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What a bitch... jealous much? eh, yeah!

AN: This is all me... No Beta...

I hope you enjoy...

Paul Meraz

I sighed and pushed my pie away.

I just couldn't fuck eat; and that's saying much.

Sitting beside me on my left, was Sam, and on my right, was Seth. Sam looked up from his pie and stared at my plate before turning his eyes back to me and doing it again a couple of times more. In my peripheral, I could see Seth looking up from his home work and doing the same thing.

Seth was having a hard time on his freshman homework, just as Collin and Brady were having trouble with their eighth grade math homework beside him. On the other side of the twins was a flustered Jared, who was trying to help them as best as he could.

But we just couldn't!

I couldn't eat. Seth can't concentrate on his homework. Sam isn't wolfing down his food like normal, more like a normal human being instead of the scary looking werewolf he was. Collin and Brady couldn't understand their homework. Jared couldn't help them correctly.

We just fucking couldn't!

All because of Bella fucking Swan. It's been a two weeks since we found her in the Cullen mansion.

Bleeding and Broken.

Again.

When I think about it, I just want to wring that little twerps head.

Jacob Dumb Ass Black!

I growled low, only my pack brothers heard, all their eyes snapping to my quivering form. Sam rested a hand on my forearm; I snapped my eyes to his, his eyes flitted around the room, reminding me where we were. I took calming breathes before I phased in the middle of the diner. Bella will surely have my ass if I went all wolf in here. And I am not about to be embarrassed for getting beat with a crow bar by a tiny slip of a woman.

I rubbed my face with my hand roughly, before sliding my pie towards Seth.

"Take a break kid." God knows he needs it.

Between Leah and Seth, Bella was constantly being monitored. I know once she gets out of her haze, she's going to be pissed about being baby sat. I knew from Seth's thoughts that they had been staying the night sleeping in her bed with her. I knew she wouldn't mind that at least; Bella liked to cuddle. I don't care how big of a hard-ass she was with me – it was true.

Bella Swan was a cuddler.

These past two weeks have been stressful to say the least. Sam has been making Jacob patrol by himself, never with another pack member. Everyone is having a hard time talking to him. It's been the hardest for Seth, Collin, Brady, and Sam.

And don't even get me on me and Leah.

It's to the point where Sam commanded both me and Leah to stay away from Jacob all together. We just couldn't go near him without exploding into a fucking fur ball.

Embry was feeling ridiculously guilty. It was his cousin and he had asked that she came up for his 18th birthday. Fucked up thing was that Bella and Raven had gotten along great before all this shit went down.

Quil was dealing with a depressed little five year old that was begging for her aunt, so he was just as snappy at Jacob as the twins and Seth. Collin and Brady were missing their step-in-mom's cooking and babying, and Seth was worried over his sister.

Sam. Fuck. Sam would shake just as badly as me and Leah when Jacob entered a room. Sam had warned the mother fucker, but the kid never listens. Nope, he was selfish even after the failed attempts at getting into Bella's pants. It took a year, a fucking year, for her to finally say yes. Hesitantly, I may add. He should've backed off at the first no, if not the tenth.

Like I've said so many times: persistent little shit.

"How long did Charlie say she was in her catatonic state the first time?" I asked, as my brothers eyes snapped to mine, and Quil and Embry came out of the kitchen, to listen to the conversation.

Bella and Emily allowed the pack to work here. The hours were flexible and they worked around our patrolling schedules. Of course they had a few other people working here, but they didn't get the flexible hours we did. We couldn't find regular jobs due to being a werewolf; if we were needed, we needed to ditch whatever we were doing in a moment's notice. We couldn't do that at any other place, but here we could without any questions being asked. Sam had the same shit with his little repair shop. The wolves worked there too, flexibly hours and such. With working in the diner and the repair shop we were making enough money to not have a shortage in shorts and food and we were still protecting our tribe.

"About two weeks." Seth answered cautiously.

"And how long did he say she got out of her zombie stage?" I asked.

