I GOT WRITERS BLOCK... NOT FUN.

"Natalie, I'm sorry. I've already said we can't do this." Monk pulled his shirt back down. He knew the second their skins met, there was no going back. Natalie quickly became uncomfortable sitting on his hips; she stood to find her shirt as Monk sat up on the bed.

"I know I am sorry, I don't know what came over me." Natalie found her shirt and put it back on. They sat in silence, both left with their own thoughts. With he's back to Natalie, Monk closed his eyes.

"Natalie, I love you and I want to be with you, I just don't want to do something you'll later regret. Monk put his head down although he knew he was doing the right thing he also knew he world regret saying this "Natalie...you should... try to make it work with your husband. I know you loved Mitch, but how would you feel if you found out he had an affair? Because that's what stopping me Natalie, I keep asking myself how I would feel if Trudy had an affair. I'm not sure how much...your husband loves you, but if he is in love with you half the amount I am, he would be devastated if we were to do this".

Natalie eyes began to water, soon her tears were flowing. She walked across the room gathered up her stuff, and walked to the door. With her hand on the knob, she took a deep breathe.

"I love you...Mr. Monk"

Monk didn't not look up until five minutes after Natalie walked out of his life, his hands drenched with his own tears. He stayed in the room the last night, and then flew back to San Francisco (fearing for his life the whole time).

"Hey Monk, Buddy" Leland shouted from his office, but his smile quickly faded. He rushed his friend into his office and closed the door.

"Monk, what's up? You should be happy you caught the guy... in two days... which is something I couldn't do"

"What's up? WHAT'S UP! FIRST OF ALL NATALIE HAS QUIT, SECOND I HAD TO FLY ON A PLANE BY MYSELF, AND THE MOST OF ALL I NATALIE"

The pain in his friend's eyes crushed Leland; he sat Monk down as he started to cry again for the hundredth time.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, Natalie quit?" Leland sat next to Monk on the couch in his office.

"Well not officially, but she left me there." Monk dried his eyes.

"Why did she leave?" Leland knew the answer before Monk told him everything that had happen. He has known for years how Natalie felt about Monk, he even once, years ago, told Monk of Natalie's feelings. "You're a good man Monk, most people wouldn't have your strength to let the person they love walk away".

"Oh God, I let her walk away. What's wrong with me Leland? Why couldn't I've told her how I felt before she started dating Albright? Or even before she married him? Why did I let her go?" The tears came back in Monk's eyes.

Leland can see the depression settling into Monk "Hey, look buddy, why don't you stay with T.K. and me. She'll love having you around after what you did for her in Tahoe, it's the least we can do".

Monk shrugs his shoulders in a very Monkish way, which worries Leland; Monk hasn't done that since a year after Natalie's wedding.

"Thank you Leland, but no I want to be alone for awhile" Monk stood up and made his way to the door.

"Ok, but only for a day, because tomorrow morning I'm dragging you out of your apartment whether you like it, or not."

Monk headed home with every intension of changing into his pajamas and cleaning his apartment.

I CAN ONLY WRITE ON MY DAYS OFF SO ALEX, CALM DOWN I PROMISE THIS STORY WILL GET UPDATED AS SOON AS IT CAN. I DO HAVE A LIFE OUTSIDE