Disclaimer: I don't own Covert Affairs.
Author's Note: Ok so this story is getting a bit depressing, sorry that is my general writing style. This is my first fanfiction, but my usual writing will always shine through. Please don't bash me. *ducks and hides*
~Thanks for your patience!~
I think I'm Heaven, except for everything being dark. Heaven was supposed to be light and full of sunshine, but it was so warm here. I couldn't feel the pain anymore either. I could hear voices somewhere, but I couldn't make out the words. I wish they would stop. They sounded so sad. It wasn't supposed to be this sad in Heaven. Maybe I was in Hell. They were words of love, so this couldn't be Hell. Didn't that mean that I wasn't dead? I should be happy, but I couldn't make myself rejoice for life after how Auggie had acted.
He didn't love me and that took away my reason for living. The voices were calling me back, but I didn't want to, not anymore. It was peaceful here in my little purgatory. I was alone sure, but I didn't have anyone to keep reminding me that. No one was here to rub my face in the fact that I was unloved and had nowhere to belong. I loved my sister, but she had her family, and I didn't truly belong there, and Auggie, sweet, gentle Auggie, would replace me easily. Only a little guilt and regret ran through my heart as I gave up. I heard a loud, long beep as people started screaming again. They were crying out to me as the darkness won once more.
I was torn from the darkness a new pain seared through my chest. I was quickly followed my even more pain in my stomach as I felt stitches ripping open as my body jerked. My eyes were open, and the darkness gone. In return I got pain and the sight of my sister, Joan, Jai and Auggie standing out of the way of the doctors. My eyes were drawn to Auggie, who was supporting my sister as she sobbed. Tears fell from his sightless eyes, and I felt my heart break. I was torn between the sweet darkness and the man I loved. It was my fault he was crying, my fault he hurt. His face was so full of pain, they all were, even Joan. I knew I should stay, if only to stop their pain. I tried to fight the darkness that was coming back for me. I tried to stay in the light, but I was losing. The darkness had claimed me and now I had no choice but to fall into it. I saw my sister collapse as I managed to get one last word to fall from my lips.
"Sorry."