Your Love's A Drug

A/N: Hey everyone, so I am sorry that I kept you all waiting so long for this, but I have been working hard to finish my other story The Fame Monster! And now it's done, so I am working on my other two stories, this and Not Myself Tonight! I am on an updating ROLL right now, so I'm hoping that my updating streak will continue with this! Um...I have something else to say...but I can't seem to remember. Maybe I will remember later. Anyways! So yeah...some more drama, sorry but there's no Emmett in here. And also...sorry if this sucks. Ahaha...I'm going through something...emotional. So...sorry.

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Paul's POV

Alright guys, thanks for running patrols. I'll see you at the bonfire tonight. Sam dismissed Quil and I through the pack link as we ran around the borders of La Push, making sure that no blood-suckers had entered the reservation.

Thanks Sam, see ya later! Quil thought cheerfully before phasing back into a human.

Yeah, thanks Sam, see ya. I did the same once I reached my house and quickly ran inside and pulled on some cut-off jean shorts and a tight black shirt. I grabbed the keys from on top of my dresser and ran out of my room. I would've made it out of the house too if it weren't for my dad.

"Paul," He called my name from his spot on the couch, "why did Billy Black tell me that you were at his house trying to take his son out on a date?"

Ah shit, "Yeah...it was uh...I lost a bet and so...yeah...I had to pretend to go out with his kid. It was nothing." I lied, and began to feel a small ache in my chest as I pretended to not even know Jake's name.

He grunted, seeming to believe my lie, "Whatever."

I took that as the end of our amazing father-son conversation. I quickly moved to get out to my '07 Toyota Tundra. I got inside the roomy cabin and quickly started the engine, before pulling out of the driveway and began my drive to Forks High School to pick Jake up. I wanted to be there before the bell rang but since I seem to be catching every red light in this fucking town, I might be running a little late. I was in a slightly bad mood from when I found out the Billy had talked to the man that I was forced to call my father about what happened. I knew that I had to calm down before I got to Jake, because there is no way in hell that I am going to lose control around him. He is way to fragile for that to happen...Emily and Sam were proof of that.

I let out a sigh of relief as I was able to spot the school just up ahead. I pulled into the parking lot and jumped out of the car, disappointed with myself as I saw how empty is was. Then I smelled it. I smelled that disgusting stench of rotting corpse, like an old dead body; a.k.a. leech.

I quickly found Jake, and my heart stopped beating as I saw one of the Cullen's leaning in and kissing Jake. At that moment, my stomach dropped and it felt as though someone was squeezing my heart. It was so painful to see my imprint kissing someone else, and that someone else was a leech which made it even worse. Then I became angry. I wanted to kill that filthy blood sucker that had dared to even talk to my mate. I felt my temper sky-rocket and a slight tremble began to rock through my body as the hate for the bear-like Cullen began battling my seering pain for dominance of my features. I was ready to turn and leave because the pain of seeing them so close and intimate was becoming too much for me to handle, but then our eyes connected and he tried moving past the leech to get to meet as he called out my name. My heart seemed to be free of the invisible squeeze. But then that fucking leech had to grab him, and that was the straw that broke the camel's back. I was fully trembling, trying my hardest to push down the urge to phase out in the open like this.

"Let him go you stupid fucking leech!" I growled as I ran to my imprint, still fighting my raging anger, which only increased as I saw Jake trying to break free of the grasp without succeding.

"Not until you calm down mutt!" He snarled before looking at Jake and mumbled something that seemed incoherent to me, but it seemed to put an end to Jake's struggles.

He looked at me with pleading eyes, "Paul, just calm down okay?"

I was lost in his pleading eyes, taking in his request as I let my eyes fall closed and began to count to ten in my mind as I continued to take in deep breaths. I pictured myself holding Jacob in a tight embrace, kissing him with passion and fervor. I slowly re-opened my eyes as my trembling came to a halt.

"There. I'm all calm. Now hand over my mate leech." I spat out bitterly towards the demon that was keeping my imprint away from me.

"Fine mutt." Then he whispered something again, and just like the first time, I wasn't able to hear what it was.

