Protect Me by Nehan Shinzui
A/N: 9/22/09
I had the suckiest morning today--I went to bed late, couldn't find the things I needed for this 0 period Spanish class assignment, lost my student I.D., was late to 0 period, couldn't get the lock on my bike for about 15 minutes, lost ten points for not bringing a picture in for the peer interview, couldn't print out the stuff I needed for the assignment, lost another ten points, discovered I had typos on my fanfiction, had to pay a $5 lab fee and messed up my hair. But then, when I got home I found another fabulous review! Thank you sooooooooooo much all of you! Oh, and I tried to listen to what you said about the paragraphs but I think I only spaced it once. Sorry about that. This chap has some Bevin moments, some Julie moments, and the one-sided Cash thing. Well, they hang out but only Cash is in like. Another thing, this could be my only update for a while! Feel free to bash my mom and her boyfriend for purposely trying to make my life suck. And not in the motherly way. I'm like a stranger in my own house and it sucks , you guys should really read these a/n's for important info.
Chapter 4: Realizations
Ben fell asleep at Kevin's house that night. He didn't realize until he awoke in the position he was in the night before. He had been startled when he felt hands wrapped around his waist; at first he'd believed it was a night attacker, but he'd relaxed when he recognized his surroundings. Ben sat up straighter, taking the sleeping man's hands off of him. He tried to recollect the events of last night; he remembered that Kevin had said some...things (though he wasn't sure how he felt about it), he had had to feed the older male...and he'd been very hungry but...he was very tired. He must've fallen asleep in Kevin's arms! Turning red he hopped to his feet, slid on the floor, fell, and hit his head on the coffee table. Seeing stars, and grunting, he shakily got to his feet and stared at his companion. The mutant looked so peaceful...lying there. Reaching over him, he brushed a bit of hair out of the older's face and smiled.
"Good morning."
Ben jumped about thirty feet in the air, his wrist suddenly encased in a firm grip. Kevin pulled him closer. "Decided to give me a good morning kiss, Bennie?" The hero's wrist felt as though it was getting bruised. He continued to struggle against the man's firm hold.
"The hell, Kev let go!"
" Gwen's not do it."
Ben felt awkward about it--he leaned down. He wasn't sure why he was doing this; uncertainy was eradicating his thought's coherency. Though he was glad Gwen had left, actually. Kevin grabbed ahold of his friend's chin and licked his lips. Bringing the two's faces together he crashed his lips against Ben's. Discovery. Complete and utter bliss. Ben had never felt this way before--never. The stronger's taste was entrancing, adddictive. He felt himself turned around so that his back was upon the couch and Kevin was over him, thrusting his tongue in . Hands roamed into his hair and tugged. Ben's back arched off of the couch. Kevin began to get more attacked his neck, biting and sucking. Hands clawed at Ben's chest and started to tear at his pants. The younger wrapped his arms around the rough man's back. Kevin laid Ben back against the soft cusions. As he began to slowly grind against him he whispered,
"I've been waiting for this for quite a while now, I figured you'd come around."
His voice caused Ben to quake slightly. It all felt so wonderful; these gloriuos sensations were driving him insane. He started to get hard--then he stopped. It was too fast.
"Kevin stop."
Said boy only proceded to take off his shirt as he nibbled at his neck, his breath heavy.
"Kevin stop."
Kevin tugged his hair again and began to dry hump him harder. "I've waited too long for this Ben," he replied huskily. "So long..."
"Kevin, STOP."
And Ben shoved him off of him. The ex-con looked surprised, then angry. "The hell, Tennyson?"
he spat from his new position on the floor. Ben was breathing heavily. Pulling his pants up higher from where they rested below his waist, he leaned down to stare hard at the dark-eyed man.
"Don't do that!" he hissed. Ben had just discovered something, something he should've figured out a long time ago and he didn't want Levin to ruin it by acting like a horny animal. He sighed.
"Kevin, when I tell you to stop I--"
" So you've done this before?" Kevin said quizzically. "And you can give me instuctions, eh, Benji?"
"No that's not what I--"
/kevin interrupted, "Why can no one tell when I'm joking?" He smirked. "If you want me to, I will. Fuck, I'm not gonna rape you."
"Sure as hell could've fooled me."
