I was half asleep writing this chapter ;) It was too late, so this chapter might be strange or something like that.

I think it is somehow weird that I have to write in the middle of the night... I can't write during the day :3 Or is everyone writing at midnight?

this is the third chapter... enjoy... review...thanks :)

I cross the step between us and grab her wrists. My eyes locked on her face, trying to find the meaning behind her words.

Maybe it's some kind of sick joke.

No, her eyes are too desperate and to genuine. So she means it.

Maybe just the loneliness made her mad - alone in District 12 without any distraction. She lost everything. Her family, Peeta, me and probably her sanity.

Had I not been working all day and would have just stayed at home all the time, maybe I would have already lost my mind, too.

I still hope she's joking. But as the seconds pass and she just stares into my eyes, I know she isn't.

"Will you help me?"

"Ok." I'll have to somehow explain it to her later. I need to think of a way to explain it to her.

"Oh, thank you." She hugs me tight and I don't want to let go of he, but then her mother crosses the street.

"Hey Gale. Hey Katniss."

"Hi Mrs. Everdeen." I nod in her direction.

We go back to my mothers; Katniss holds my hand tightly, clinging to it. Mrs. Everdeen apologizes to my mother for being late, because of a sudden birth.

We sit at the table again. The candles on the cake lighten.

Posy leans over the table and blows out all at once. This causes more giggling. The fact, that she's happier than I've ever seen her before, makes me smile, but also makes me sad.

I had never even visited them, so I was startled by the massive changes I saw today. They all look much healthier and happier and older. You can't see any outstanding bones. That's what I've hoped for-That they are happy and healthy and have enough food. But I haven't expected them to change so much.

I'm kind of happy, when I think about those changes, but Katniss words don't get out of my head.

She wants to find Prim. She's gone mad. I made her like this. I will have to tell her the truth. She will hate me again. She will breake my heart again.

I've totally forgotten I'm still sitting at the table, so Rory makes me jump by just touching my shoulder. Everyone is watching me. I suppose someone asked me something.

"Have you ever thought about leaving District 2? I mean you could move to District 4, to us."My mother asks slow and clearly.

"It would be nice, but I want to stay in District 2 for now."

They all start talking about some new opened stores, except for Katniss and me. She looks at her plate, pokes around in the cake.

Suddenly her eyes meet mine and the sadness in them turns the cake in my mouth to tasteless mush and I have to drop my gaze.

I try to integrate myself into the conversation, but without success.

So I just sit there, watching at my hands, feeling Katniss eyes locked on me and trying to forget what she said about Prim.

Finally Katniss and her mother get up and say they have to go now.

My mother accompanies them to the door and locks it behind them.

"What is with you?" she asks when she comes back.

"I don't really know. Everything is too much, I think."

"Liar."

"Vick, Posy come on, we'll look if there is a show tonight." Rory knows something is wrong.

"Gale, come on!" Posy grabs my hand.

"I'll come in a moment, ok?"

They go into the room with the TV.

"So, what's really wrong?"

"Katniss. She's weird."

"Oh."

"Yes. She asked me to help her find Prim."

My mother looks at her hands. "She once phoned her mother and asked where Prim is."

"Can we help her?"

"I don't know. We'll see."

I hug here. "Gale, I've missed you, you know."

"I've missed you, too."

I help her dish washing and then we go to the siblings.

"Mom, the news is starting."

We watch the news which contains a little reportage about the biggest and most famous hospital in Panem. Katniss mother is shown, while she works. Some other doctors. Some patients. How it looked like before they new build it.

They show reportage about a new show on TV. After that the news is finished and the screen goes black.

I don't like TVs since they remind me of those rebellion propos. They remind me of another Katniss.

This night I dream of another life in another district with another Katniss.I wake up in the middle of night. Rory snores on the bed. - Actually I was supposed to sleep there, but after he had fallen asleep I lifted him on the bed and lay down on the mattress on the floor. I stand up and want to walk to the window to open it a bit when big grey eyes flutter open.

I fall to the ground and barely manage to suppress a scream, though, I know those eyes.

I've seen them hundred times before, but they never scared me like that. They never looked so alien. They never had this hint of madness in them. They never looked like the eyes of a predator.

"Katniss? What are you doing here?" I whisper.

As an answer she growls at me. And then she bites in my hand.