At the moment, I honestly didn't care. All I cared about was the boy that I was holding tightly in my arms as I glared at the Cullen kid as he walked towards a jeep. I wasted no time before I began bringing Jake to my truck, opening the passanger's side door and helping him inside. I rushed to my side and quickly jumped in, only to find Jake's fingers lightly pressing against his lips. It kind of, broke my heart in a way. He was thinking about the Cullen. I began holding his hand, but he hadn't even seemed to notice, which only deepened my sadness. I tried focussing on the road instead of my feelings, but failed as I continued to worry about how I was beginning to lose my imprint.

Then out of nowhere he whispered, "I'm sorry."

"For what?" I asked, but kept my eyes on the road since I was afraid of what he would say next.

"For what happened back there." I felt relief wash over my body as he said this, "You guys obviously had a problem with each other."

"It's fine. Don't worry about it." I squeezed the hand that I was holding, trying to get rid of the frown that had made it's way onto his face. I hated seeing him sad.

"Paul..." he hesitated before continuing, "why did you call him a leech?" Shit. "And why did he cll you a mutt?" Double shit. "And then...why did you call me your...mate?" Triple shit.

I began to get tense as I realized how loose my temper had made my tongue. I let myself slip, and now I had to tell him everything, and possible scare him away. Fuck, if I lost him then it would all be over for me. Then I remembered the bonfire, and remembered how we were allowed to bring imprints to them so that they could hear the tribe's stories.

"I can't really explain it to you right now, but later tonight, there is gonna be a bonfire. Everything will be explained there...I promise." I brought his hand up to my lips and gently placed my lips against the back of it, silently praying that he would be understanding of everything that he would learn. "Is that okay?"

I took a quick glance in his direction, and saw that he had a small smile on my lips as let out a small, "Yeah."

I felt even more relieved that he was willing to wait until later tonight to get the answers that he was looking for. Although I was relieved, at the same time I was still scared that I would lose him when he got those answers. My heart began to ache at the simple thought alone. Soon, we were parked a little bit away from Jake's house since his dad was home. I killed the engine and shifted my body in my seat so that I would be able to face him.

"So, what time is the bonfire?" He asked as he repeated my actions. The smile still gracing his lips.

"Eight. So I'll pick you up at like seven thirty, since your house is like right there by the beach." I smiled wider as I gave his hand another squeeze. "Except this time, i'm not going to mess up at the door. I'll call you, and then you can come outside and meet me."

His smile got bigger, "Sounds like a plan."

We both leaned forward to share a kiss. My lips moved against his with sheer passion as I tried so hard to push all of my love for him into the kiss in high hopes that it would be enough to make him stay after he finds out about what I am.

I was already at the beach at seven to help set up whatever needed to be set up. It had only taken us ten minutes to have everything set up around the campfire circle that consisted of two fallen logs and chairs forming a circle around a fire pit. Emily had already started cooking the hamburgers and hot dogs on the barbequer that we had brought. She also had us set up a table where she placed all of the other baked goods that she had made before we got here. She was the best cook on the reservation, well right next to Sue Clearwater who was also a very talented cook.

I was tossing a football back and forth with Jarred while Quil and Embry were running an errand for Sue. Sam was talking to Emily, and I was patiently waiting for them to finish their conversation before I went to go talk to him. Emily and Sam were the only two people that knew about my imprinting on Jacob, and I had to let him know that he would be coming to the bonfire. I wasn't sure if I was ready to 'come out' to the pack yet, and I wanted my Alpha's advice.

"Go long!" I called out to Jarred as I readied the football in my hand to be thrown. I waited until I thought that Jarred would be far enough before throwing it, making a perfect spiral as it made it's way to him. I watched as it landed into his awaiting arms. I looked back towards Emily and saw that Sam was walking away from her, and further down the beach with his eyes on the water; and I knew that this would be my chance to talk to him. I didn't bother to tell Jarred that I was done tossing the pig-skin before I ran towards Sam.

"Sam!" I called out his name as I ran, loving the way that the sand felt on my bare feet.

He turned around to look at me with a friendly smile, "What's up?"

"Hey, can I get some advice?" I asked as I now stood next to him in the sand.