Kevin smiled, getting back up and standing over his companion. Kissing him again the older man muttered, "Well, at least you've figured something out fag". The younger's crinkled into a frown.
"Excuse me?"
There he goes with that damn smirk again! " Did I stutter fag?" The black haired man sure enjoyed fucking with Ben nowadays.
"Don't call me that, you--you--you asshole!"
"Hmmm...what's this? Did Bennie learn a bad word?" Kevin taunted leaning closer to the former's face. Once again, Ben turned red. Before he could say anything however, the phone rang.
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Gwen listened to Kevin's house phone ring impatiently. She wouldn't be doimg this but her aunt and uncle hadn't heard from Ben all night and she figured the mutant would know something about this or at least help her. She knew he cared after all. Hearing someone pick up the phone she hesitated slightly; things had been awkward last night to say the least and she hoped the older hadn't held a grudge. She was a little shocked to hear Ben's voice on the other line. This didn't bode well with her for some reason.
"Uh, hello?" His voice sounded uncertain, nervous.
"You're still at his house?!" Gwen couldn't resist blurting out as he spoke. Her hands shook. This..this hurt her, actually hurt her but she knew it wasn't her cousin's fault. And she almost took it out on him anyway.
"Gwen?!" His tone calmed her--just as oblivious as ever...but with soft undertones that hinted at some secret. She composed herself enough to answer somewhat calmly.
"I was calling to see if that asswipe knew where you were. How come you didn't call? That was irresponsible, Benjamin. " She said in a mock motherly voice. She could almost hear his smile on the other end.
"The Prince was up all night making sure I reconsru cted the house and served his royal feast. I must've fallen asleep, before I could call!" Gwen heard him pause as he fully realized what this meant. "Oh, shit! Mom and Dad aren't too worried are they?"
"Nah, I'll tell them something." They were wrapped around her finger, sort of.
"How come you left like that last night? Were you that upset?"
"Yes." No beating around the bush. Flatline.
"Gwen, can't you understand? He really isn't all that bad! Cash has changed! A little...."
The orange-haired woman stood firm, despite the tug to just give in to her cousin's pleads. She had always had that motherly connection with him even though they were the same age.
"Look, Ben I'm sorry but I don't trust him. Him--or Kevin. Have you seen the way he looks at you, like you're a piece of meat or something? I don't like it Ben."
She paused before letting what she suspected flow out of her in a rush.
" He hasn't tried anything has he? Cash...( Ben responded with a 'no') or Kevin?"
There was silence.
"Ben?"
Silence.
"Ben! He hasn't done anything to you, has he?! I'm on my way if---"
"No, it isn't like that. I swear." Ben was nearly whispering.
She was confused. "Then what happened?" The girl let a hand cover her mouth as she gasped, coming to a sudden realization. "You don't mean--you and him--no!" This couldn't be happening! Not Kevin!
"I'm sorry." Ben really was whispering this time. "I didn't mean it to happen, it just..." His voice shook. "I'm sorry."
Gwen felt humiliated.
"I know, Ben. But he did."
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Ben felt an arm wrap around his waist as he hung up the phone. He sighed as Kevin trailed kisses along his neck and sucked. He felt so guilty. The hero knew how his cousin felt about the black-haired teen and yet he had given in to his own selfish indulgences. He felt so stupid and wrong, yet he continued to allow Kevin to suck at him, let him whisper words of nothingness into his ear. Why? Why didn't he tell Kevin to stop? Was it because he actually loved him? After all that had happened between them did he actually....? No. That couldn't be it. Brushing the taller aside he walked past him. He needed some fresh air.
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Julie Yamamoto felt jaded and restless. She had been thinking--not that she didn't do that often it was just that these thoughts were so uncomfortable and--she didn't want to be thinking about them. As she lay in her room, she snatched her radio remote deciding music would be the way to go in the way of soothing herself. Boy, was she wrong. When Adele's Hometown Glory came on through her surround sound speaker system she nearly got tears in her eyes. This was their song--this is what she and Ben had first listened to when they first saw each other at that party that day. Julie hugged her pillow tightly as she listened her mind swimming.
I've been walking in the same way, as I did.
