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WARNING;
Includes drug-use.
Shorter then all the others, mostly an explaination of what Akihiko goes through. Enjoy~. Leave Reviews! They make me happy, like you guys are actually enjoying the
Shaky hands moved as he grasped at his sheets yanking them off the futon his eyes lowering a moment. When he had awoken Shinjiro was once more gone, the thick release haven already settled on skin and sheets leaving an easy shine.
Akihiko sighed as he rose his hands rubbing slowly at his own eyes, leaning down to pick up his box of drugs and set it onto the nightstand. He stared, eyes locked on the dark wood fingertips lightly tapping at it. He had told Shinjiro he wouldn't, but he found himself wanting more of the thrill, to actually feel nice again.
He turned his head though staring off to the doorway his fingers twitching as he turned himself around stepping towards the window. Fingers pressed to the frame as he leaned forward his breath leaving a nice round white circle on the window, his lips curling into a pleased look. The snow had already began to fall it seemed, which made his gaze soften. He had almost forgotten it was nearing the middle of November, but he supposed he always forgot around this time where he fell victim of drugs.
Turning around he pushed off the sill and headed off towards the bathroom to begin the day.
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Within a good half-hour Akihiko was dressed, his hair nicely dried and layers covering his body. Unlike usual days instead he wore a large brown coat, with the hood pulled over his white hair. Normal black pants held his hips, and his silly shows which he always seemed to wear. He knew he stuck out, fingers hidden by gloves as he bit his own lip moving down the steps.
Fingers shoved the door open as he stepped out onto the porch, no one taking a moment of their time to even notice him. He smiled though, his fingers twitching as he outstretched them palms facing the sky. It had been awhile since he bothered to see snow, he actually felt alive again.
Hands lowered though as he stepped down onto the sidewalk his head turning to the side as he gazed back up to the complex he had been living in. His hand raising to grab at his hood pulling it closer to his already red cheeks, exhaling sharply.
Stepping down away from the complex he headed around towards the side his eyes lowering to the snow. It was laying nicely, when he stepped forward the crunching under his shoes made him chuckle lowly. He stepped forward though and turned his gaze to the side slowly slumping to his knees, fingers digging into the snow as he stared down at him. He felt himself feeling better, he didn't see any of his wounds nor was he being pressured to stick a needle into his skin.
Fingers pushed through the snow as he leaned down so he was more on his hands and knees another sharp exhale leaving his lips. He felt wonderful, as if he had been floating. It made him smile to say the least, well that was until someone wrapped their arms about him.
Body tensed as the hands slid over his stomach his head turning around his hood to see the offender. Gaze instantly softened as he gazed up to Shinjiro his lips cracking into a pleased smile. He hummed lowly as he forced himself to sit up more shaking his hand before raising it to grab onto Shinjiro's cheek. Eyes slowly shutting as he crushed their lips together resting his ass easily into the other man's lap.
He felt perfect, on fire, and oddly warm in the other man's grasp. Teeth gently pulling skin as he leaned closer his hand digging up into the hair on Shinjiro's neck his head tilting more to the side. He hadn't felt this happy in a long time, not to mention it reminded him why he was in love with snow. The thoughts always returned to the other person in his arms.
He paused though as Shinjiro's lips broke from his, and gave a shiver as his hat was pushed away so the man could press his lips to his ear. Akihiko sighed at the feeling his eyes shutting until the word was whispered lowly in his ear. "Clear.." His body gave a sharp jerk as it felt like electricity ripped through it.
Eyes snapped open only to be greeted by blinding lights. He was laying on his back, and he felt unusually cold. He figured he must of passed out, though when the second Clear ripped through the room he knew something was off.
His eyes fluttered as he writhed a moment, fingers dragging against the side of his bed exhaling sharply. The first face came into focus, a person he had never seen before and covered in white. The one next to him a woman, whom he also didn't know. His head turned slowly as he looked from both his unusually dry lips parting as he gave a wince. He was glad when the surges stopped his head slumping to the side as he gave a weak noise. His eyes fluttering as he relaxed himself letting his body take over in sleep.
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Shivering he gave a groan at the low steady beep that echoed through the room. Eyes opening as he shifted arms moving only to be stopped by the Ivs. He was at a hospital, that hit him pretty quickly from the white of the room and the low hum of machinery.
