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"It was a gift." I reply, pushing my beloved Evenstar into his hand. My eyes find his.
"Keep it."

I am the Evenstar of the Elves, the Lady Arwen Undómiel. A child of privilege, honour and nobility from the moment I was born all those centuries ago. I spent my childhood in blissful ignorance of the shadow spreading across middle earth. Perhaps my father had told the servants and people of Imladris to never speak of the troubles of men in my presence; clearly he was determined that such…fleeting…times should not sully my supposed purity. All of the Eldar had put me upon a pedestal and no-one could hear me screaming. I wanted…no needed for someone to look at me as Arwen; not as the Evenstar. My heart yearned for someone to just once look at me as something other than a symbol of hope for our people.
Then there was him.

Lost in the darkness
Hoping for a sign
Instead there's only silence
Can't you hear my screams?

Never stop hoping
Means you know where you are
Now one thing's for sure
You're always in my heart

One cold winters day my brothers came galloping into Imladris with a wounded mortal in their arms. Father was in a council meeting so as usual I was summoned to treat the poor man as best I could. He was raving in his fever so I took his hand and willed some of my supposed grace to soothe him. His eyes shot open and my heart stopped in that moment.
"Arwen."
"Estel."
My first friend. Even when I was barely a century and he was about seven we were inseparable. We would play in the orchards and woods around Imladris till twilight fell. In the summer the pair of us would swim in the rivers and streams that gave Rivendell it's name. I was happier than I had ever been but Ada was furious. Maybe he saw what we did not at our young age. We had fallen in love.
I think that's why he forbade you to return until you had proven yourself to him. In his eyes only a king of men would ever be a suitable husband for his daughter. I wanted to leave Imladris with you that day and never look back but I had to do my duty as the Evenstar one last time before it's light left me. My people needed hope and I was the only one who could give it to them. Each night I wondered where you were, fear clouded my judgement and I almost left for the undying lands…please forgive me.

Lost in the darkness
Trying to find your way home
I want to embrace you
And never let you go

Almost have you in heaven
So no-one can hurt you so
Living in agony cos' I just do not know
where you are

"That future is gone."
"But it is not lost."

I thank the Valar that I did not submit to fear, instead I returned to Imladris as Arwen Queen of Men. Though we were apart I felt you near me as the light of the Elves left me as a mortal. Yet I was not afraid. You taught me to fight for what I believe in; for Frodo, for Middle Earth, for us. To give up my eternity is such a small price for such overwhelming happiness that our union will bring. It will happen, I am sure. I have seen our son.

I was born as Arwen Undómiel, Evenstar of the Elves

I will die as Queen Arwen of Gondor.

Wherever you are
I won't stop searching
Whatever it takes me to go

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying
Until my dying day

I just need to know
Whatever has happened
The truth will free my soul