Missing out the cracks in the pavement,
tutting my heel, strutting my feet
She had never felt this sense of melancholy before! She really liked Ben but all he wanted to do was hang out with either Kevin or Cash and she didn't like the way either one of them eyeballed the young man. In fact she hated it. Hated the way they both stared at him like he was juicy, succulent steak. Hated the way he smiled at them completely unaware of their obvious intentions. Julie suddenly felt very piqued at all of them including herself. What the hell was this anyway? A dating show?
"Is there anything I can do for you dear? Is there
anyone I could call?"
" No one thank you, please Madam. I ain't lost just wandering,"
She considered calling Wiliiatmy. The red-head was always a great outlet for things like this--she could listen to her friend talk for hours and still be ready with a quick, simple, and comforting comeback. Hesitating however, the Asian female thought about her best friend's possible reaction to her latest crush. She'd probably just tell Julie to pull herself together and that there were plenty other fish in the lake or whatever the shit. Did she need that kind of response right now?
Round my hometown
Memories are fresh
Round my hometown
Ooh the people I've met
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of this world
Are the wonders of my world
It was good to have an objective friend, someone that could tell you exactly when you were full of bullshit in a split second without flinching. She picked up her phone and dialed Williatmy's number.
I like it in the city when the air is so thick and opaque
I love to see everybody in short skirts, shorts, and shades
I like it in the city when two worlds collide
Julie could hear the Millionaires blasting in her friend's room as the person picked up the phone.
"Cuz, I just got paii-e-e-e-e-ed! Let's get laii-e-e-e-e-e-ed!" the black-haired girl was greeted.
"Hey, Willi." Julie smiled, picturing her friend dancing and skipping around in her large bedroom.
"What's uppies, girlfriend?!"
"Oh, nothing just...Williatmy do you think Ben's...gay?"
She heard a sharp intake of breath on the other end of the line. The red-head exploded, "NO FUCKING WAY! GIVE ME THE DETES!"
You get the people and the government
Everybody taking different sides
"Well, um...you know how I told you about that little run-in I had with Cash?"
"Yeah, sure."
"Well, he hinted at some little things about Ben and I..I..I think thst their may be some validity in what he was saying." She rushed on. "I mean have you seen they way they're both all over him? And the way he just takes it and follows Kevin wherever he goes and--" She was getting just the teensy weensy bitty bit bit interrupted her before she could go further.
Shows that we ain't gonna stand shit
Shows that we are united Shows that we ain't gonna take it
Shows that we ain't gonna stand
Shows that we are united
"I'm just gonna stop you right there Jules."
Pause.
"I know you like him a lot, hon, but if he's gay, he's gay. There isn't much you can do about it, but stick by him and be the same great friend you've always been and just let what's gonna happen, happen."
Round my hometown
Memories are fresh
Round my hometown
Ooh the people I've met
"But can I really just go back into the role of supportive friend like that?" Julie was frustrated. "I mean, you don't just crush on some one for five months then, randomly just drop it! Do you?" She gripped the phone.
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders if this world
Are the wonders....
" Actually I've seen that happen. It's just a crush, Julie." She breathed. "Look, I know it probably seems hard, that you think he's just absolutely the one for you right now but--you'll cope with it. You'll fucking have to. You can't, just stay away from him." Williatmy patiently waited for her friends response.
"Thanks, Will. I kinda feel better."
"That's my homeskillet. Catch ya later I gotta go!"
Without waiting for a reply the red-head hung up the phone.
Julie fell back on her bed. Maybe she could get over Ben. She'd sure as hell try at the very least.
Of my world
Of my world Of my world...Of my world
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A/N: 9/29
ZOMG I AM VERY VERY VERY SORRY FOR THIS BUT I HAVE TO CUT THIS CHAP SHORT BECAUSE CIRCUMSTANCES HAVE CAUSED ME TO UPDATE IMMEDIATELY OR SUFFER HAVING TO NOT UPDATE IN A REALLY LONG TIME! I APOLOGIZE AND THIS TIME I SWEAR TO PUT SOMETHING THAT WILL BE WORTHI IT IN THE NEXT TWO CHAPTERS AND I'LL DOUBLE UPDATE! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CONTINUE TO REVIEW BECAUSE I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!! I'M TRYING REALLY HARD GUYS AND SCHOOL IS BEING A BITCH AND SO IS MY MOM'S BOYFRIEND AMD MY MOM.
NEHAN SHINZUI