "Rosalie" I whispered, "Thank you, for tonight and for everything. I can't even tell you!" Rosalie smiled at me and than looked at Edward pointedly, Edward laughed softly, "Come on Kitten, time to go back to sleep!" he threw me over his shoulder and ran me up the stairs and lay my gently on his bed. I scooted towards the center and laid down, a moment later I felt his cool body against mine. I began to think over everything that had happened lingering on Jasper and Rosalie's references to my being a part of the family, their sister. I knew Edward would be asking me to marry him, knowing Edward probably sooner, than later. Did I want to spend the rest of my life with Edward, no, I wanted eternity with him! I guess I knew what my answer would be. We had both compromised so much but I know he had made the greatest sacrifice by agreeing to make love to me before we were married. I would also be asking him to change me, make me immortal and although I knew it would be a bitter fight in the end he would acquiesce because he wanted me for the rest of his existence as well. For these things that he would sacrifice for me I would push aside my fears about marriage learned from watching Renee and Charlie and I would float down an isle wearing a poofy dress of Alice's choosing and say the words that he so desired to hear. I just hoped I was wrong and it would be later instead of sooner.
Wednesday was my high school graduation; I had been living as an adult taking care of my parents for so long it almost seemed comical that I was barely graduating from high school! Tomorrow night I would be spending the night in my room at Charlie's and for the first time since his return to Forks, Edward would be with me.
So much had happened and yet everything was in its right place.
Edwards arm snaked around my waist bringing me closer into his chest, "What's wrong, I whispered, can't sleep?" Edward chuckled, "Ha Ha Bella, I couldn't help but notice that you can't sleep and I thought I might be able to help you with that!" And with that his hand slipped into my pajama bottoms under my panties making silent promises I knew he would keep. I turned my head and his lips met mine and I relaxed my body into Edward's knowing that his magical fingers would play my body like a precious instrument strumming and stroking coaxing beautiful sounds from me. I closed my eyes and began floating to a place where only my one true love could reach me.
The End
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A Conversation With Edward & Bella
D sits with Edward and Bella to have a last conversation about Becoming Bella.
D: So it is really nice to have you both here together, let's start with you Bella. You are very well acquainted with the Bella Swan in the S.M. Twilight series. What do you think of her and what do you see as the biggest differences between the two of you?
B: Well, first I have to say that there is no your Bella and her Bella, we are in fact the same Bella. That being said I think that the way you each write for me is very similar. They both have their strengths and weaknesses. One thing I love about your Bella is that I get to curse a little, I get to have sex thank goodness but you keep the enough of the core values of the story that I still feel like myself. S.M.'s Bella has a much stronger relationship with Charlie and Renee, S.M's Bella has Jacob and the whole La Push gang so there are definitely pluses and minuses to each!
D: What about you Edward, same question.
E: I really like the way both you and S.M. write Edward but unlike Bella, your versions of me are completely different. The Edward you write for me is a more dynamic character able to change and adapt in more significant ways. I think part of that may be because we don't see as much of The Cullen's in S.M.'s books as we see in your story, in seeing the situation through the eyes of my siblings you really get more of a sense of who I am. I see S.M.'s version of me as more of a gentleman which I prefer although, I hate to admit it I was happy to be able to show my love for Bella physically.
D: Bella, were you as confident as you seemed when you were taking off your clothes in front of Edward on the date?
B: NO!!!! What was really funny is that I felt way more self-conscious when I was wearing that lingerie than when I was actually naked! There is a point when Edward explains why we are going to do it for the first time up against the wall, which on a side note was very freakin hot, thanks for that!
D: Your very welcome!
B: Anyway, once he says those words to me, it really clicks, he is it for me, my forever. Once I accept that there is no reason to feel self conscious ever.
D: Edward you and Bella really kinda let your hair down on the date as far as you both curse casually and speak rather candidly in a grown up way about sex. I know how you feel about cursing being unladylike behavior, why don't you ever seem to disapprove when Bella is doing it?
E: I realize immediately that this is a change in her that has happened as a direct result of my leaving and I know that there are some things that are going to be different that I will have to accept and also, I think it's hot hearing dirty words come out of that pretty little mouth!
