I'm so sorry. My computer crashed and my almost complete chapter was lost. Also school has me going insane. It is so much work. I'm going to try to update sooner, but there are no promises from my end, but don't worry I will not abandon this story, it will be finished, it just might take a while. Also the other chapter I had going was better than this one, but what are you going to do? I am going to try to dedicate atleast an hour in the morning to the making of this story, so hopefully updates will come faster.
Previously;
A week had gone by. Nurses came and went, doctors came and went, but one thing remained constant. Elliot. He was always by her side. The hospital staff knew him by name, and after one night of sleeping in the chair, the nurses brought in a bed for Elliot. He was grateful. They would bring him coffee, and meals. They made sure he ate. Otherwise he would go all day without food. Olivia stirred in her sleep on occasion. This kept Elliot hopeful. He would say it was her trying to wake up. The doctors remained optimistic. Elliot hadn't been home since he was kidnapped. He would still be in the same clothes if it weren't for Cragen and the gang. They brought him clothes. Elliot had given his statement many times. Tanner PD talked to him again after he got back to Manhattan. Elliot got sick of repeating his statement over and over again, so he wrote it and just copied it for everybody who needed it. The rest of the time he just waited. Everybody was worried about him, he didn't talk to anybody, and he didn't move from her side at all. Everybody knew if Olivia didn't make it, if she dies, then Elliot would die right there with her, clinging onto her had at her bedside.
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"Elliot" Fin said as he entered Olivia's hospital room.
Elliot grunted in response.
"Elliot we need you to take us back to the house that Jim kept you two in. PD has searched and searched and they cannot find it. They refuse to wait anymore, we stalled them as long as possible but they need to close this case." Fin said.
"NO!" Elliot's voice boomed. "I. Will. Not. Leave. Her" Elliot's voice turned deadly calm.
"El, man, I understand, but we need to start this investigation. Tanner is not happy about having to wait this long."
"I don't care. I'm not leaving Olivia, not until she tells me to, herself."
"El, do you think that she would want you sitting here, instead of helping to put the people that put her here behind bars?" Fin asked, getting sick of Elliot's 'pity me' attitude.
"What do you mean? Jim's dead, he was the only one that was involved." Elliot asked looking up at Fin for the first time since he entered the room.
"Does the name Cindy ring a bell? We have not recovered Jim's body so we are proceeding as if he is alive until we have proof of the contrary."
"Cindy was just a pawn in Jims sick game, and HE IS DEAD. I killed him and felt for a pulse, there was none." Elliot said, just wanting Fin to leave him alone.
"Cap sent me down here to tell you that either you cooperate and help with this investigation or he will come down here and drag your ass out of here in cuffs for impeding a police investigation and aiding and abetting after the fact."
"He cant do that…FINE… Give me today days, I'll be ready tomorrow morning, pick me up then."
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(Tomorrow morning, after Elliot left)
What is going on. I have always felt him, he has always been here, it kept me going. Now I just feel empty, I feel nothingness surrounding me. I'm so cold right now, I want to get warm. There is a void that is deep within me. His presence kept me grounded, and now that its gone I feel like floating away. I'm fighting it, but the pull is so strong. I need to find him, but I still cant open my eyes, I cannot make myself move. Why cant I move?
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Elliot was flown back to Tanner. He had made arrangements for Alex to stay with Olivia during the day, and, just incase he didn't make it back by night, Cragen to stay all night. It made him feel a little bit better, knowing that people he trusted were with her, but he still missed seeing her next to him.
Once Elliot arrived in Tanner the local PD was there to snatch him up and get their investigation on way. Fin was with him.
"We stopped at some gas station, that was when Olivia took off out of the car, when I was inside. And before you waste your breath no I don't know the name and no I don't remember where it was. We just jumped on a road and the hospital was on the left. We'd better go to the hospital and back track from there." He told them. They nodded in agreement.
Elliot lead them to the station. He tediously worked his way back. It took him all day, but he managed to find what he thought was the house.
"It was dark, but I think its this one, I really wasn't looking at the house though." Elliot said, exhaustion evident in his voice. He had called Alex atleast every hour, checking on Olivia. And it was about that time again.
