*Ashley's Point Of View*

"I have a memory to share. If that's alright," I said, blushing delicately. Sometimes being a new in the family still made me nervous. Even if it had been over a year. Almost 2 now actually.

"We'd love to hear it Ashley," Carlisle said reassuringly.

I turned to look at Seth, who's lap I was sitting it. I let my eyes gaze deep into his, letting the love flow between us before saying, "Remember all those days we didn't get to share together? I don't want you to miss a single one."

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I walked into my office on the 5th floor of the Kaci building here in the miniature town of Stockton. Sadly this building is the tallest building in town. By 3 stories.

"Good morning Kathy. Anything new today?" I asked pensively. I loved doing my job but I hated all the death that came with it. I should have become a child lawyer or whatever the technical term was. But I knew my heart couldn't handle seeing the parents every day.

"You have to review the Everfresh file for next week and Ms. Luc called. She wants you to give her a jingle. I have a feeling she's going to be canceling her appointment for tomorrow," Kathy informed me.

I thanked her before walking into my beautiful office. It was decorated just to my particular tastes. The walls were a mocha brown with blue strips and purple polka dots. It was perfect for me. The floor was a dark wood, as was the ceiling. The mahogany desk had called out to me when I had seen it in the shop. Within 3 minutes, I had bought it. It was a great investment.

I sat down in my chair and pulled the Luc file towards me before picking up the phone and dialing Bridget's number. Bridget Luc answered on the 3rd ring. "Hello?"

"Good morning Bridge. How are you today?" I asked kindly. I had known Bridget since I moved here to Stockton. She was an amazing person who had just lost her father.

"I'm holding up. But I have to reschedule the reading of the will if that's at all possible. Apparently my brothers won't be able to get here until next week. It's some sort of national holiday over in Italy and everyone's flying so the planes are booked," she said, her voice cracking slightly from all the crying.

"I'm sorry Bridge. Of course you can reschedule. Just call when they get in and we can fit you in. We always have time for family," I told her.

We said our goodbyes and I set her file to the side, reaching now for the Everfresh file. It looked like Caleb had decided to leave everything to Jacob Black. I remember when Caleb told me about his life in Washington. He'd loved it there but after the death of his wife and son he had to get far away from there so he came here. To the worlds smallest town. Not literally the smallest but pretty damn close.

It seemed pretty cut and dry. An airtight will with absolutely no one to contest it. Caleb was an only child, both parents deceased, along with all other known relatives. I had made an appointment to fly to Tanana in a few days but it seemed I had tomorrow free. Then would probably be the best time to go. That way I had no reason to leave when Bridget needed me.

The rest of the day crawled by slowly. I had to read 2 wills and write another but that was the gist of it. It was actually the normal around here. Most of my out of town clients only came on the weekends due to their jobs and my near by clients weren't exactly beating down the door. Good thing I don't need money. I would have to move to a bigger town next time though, to keep myself occupied.

I heard Kathy leave and I turned my iPod on. Of course Michael Jackson's song Smile just had to start playing. I listened quietly to the words as I curled up into a ball in my overly large chair.

Smile though your heart is aching.

Smile even though its breaking.

When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by…

If you smile through your fear and sorrow.

Smile and maybe tomorrow you'll find life is still worth while, if you just smile.

Light up your face with gladness, hide every trace of sadness.

Although a tear may be ever so near, that's the time you must keep trying.

Smile, what's the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile, if you'll just…

Smile though your heart is aching.

Smile even though it's breaking.

When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by, if you smile through your fear and sorrow.

You'll find that life is still worthwhile, if you just…smile…

That's the time you must keep on trying.

Smile, what's the use of crying?

You'll find life is still worthwhile, if you'll just smile.

As the words washed over me, I found myself standing on the ledge of my balcony, the wind whipping through my hair. The ledge was about 2 feet across, because it doubled as counter when we had the annual office parties. It's where we put the liqueur. I took first one step, then another, and finally my third step was met with naught but air. Suddenly the ground was rushing up to meet me. I sighed, knowing instantly this wasn't going to work. Hurt maybe but defiantly not work.

As I hit the ground I felt my ankle roll. Great. I knew I had sprained it but that was the extent of my injuries. The sidewalk would need fixed but I was perfectly fine. I sighed, walking back into the building to collect my things before heading home. Next time I'll try 10 stories.

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"Wow," Seth said, a breath of air gushing out. I laughed, nodding my head. I was thankful to have met Seth. I had never had a suicidal though since. He truly was my soul mate.

A/N: Holy shit! I updated! And quickly. Stockton doesn't actually have a 5 story building. Or a 3 story building. Hell the middle school is only 2 floors and that's just because it's built into a hill. So yay! I got to say the tagline! *Does a silent cheer* But as the author, I get all the best shit. :-P Love you all. Review!