D: laughes! Edward you tell Bella a story about your dog Moxie the morning after your date. I have to say I was very impressed that your uptight emo ass was willing to tell that story, care to say why?
E: A lot of really embarrassing things happen to Bella during the course of our relationship and I always feel bad about that so when she asked me to tell her something about me no one else knew I chose one of the few human memories I recall, to be honest I think the reason I remember that story is because it is so embarrassing!
B: I was also really shocked not only that he told me that story but that he laughed so hard with me! That was so dope! - Please stop making me say that, that's a you thing D not a me thing!
D: Sorry!
D: So were you guys happy with the way the story ended?
B&E: Sort of!
B: I want to know what's next, what does the house in Hanover look like, do we go there alone or does the family go with us? Does Edward propose? What kind of car does he get me and do I get pissed about it? What's my major? Do I become immortal?
E: I feel the same way, and also, we should have more sex!
D: Would you guys feel better if I said there could be a sequel to this story at a future date?
B&E: Definitely!
D: So Bella, all in all how do you feel about the process you had to go through to Become Bella?
B: I have to say that I think I am glad Edward left so that I had that opportunity to see myself from another perspective. In the end although it was painful and lonely it was definitely for the best!
D: Edward, same question.
E: I feel the same way, it is easy to assume that being alive for a century you have picked up a few things along the way but what I learned through this experience is that I really didn't know what being a man meant until Bella became a woman in her own right and I had to deal with her on that level. It was a good thing!
D: Any last words before we wrap this up?
B: Why did you change the fragrance of my hair to peppermint?
D: Good question, I did it because there are some storyline standards that I am really sick of! One of them is Bella always smelling like strawberries. I am really sorry if that irritates you but a bizillion other people will write you smelling like strawberries ok!
E: Can we continue to have sex until to write the sequel?
D: Geez one track Edward! Yes, ok!
B: Can you tell me a little about your next story?
D: Tell you what, I will leave you with a little of the first chapter how does that sound?
B: Perfect!
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A Change of Heart
Chapter 1
Alone is Only Alone if You Get the Hell Out of Here!
I groan as I turn over in bed looking at the clock, it's 8AM on the first day of Christmas Break and I am already pissed at my sister Alice who is currently pounding on my bedroom door.
"What the fuck do you want Alice???"
The door flies open and I am suddenly impaled with 89 pounds of irritating munchkin fairy. "Edward, mom wants you down stairs A-SAP, she has been calling and calling you for like 10 minutes!" I run my hand through my hair and pinch the bridge of my nose in an effort to hold at bay the already forming migraine. "Alice, do you know meaning of Christmas fucking vacaction?" Alice jumps off me and begins bouncing on my bed, "Of course I do silly, I LOVE Christmas vacation, we get to sleep in and stay up late watching movies and we can shop and shop and shop!" "You know what Alice, none of that shit sounds even remotely interesting to me!" Alice's brow furrows and I groan silently knowing I am in for it now. "You know what Edward I am getting just a teensy bit tired of your brooding bad boy act!!! You never smile or laugh anymore and you spend entirely to much time alone!"
That's it, I cant fucking take it anymore, I jump out of bed and grab her around the waist setting her outside my bedroom door, "You know what Alice, alone is only alone if you get the hell out of here! Why don't you take a fucking hike so I can fulfill my brooding bad boy persona ok?" I slam the door and lock it waiting for the inevitable response. "Get your ass downstairs Edward, mom is waiting for you and the next time you decide to man handle me in the morning make sure you have taken care of your business cause my foot touched your morning wood and that's just disgusting!"
I shrugged to myself, ok than, time to take care of business and might as well multi-task and get a shower in too right!
20 minutes later I am dressed and downstairs, there is a cup of coffee and a plate of pancakes at the breakfast bar and I know they are for me. I sit down and take a sip, "Hey mom!" Esme Cullen is not really my mom, she is actually my mother's sister but she and her husband Carlisle adopted me and my sister Alice when I was 6 and Alice was 4 after our parents died in a car accident. I don't remember a whole lot about my parents but Esme and Carlisle have been the best parents a guy can ask for so I don't spend a lot of time dwelling. Esme and Carlisle have a son of their own Emmett who is the same age as me and as far as I am concerned he is my brother just like Alice is my sister!
