AN: The music selection for this chapter is It's Just me by Blue October, I would recommend finding the track on youtube and playing it as you read this chapter, enjoy!

Disclamer: Yea...I do not own Degrassi.

Eli's Mom had explained to both Clare and Adam that the doctors where looking for a blood donor for Eli. His parents had gotten their blood tested already and were just waiting for the results.

"I want to get tested," Clare told Adam. "What if his parents aren't a match?"

"Come on, lets both get tested." Adam said; determined to help his injured friend in anyway possible. They couldn't sit back and do nothing, even if they weren't a match. At least they could rule themselves out.

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I lost a piece of me in you;

I think I left it in your arms.

Eli couldn't tell when he was conscious or not, everything had a dream like feel to it, knowing that the heavy medication was probably partly to blame.

Even in his numb state, he could feel the weakness of his body, and he knew that the battle had just begun.

He hazily remembered someone talking about a blood transfusion. It was also confirmed that his left arm was indeed broken. While his ribs might just be bruised, the cut on the left side of his chest was deep and was the main cause for the majority of his blood loss.

He was in a shitty condition. His understanding, from what he gathered, was that the blood transfusion was crucial to getting him stabilized.

Did he regret what he did? Never, not when it meant saving Clare from this…he would do it a hundred times if he had to.

I forget the reasons I got scared,

But remember that I cared quite a lot.

Clare was finally allowed to go in into Eli's ICU room, after getting tested to see if she was a match.

She tried not choking up when she was there with him, but her whole heart broke just by looking at him. The thought of loosing him, made it impossible for her to breathe. She understood now…truly understood what Eli's battle with Julia was like. She couldn't help but think that if Eli where to die, she sincerely would not be able to overcome the pain that it would bring her. He needed time and all she had done was be a jealous girlfriend.

Clare approached the bedside, noting how his face held a peaceful expression, but was pale and bruised from where his face had made impact with the ground.

Clare held back her tears, but her guilt was too much to bear, and she couldn't hold them back anymore.

You see but lately I've been on my own.

Yeah one, but one by choice.

"I'm sorry," she whispered. "I'm sorry," her voice stronger this time.

Eli faintly heard Clare speaking. Not really making out if she was a dream or if she was truly speaking next to him.

Either way, he gave a mental sigh of relief, for being able to hear her voice. Although he couldn't respond to her because of a lack of strength.

And I'll find a way to make it,

There's no one left to stop me.

Here I go.

Can we take it from the top?

"I should of given you time, you asked for time…I should have been more patient," Clare felt that she need to get this out. "You can't leave us Eli. You have to get better."

Eli couldn't help but think what the point of living was, if he couldn't be with Clare.

He wanted to reach over, to let her know he could hear her, to comfort her, and wipe the tears from her eyes.

"This is my fault," Clare sobbed "If I hadn't been so careless, you wouldn't be here. I hurt you Eli, I so sorry. I don't think I can't ever forgive myself."

So why so long?

So sad, I wanna be strong.

"No, Clare don't blame yourself. If I where to die, you have to live to the fullest, don't let anything whole you back, you shouldn't live with the guilt. I wouldn't want you to-" he could only speak these words to himself, but upon thinking them, he had finally realized something.

Julia would have wanted the same for him… would have wanted him to live life, to not hold back. But all he had been doing was wallow in his guilt.

I'm sorry Julia, I think I get it now….

Don't try to take this from me.

I'm already spent living half my life undone

I may not have been there to save you Julia, but I was with Clare, and I want to make it right.

I want to live. I want to love Clare…

I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again.

I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends.

"Clare?"

Clare turned to find Eli's mom by the door way. She followed her into the hallway.

"You are a match sweetie." she said, her voice small and hopeful.

"I am?" and Clare couldn't help but be hopeful too.

Eli's mom couldn't hold her smile back as she gave Clare a nod in respond. "Come on, the nurse needs you to go with her."

"I'll be right out," Clare told her. She went back into the room with Eli. "I don't know if you can hear me, but you are going to get better soon."

She leaned forward and placed a small kiss on his forehead.

"Just hold on a little longer. …I love you"

With a quick glance back at him, she left the room, leaving Eli to think in his half-conscious state.

I'm gonna feel a peace in me,

I'm gonna feel at home.

I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone.

I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor.

I don't wanna hurt no more.

I will never forget you Julia…But I'm going to let go now

Feeling a weight off his shoulders, Eli let himself fall asleep, with the thought of hopefully finding Clare next to him when he wakes up again.

Yeah it's just me.

It's just me

And I'll find a way to make it.

There's no one left to stop me.

Here I go, can we take it from the top?

AN: Hope you guys enjoyed it, next chapter will be the last for this story, don't worry I will not take as long to put it up as I did with this one. I know that this chapter had a few cheesy moments, hopefully they weren't to unbareable. Let me know what you thought! Leave me a review, and in your review, if you have any ideas of what kinda story you would like me to write after this one let me know! Special thanks to CassiDegrassi for beta-ing this chapter, and thanks to all of you who reviewed chapter 3! Your reviews are what make my day, since it makes me happy to hear that you are enjoying my story. See you next time! ^_^