"Four months." Sam cleared his throat before answering.

My eyes widened.

"Fuck, no." I blurted and got a disapproving glare from Sue.

She should be used to this by now. Hell, both her daughters could make a sailor blush with their mouths. Even Seth had moments where he didn't have a mental filter.

"What?" Embry asked taking Sam's and Seth's plates.

"How long was it till we actually met her?" I looked to Sam and Jared.

"Two or three months, after the zombie stage." Sam answered while Jared nodded in agreement.

"What did she do then?" I snapped my eyes towards Embry and Quil as a slow grin spread on their face, they glanced at each other briefly before answering at the same time.

"Extreme sports."

My grin matched theirs as I recalled all the memories that replayed through Jacobs head. The motorcycles, the cliff diving. That was the beginning of the Bella Swan we knew; the woman that was willing to try anything and was always up to the challenge. It was why we got along so great, if you asked me.

"What are you thinking Paul?" Sam frowned.

"That I'm going to make us skip the whole catatonic and zombie bullshit and fast forward to the extreme sports." I grinned as I watched Quil and Embry along with Collin, Brady, and Jared perk up a little.

"No. Absolutely not." Seth shook his head vehemently.

"You boys ready to go?" I looked down the counter at Seth, Collin, and Brady, ignoring Seth's rambling's.

I had picked up Bella's and Leah's shift of taking the twins and Seth to school and taking them home afterwards. The twins nodded and frantically shoved their homework and math books in their book bags, while Seth still rambled on about the safety of his sister and blah blah blah, as he put away his books in his book bag. Once they were ready I hopped off my stool and patted Sam on the back before grabbing my book bag and heading out the door.

"Paul, don't do anything stupid!" Sam called after me.

"I wouldn't think of it!" I called back, and heard Quil and Embry's guffawing and Sam's snort.

I quickly made it to my blue '69 Chevy Camaro, a car my mother and Bella picked out for me last year. I let the boys in; Collin and Brady got into the back while Seth sat in the front. I turned on my baby listening to the amazing purr of the engine. I had lost this baby to Bella for two weeks after a bad poker night. My mother wasn't even mad when I walked home and she asked where my car was, she just rolled her eyes and tried to suppress her smile as she grumbled about if I would ever learn. And the answer to that is: NO!

I dropped off the twins and made my way to the Clearwater-Swan house. The Swan's had moved in last year. I shut off the engine and got out of the car and ran up the steps skipping two each time, with Seth right behind me.

"Paul, what are you doing?"

I didn't answer him as I walked into their house without knocking. In the living room, Leah was sitting and eating a large mixing bowl of cereal while watching T.V. No one else was here, except for Bella which I could hear her heart beat in her room. The Chief was at the station and Sue was still at the diner. Upon hearing my arrival and Seth's questions, Leah looked up at me with raised eyebrows, waiting for me to acknowledge her. I didn't. I made my way up the steps, now hearing Leah following and asking Seth the hell was going on.

"I don't have a damn clue. He's lost his fucking mind, if he goes in there and pisses her off." Seth answered.

He was right; I was out of my mind because I was pretty sure Bella will come after me for this. I stopped in front of the door, glancing at the wooden carving of her name on her door; Jacob had made it for her. She had little knick knacks that related some way to us wolves all over her room.

The most important one was her charm bracelet; she wore that every day. There were five wooden carved wolves hanging on it in different colors representing our fur color: Jacob's russet, Seth's sandy color, Leah's silver, Quil's chocolate, Embry's light brown. There were also charms on it: a shopping bag for Kim, a book for Jared, a wooden spoon for Emily, two silver hearts that were intertwined together for Collin and Brady, and from me a dollar sign. The bracelet itself was made out of leather, it was braided, and Sam had made that.

Jacob was good with wood, Sam was good with leather; we all had our own things. I looked back at the siblings who were waiting for me to do something.

"She doesn't have a crow bar in there, does she? Baseball bat? No? Okay, good." With a deep breath, I opened the door.