Esme came over and kissed me on the forehead, "Edward can you do me a favor and take your father his lunch, he forgot it this morning." My eyebrow cocked suspiciously "Dad forgot his lunch?" I asked. Esme smiled patiently at me, "Yes Edward, he has been so stressed out about this patient that was transferred into his care last month he has been acting a little out of character lately." "Ok," I answered, I will take him his lunch, but what's up with this patient of his?" Her face became distressed, "She is a young girl with advanced Leukemia, your father thinks that they will be able to help her but she has had a lot of setbacks so he wants very much to do right by her." I was in awe of my father, he was a lot to live up to but I was hoping to get my acceptance letter to UW soon so I could begin my studies in pre-law, I know it saddened Carlisle that I did not choose to follow in his footsteps but I just didn't feel medicine was my calling.
An hour later I was walking up to Mrs. Cope at the reception desk, I put on my best sexy smile, I loved to flirt with the older ladies in the hospital! "Hey Mrs. Cope!" "Edward, how are you dear?" I smiled lazily, "Doing great thanks, is my dad in his office?" Mrs. Cope checked her paperwork and than answered, "Your dad is doing rounds right now, check the 3rd floor room 317 you will probably find him there." I pushed away from the desk waving at her as I left and headed up the elevator.
I walked into room 317, which turns out is a single patient room; there was a young woman in the bed with a pink scarf tied around her head. I couldn't see her face, it was turned to the side, and she was sleeping. She looked so tiny and I knew by looking at her that she was very sick, I really wanted to see her face but I knew I should leave before she woke. Just as I started leaving she turned her head and looked right at me.
"Hi" she whispered, "Hi," I answered. I had never seen anyone so delicate or beautiful in my entire life, in that moment I would have done anything to make her better, to make her smile. "Are you an angel, did I finally die?" she asked. I sucked in a breath sharply, she's dying!!! I had to swallow hard and clear my throat, "I'm not an angel." I said, her lips made the cutest little O shape, "But your so beautiful!" she said, "You must be an angel, its ok you know I have kind of been expecting you, I'm not scared!" All of a sudden everything I had ever been sad or upset about in my whole entire life seemed insignificant, this girl, this beautiful girl was the only thing that mattered and I knew in an instant I was tied to her. As my life was transforming before my eyes the door opened and my father walked in.
"Miss Swan" he said cheerily, "how are we doing today?" it was just then that he noticed me. "Well" she said, I feel really bad Dr. Cullen almost like I am cheating on you!" My father laughed, why is that Miss Swan?" "Well since the day I met you I have always thought that you were the most handsome man in the entire world but this man walked into the room and I am afraid he has taken your position as most handsome man in the entire world, you know this small town is a breeding ground for amazingly attractive people!" Carlisle laughed and sat on the edge of her bed, "Well Miss Swan, if you must cheat on me I guess I will have to excuse it just this once as I cannot deny my own son a gift so precious as yourself!" She laughed the most beautiful delicate sound I had ever heard, "I should have known he would be your son Dr. Cullen!" "Miss Swan if you would excuse me for just a moment I am going to step out for a moment and speak with my son." "Sure sure" she laughed, "I will just wait for you here!"
I followed Carlisle out into the hall and he put a hand on my shoulder, "Its good to see you Edward, what brings you around today?" I held up the lunch bag dumbly, "Mom wanted me to bring your lunch." He laughed softly, "Would you mind leaving it in my office for me?" "Uhhh sure dad, hey what's wrong with her?" Carlisle's face became serious and full of concern, "Isabella is very sick Edward, she has leukemia and things have been very grave for her for sometime. We have recently made some progress however so I am a little optimistic."
I looked at my watch, "Visiting hours started 2 hours ago, why isn't there anyone here with her?" I studied my dad's face he was a little sad, "She doesn't have anyone Edward, every once in a while she has a friend who is away at college come and visit while home on vacation but her parents died relatively recently so she is all alone." I felt like there was a hand on my heart squeezing, I looked up into my fathers kind eyes and thankfully he threw me a life jacket, "I know your really busy Edward but I would consider it a personal favor to me if your could come by now and than and keep her company." I pretended to consider his proposal for a moment and than nodded, "I will be back tomorrow" he smiled and patted me on the back, thank you son please don't forget to leave my lunch in my office!