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I got into a fight today at school with a football player because that bastard said something about Tweek that I don't even wanna mention again. I have to say my anger got me and I beat the hell out of that motherfucker. In fact, I knocked his tooth out, and if his friends weren't there to buffer, I would have broken some of his limbs too.
The counselor suspended me for two weeks, so hooray for me, two weeks vacation. But I was worried that that stupid ass motherfucker is going to pick on Tweek again, luckily, Stan promised to keep an eye out for me.
When I got home, my parents got into another argument again, and they just there flipping each other off and shit. I don't even care, they are always arguing, over really small things sometimes. I always feel like they just enjoy doing it as a couple but as their son, it's just annoying sometimes.
So I went to Tweek's house, and found out that he wasn't there. He was actually at his parents' coffee shop helping out. He wasn't really that busy, so I talked to him.
He was angry at me. He said I shouldn't have beaten that guy up. Then I told him I did it for him, but then he started crying. So we went to the back alley and I apologized, not even know what for. He just kept crying in my shoulder and didn't say a word. His hair felt so soft when I was patting his head, and his slender body leaning on me, it was just all too intoxicating… Then I asked him what was wrong and he finally said, "If you don't like me back, then stop acting like you do." And I swear to God, that just cut right through my heart. It's that same searing pain again and I hate it! I hate it! Why do I always feel like that around him? Yet I am so addicted to him I can't stop myself… Maybe I am just too selfish. I wanted to tell him so bad that I am not acting like I do, because I actually do love him very much and I want to kiss him all better and hug him and make him warm, but… I told him the same thing I always do, "I am sorry."