His eyes quickly caught Mitsuru, the girl easily sitting at his side dressed warmly for once. Though to be honest he wasn't surprised to see her in the normal red-skirt the only thing different was the red jacket. He managed a smile though, only grinning when it was returned with a frown a low sigh emitting from his lips. Fingers fisted the sheets as she began to talk and he found himself for once not wanting to listen.
She moved herself though, closer to him in an attempt to perhaps knock some sense into the other male. Her head tilting down as she placed her slender fingers down onto the sheets shaking her head. "Akihiko," She started, her voice filled with a little 'oomph.' "When were you going to bother telling us? Drugs of all things? You could of-" She was quickly cut off by a sharp snort from Akihiko feeling his head shake.
"Look, Mitsuru.. I understand it, I could of died.. Fuck, I don't even remember what happened.. Where I was, anything.. I just remember going outside.. And-" He stopped, now he honestly couldn't tell the woman he had seen Shinjiro, she would of thought he was even more crazy. His gaze only raising when he heard her scowl, his head tilting to the side.
"Akihiko.. I found the box.. Not to mention when we found you, you certainly weren't with us." She looked away her arms crossing. "Really? Have you been doing this long? You seem like the one who doesn't understand.."
Aki couldn't help but pause his head shaking. He didn't remember shooting up, he remembered setting it on the table then leaving, right? He gazed towards her before his eyes shut as he rubbed at his lids forcing his brain to register, to remember anything..
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Fingers tapped the box a moment and he just sort of sighed. He easily picked it up turning himself around and sitting back down onto his bed, Greedy fingers pushing the lid open and pulling out the packaged needle. He stared down at it, setting it down onto the bed to grab the rest.
Grabbing the cooker he turned himself setting down onto the table to easily begin to prepare it. Within minutes he placed the needle into his spoon pulling the plunger back and getting a nice dose. He grinned, setting the needle down to grab the band from inside the box turning himself and wrapping it quickly around his upper arm tightening it. Stretching his arm out he began to tap the veins, eyes lowering as he grabbed the needle again leaning down a bit.
Placing it to his skin he went to injecting himself, and when that was done he started to feel better. Nothing would bother him, it was just himself and his injection.
He placed the needle down yanking the band off his arm to get up and dressed.
It didn't take him long to get outside, lips curling into a grin as he reached out towards the snow a low chuckle. He turned himself carefully walking to the side area his eyes lowering to the snow. Tch, snow.. It always reminded him of Shinjiro, how the other man left him. He shivered some as he twitched, his eyes shutting tightly. The high was supposed to take it away, but it wasn't working as well anymore..
He trembled, feeling himself fall to his knees, fingers jerking to dig into the snow a sharp sob leaving his lips. He didn't understand, how could he be left like this? What had he ever even done, nothing he could remember before this..
He felt himself beginning to cough, his body shaking some as he attempted to catch his breath exhaling sharply. He felt sick to his stomach, he wanted to throw up and he was hot feeling himself sweating. It wasn't far anymore, he was tired of it all. His hand raising to wipe his tears away, his eyes giving a little flutter as he slumped falling unconscious.
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It hit Akihiko like a ton of bricks, remembering what happened, how Shinjiro wasn't there and his warm was only the side-effect of the drug. Eyes burned as he dug his hand into his own hair a sharp exhale leaving his throat as he shook his head. "M-Mitsuru.." He didn't know what to do, his head turning as he gazed down to his arms. The dark holes and scabs covered the inside, his hands clenching as he forced back a sob.
He didn't understand how he fell to this level, how he was so alone when he had so many there for him. His head turned to gaze to Mitsuru staring up to the woman as he shook his head a little bit. He didn't know what to say, nor do. The last few days had been so odd, he didn't even know who he was anymore, or if Shinjiro was actually visiting him.
Moving a hand though he wiped his cheeks his head tilting down. "I.. I need help, Mitsuru.." He felt his eyes close, his head tilting down. He felt defeated, not even noticing the woman's arms about his shoulders as she held him. He was losing a battle against himself, and for his sake he needed to do something.
Head lifted though as he gazed forward towards the door eyes resting easily on Shinjiro's form. He stared at him as tears licked his cheeks, gaze caught on the complete look of disgust on his own friend's face.
Please just kill me now…