Without pausing I made my way to her bed. She was buried under her sheets and pillows. I tore them off, and she didn't move. Only grumbled. With a sigh, I picked her and threw her over my shoulder. She let out a loud squeal, as did Leah.

"Paul!" I looked over to Leah, with a raised eyebrow; Bella was starting to come to.

"What the hell are you doing?" She hissed; I shrugged jostling Bella.

"Dude, be careful with her." Seth warned.

I shook my head and walked into the bathroom. I could hear Leah and Seth following behind me, by now Bella is fully awake and screeching for me to let her down. I ignore her, and turn on the shower, without letting it warm up; I let Bella down and push her into the water.

"Paul! What the fuck?!" She screamed loudly.

"Sorry babe, but you stink." I wrinkled my nose and crossed my arms as I stood in front of the shower not letting her pass me.

"Paul." She whined.

"Bella take a fucking shower. Did you know that Leah hasn't been to school or patrolled in two weeks? Did you know Collin and Brady were shaking in the middle of your diner today because they were frustrated that they didn't understand their homework? Did you know Seth failed a test yesterday because he couldn't fucking concentrate? Did you know Embry is eating away with all the guilt he's been feeling? Did you know I couldn't fucking eat today? Huh?" I asked, my body letting out little quivers but I knew I was in control.

Bella did that. With the amount of times we've gotten into arguments, I had to constantly keep calm in order to not hurt her. Now I was just used to it, and had better control over phasing than some of the other guys. Because Bella did that.

Bella shook her head no, silent tears running down her flushed cheeks. I watched as she crumbled down to the tile floor of the shower. Leah rushed in to help her, but I held a hand up to stop her. I ignored her glare, as I took of my shirt.

"Out." I barked as I closed the door to Leah's room and pointed out of Bella's room.

They looked at me, as if I grown two heads, as I took of my shoes and socks.

"Out." I repeated, slamming the door to Bella's room in their faces.

I heard their soft murmurs and hesitant steps leave Bella's room. I made sure I didn't have my cell phone or anything important in my pocket before stepping in the shower and pulling Bella's body against mine. I wrapped my arms around her shoulders, her arms went around my waist, or at least tried to, as I ran a hand through her wet hair as she started crying into my chest. I shushed her and let her breakdown in my arms.

I don't know how long we stood there, Bella crying and me comforting her, she finally pulled herself together when the water turned cold. I pushed back her hair from her forehead when she looked up at me with red and puffy eyes.

"I'm sorry." She croaked.

"Don't be. You just need to get better, babe. We need you." I whispered.

"Now, take a shower. Put some clothes on and come downstairs." I instructed.

I kissed her forehead and stepped out of the shower. I closed the shower curtain and quickly slipped off my soaking wet jeans and boxers, and wrapped a towel around my waist. I went to the double sink and opened the medicine cabinet on the left – Bella's cabinet; and grabbed her tooth brush and tooth paste. I put tooth paste onto her tooth brush, and walked back over to the shower, I opened the shower curtain enough for my arm to slip through and handed her, her tooth paste. She took it with a chuckle and I picked up her wet clothes from the floor along with mine and left the bathroom.

I made my way downstairs and walked through the kitchen and to the laundry room, ignoring the curious and shocked stares coming from Leah and Seth; I dumped our wet clothes in the washer and put it to wash, before bounding up the steps and into Seth's room where I stole some sweatpants.

I had spent enough time here to be considered a resident, so I kne1w the layout like the back of my hand.

I bounded back down the steps, still ignoring Leah and Seth, and walked into the kitchen and started making some turkey sandwiches. Once I had five sandwiches stacked up for me and two for Bella, I heard the door to her room open and her soft footsteps coming into the kitchen. I looked up to see her in purple shorts and a small black tank top, it rode up a little on her stomach and I could see the black ink of her tattoo peaking up from her shorts. Her hair was still wet and was hanging around her shoulders and down her back. She looked thin, more so then regular, and she was more pale than usual. The little twinkle in her eyes was missing and her smile was a little broken.

