Chapter 2
Zack
I don't feel so good. Maybe it was the trash I ate, I don't know. But something in my gut doesn't feel right. Not physically, but emotionally. I guess it's the "your dad raped you as a kid therefore sex is a bad thing for you" type thing. I don't know anymore.
This whole "no shoes" thing is really starting to hurt. I don't know about Cody, but I have blisters and blood all over my feet. I try not to complain, but it's one of those things that I wish I would have never been born.
"Zack, what's wrong?" Cody asks.
"Nothing, I'm just sore, that's all," I reply, avoiding eye contact.
"Where?" Cody asks.
"Everywhere, but I'll get used to it," I say, sweat dripping down my face. I try hard not to look at him. Try hard not to focus on him.
About an hour later, I see an old friends' house. I slowly move past his house, but I do see him outside. Riley Sinner used to be a friend, actually a boyfriend before I realized my feelings for Cody. Riley has dark brown hair, long enough to cover his right eye, with blue eyes and white skin.
"Zack, is that you?" Riley asks, coming up to me.
"Yep, it's me," I reply, facing him.
"Wow. What happened to you, man?" Riley asks.
"A lot of things," I say.
"Come in, let's talk. You too, Cody," Riley replies.
Riley takes Cody and I to his room, and talks to us there. We tell him everything we've been through, and his jaw is wide open.
"You're okay to stay here, you know. My parents are gone for a week, anyway," Riley says. I stare at the floor.
"Well, it's up to Zack," Cody says.
"I don't know what to do," I say.
"Cody, can I talk to Zack alone?" Riley asks.
"Sure," Cody replies, leaving the room.
"I miss having you around, Zack," Riley says. I know where this is going, but I strangely don't want him to stop.
"To tell you the truth, I miss you too," I reply.
"I want you back. I just don't know how to break it to Cody. I mean, he really, really loves you," Riley says.
"I'm at the point where I'm tired of Cody trying to get sex out of me whenever he wants. He never cares about my feelings, or that's what it seems like," I explain.
"I love you, Zack, and you know it, so why are you waiting?" Riley asks.
"I don't know anymore," I reply.
Later, one thing leads to another, and sure enough, I'm kissing Riley, loving every moment of it. In the back of my mind, I remember Cody and how he is so good to me, but I do know that feelings change, and moving on with the rest of your life starts with goodbye.