"She's fine Elliot." Alex answered the phone.
"Good I found the house and now I'm on my way back. I'm going to leave the investigating to them."
"Elliot does Olivia do a lot of moving?" Alex asked.
"Not a whole lot, but she moves sometimes, she is trying to wake up when she does. Why?" Elliot asked panic rising in his voice.
"Well the doctors say its just random muscle spasms, but she has been moving a lot since you left, and it just seams to be increasing. But if it means she is waking up that is good." Alex said, but she sounded like she was doubting herself on that last part.
"I'm on my way." Eliot said, simultaneously grabbing the keys from Fin's hand.
"Hey man give those back." Fin said chasing a running Elliot to the car.
"GET IN NOW" Elliot yelled over his shoulder at Fin.
Guessing that the phone call was something bad about Olivia, Fin did as he was told and jumped into the passenger seat. Elliot barely waited for his feet to leave the ground before he pealed out of there and flew into town, and the awaiting helicopter. A few times during the trip Fin tried to get what happened out of Elliot but he just remained focused on the road, and Fin gave up, assuming it was better Elliot be focused on the road, because at the speeds they were going, death would have been instant if Elliot was distracted.
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Its been to long, I cant hold on anymore. Every second I fight it becomes stronger. My body just wants to float away, but I'm scard of what will happen if I let it. He was there with me for so long, and now he is gone, and has been for a while. I need to find him, I hope he is alright. There is somebody new here now, I don't know who she is. All I know is its not him.
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Elliot arrived back at the hospital in record time. He rushed into Olivia's room in time to see her struggling with an imaginary foe.
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What is happening. I feel like someone is holding me down and not letting me move. I feel him again, maybe he will get this guy off of me.
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"Liv, sweetheart, open your eyes and look at me. Come on baby, its ok, just look at me." Elliot whispered in her ear. Olivia let out a soft moan but didn't open her eyes. Elliot began to stroke her forehead, whispering the same mantra over and over. Olivia moaned again and opened her eyes just a crack.
"LIV! Olivia, hey baby." Elliot said, tears thick in his voice.
Olivia opened her mouth to speak, finding it dry as cotton. Elliot noticed this and gave her a sip of water. With a newly refreshed mouth Olivia tried again.
"You… I felt you."
"You felt me?" Elliot asked, confusion evident on his face.
"Ya." She looked over at Alex and asked, "So who are you?"
"Alex, I'll go get a doctor." Alex said rushing out of the room.
"She wasn't dressed like a nurse." Olivia questioned.
"The doctor will be here in a minuet Liv."
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After examining Olivia the doctor exited her room and talked to an awaiting 1-6 squad. After telling the doctor that Olivia was awake, Alex went and called Cragen who in turn told the whole squad and they all rushed over.
"As I told all of you Detective Benson suffered quite extensive head trauma. Amnesia is not something we know a lot about. With amnesia a persons memory is gone. We don't know why some people regain memory, others don't regain anything, and yet others still, regain bits and pieces. The human brain is such a mystery to us. Detective Benson is suffering from complete memory loss, but her memories are buried. She has feelings, she feels something that she should have a memory of. I fully believe that she will regain some, if not all, of her memory, but that is not a 100% guarantee, because as I said, it is a mystery. Hope for the best, but plan for the worst, because there is just no way to tell. Though with my experience in these types of cases, familiarity can help restore memories." The doctor explained.
Elliot and Fin entered the room. Olivia seemed to know Elliot, but as the rest of the squad made their way through the room, Olivia didn't know anyone else. Everybody, Elliot included, wondered why he was the only one she remembered.
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"Stabler." Elliot said stepping out of Olivia's room to answer the phone.
"Detective Stabler this is Officer Patron from Tanner Police Department. I'm afraid I have some bad news for you and your partner…"
A/N; Dun Dun DUNNNNNNNN was that an evil ending. What do you guys think the bad news is?
Again I'm sorry this update took FOREVER and a day. If you hate me for it, tell me in a review. I love all of you that take the time to review, it means so much to me.
I CANT WAIT FOR WEDNESDAY! OMG those previews on were friggin intense. Let me know what you think about this chapter