"Why don't you go in the living room and we'll watch some movies?" I handed her, her plate and a canned soda before picking up my own.

She nodded and walked into the living room where Seth, was giving his homework another go, and Leah was staring at the T.V. We sat down on her couch, and I pulled out my cell phone and texted my mother, letting her know I was with Bella, as Leah stood up and popped in a movie and Seth put away his homework. As she sat down, I received a text from my mother, she said that it was fine and that I better not bother Bella too much, and tell her to feel better.

I breathed a relieved sigh, as Robin Hood Men in Tights came on. Bella's favorites were Pride & Prejudice and Gone with the Wind. I wouldn't mind watching it, even though they were totally not my style, I've seen them before, both with my mother and Bella. Have you ever watched your mother and one of your best friends crying all huddled up together while you guys watched a chick flick? Totally uncomfortable.

…And a little bit funny.

We watched the movie in silence with little chuckles and guffaws from me and Seth. In the middle of the movie, Bella leaned into me as I wrapped an arm around her shoulder as she rested her head on my chest.

Sue came in towards the end and smiled fondly at her kids before walking into the kitchen to get started on dinner.

When the movie finally finished, I put mine and Bella's clothes in the dryer and went back into the living room with two large bowls of popcorn. I handed one to Seth, who was sitting on the recliner, and sat the other one between me and Leah, who was sharing the couch with me and Bella.

We started watching Superbad when Charlie came in, he stood, shocked, looking from Leah to Seth to me and then Bella. Leah subtly pointed towards at me, and Charlie turned his attention to the arm around Bella's shoulder and how her head was resting on my chest. Looking back and forth between the two of us, he nodded at me and walked off to his room.

We had to pause in the middle of the movie to eat dinner.

That was a little awkward.

Bella didn't talk much, and everyone seemed to walk on egg shells around her. She ate seconds since she didn't eat the past couple of days, while Seth, Leah, and I wolfed everything down. We talked about Charlie's day and some of Sue's customers today; they asked me if I was excited about graduating in a few months, and how Seth was doing in school, and if Leah was going back to school on Monday. Bella listened with rapt attention and answered along with Leah that she too was going back to school. The rewarding smile on Charlie's face was mixed with relief and worry, upon seeing it Bella smiled softly and squeezed my hand.

After diner Seth and Leah did the dishes, while me and Bella went back to the living room and finished watching the movie along with Charlie and Sue. When the movie was over, Bella headed off to her room and I could hear her getting ready for bed upstairs. I sat with Charlie and Seth and watched a Mariner's game. Leah kissed my cheek with a whispered 'Thanks' before she headed off to her room. A few minutes later I heard my named being called.

"Paul" Came from Bella's room upstairs.

I bounded up the stairs, hearing Seth explaining to Charlie where I was going. I knocked on Bella's door before walking in to see her lying on her bed. She patted the spot next to her and scooted over. I hesitantly laid down next to her.

We have never done this, so this was new.

"I'm sorry. I'll try to talk to Embry. And I'll back to school and work. I'll get better." She whispered cuddling up to me.

"Don't be sorry. And take your time." I whispered back.

"Stay with me?" She asked in a small voice.

"Sure." I answered without so much as even thinking about it.

That was the end of the conversation.

Bella laid her head on my chest and quickly fell asleep. I ran a hand through her hair, and listened to Seth telling Charlie I was staying the night. I rolled over and buried my nose in Bella's strawberry scented hair; it always did smell nice.

I was bordering on consciousness and unconsciousness when I heard something by her window in the tree, from the smell and the growl I knew exactly who it was. I pulled Bella closer to me with a low growl and smiled when I heard him jump off the tree and his footfalls as he ran away.

Just as I was about to be completely out, I heard a pain filled howl coming from the forest.

AN: So? You got some Paul...

This is more like a... little insight of who my Paul is. Yes, he can be sweet. But you can still count on him being an ass...

So, who was that at Bella's window? Hmm... its pretty obvious...

Let me know what you think...