Authors note: This is two days after the come home, in Peeta's POV. Okay how am I doing? Please review

Disclaimer: I do not own Hunger Games

Chapter two: Pain

I walk into my new home and wait for the pain to crush me. Katniss the love of my life doesn't love me and might be in love with another man. Every time I see her it is a punch in the gut. She is so cruel. Pretending to love me, every kiss, hug, and word was a lie. My love was just another way to win the games. No I shouldn't think of her like I don't know if I can. Despite everything she has done to me I still love her.

I sluggishly walk into my room and plop onto my bed. I crawl under the covers and wait for the nightmares to find me.

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"Run," scream for her to run but she says were she is. Doesn't she realize she will die if she doesn't run?
"I don't want to run anymore," she replies as I see her death moving closer.

I want to turn around and pick her up and carry her to safety but my feet refuse to go back. The monsters launch at her and she doesn't try to fight them off. They tear into her flesh ripping her to shreds. I want to look away but I can't. Her screams of agony fill my ears and send me into agony myself. Her screams die off and no more movement comes from her body. I know that she is dead. Katniss is no more, I will destroy the monsters, the gamemakers for doing this to her.

"KATNISS," I scream as I jolt upright. I am drenched in sweet and gasping for air. It was just a nightmare, it was just a nightmare. I want to see her, make sure that she is okay but I know that she would want me to keep a distance.

I can't let myself get like this again. I have to stop caring. Katniss isn't what is hurting me caring for her is. I know that she wished we were friends but I can't be her friend. Loving her is just too much. I will keep my distance from her and try hard to stop loving her.

I get up knowing that sleep is a useless cause, and move around until I find a canvas, paint, and brushes. I sit down and paint the horrors of my nightmare, the true horrors of the Hunger Games