"Sure, whatcha need advice on?" He asked as he continued walking.

I followed him as I told him about what happened at Jacob's school. Even thinking about it was enough to make me want to phase and kill somebody. I told him about how he had also asked about the colorful nicknames that we used while arguing over Jake.

"And so I'm bringing him to the bonfire tonight, but I'm not sure if I'm ready to tell the pack that I imprinted on a guy. So I was wondering what you think I should do." I spoke calmly, but on the inside, I was thinking about losing my imprint again.

"Well," Sam began as he took a step into the low sweeping tide of the water, "I would wait until he knows the truth. See how he reacts, and then if he accepts the fact that he is your soulmate, then tell the pack. That's what I would do."

So that was the Alpha's advice. It was actually really good advice, but the fear of rejection was still rooted inside of me. I pulled my phone out of the pocket of my cut offs to check the time.

"Alright, thanks Sam. I've got to go pick him up, so I'll see you in a bit." He gave my back a playful hit as I turned to run towards Jake's house.

I waited until I was a few houses away from his to call him.

"Hello?" He answered after two rings.

"Hey, I'm a few houses down from your's so come outside now." I told him in a calm and gentle voice, trying to keep it from shaking as the bonfire grew closer and closer.

"Alright, I'll see you in a second!" He said in such a happy tone that it seemed to make me forget my fears as I kept my eyes on the front door of his house. It didn't take long before I saw him step outside from it and he began running to me. My arms were open, and automatically wrapped around him when his body connected with mine.

We didn't hold our embrace for too long, much to my displeasure, before we started walking towards the bonfire site on the beach. I missed our embrace and, of course, my nerves decided to kick in at this time.

Jake's POV

I hadn't been here long before people had started eating. There weren't even that many people here, but there was so much food. I didn't understand why there was so much food...until I saw the guys start to eat. I sat next to Paul on a fallen log with Embry on my other side. They ate hot dog after hot dog, with the occasional hamburger. All the other guys were the same. The only people that were eating at a normal pace were me, Emily, the elderly man whose name I learned was Quil Sr., Seth, and his parents Harry and Sue. All of the younger guys were eating like they had never had a meal before. Eventually, they seemed to have tamed their hunger while they all found places sitting around the fire that was in the center of us all.

"Pay attention, cuz this is where you are getting your answers from." Paul whispered into my ear, but he sounded so...sad in a way. "Just...don't freak out okay?"

I nodded as I kept my eyes on the dancing flames in front of me that illuminated my surroundings. I was kind of cold, even though I could feel heat radiating from the fire, and Paul and Embry. I wanted Paul to hold me, but he told me before we got to everyone that he was still in the closet with them, so we couldn't really do anything together. Although I was sad about it, I understood why we had to do it.

Then Quil Sr. began to speak, and any chatter that was going on came a cease. He began talking about the tribe's history. Including the story of the chief's third wife, whom sacrificed herself to protect the people from the cold ones, which were vampires. Then they progressed to talk about how their tribe had grown from that time to become the amazing pack of "shifters". Then going into how their job as said pack is to protect the people of La Push from said cold ones. Then he went into a really nice part where he talked about imprinting, which is just a fancy word for finding your soul mate. You instantly fall in love once you see that person, and they become your everything. The imprintee would basically live to make the imprinted happy. If the imprintee is rejected, then said person would simply lose all reason for living and eventually just die. It was kind of sad to think about it, but then as he ended the story by telling everyone to be strong and embrace your culture, I realized something.

I found no answers in that story at all.

I turned to look at Paul, who already had on intent gaze on me and my confused expression. He seemed almost...afraid of something.

"Did I miss the part where my questions were answered?" I asked in a small voice so that others wouldn't be able to hear what I was saying.

"Uh..." He seemed to be at a loss as he looked at the fire, breathing a short sigh of relief, "c'mon. Let's go for a walk." He stood and began walking away from the fire without even waiting.

I quickly tried to follow his fast steps and then began walking next to him in the barley lit darkness of the beach.

"So you really didn't get your answers from the story?" He broke the strangely uncomfortable silence that had grown between us.

"Nope. I mean, don't get me wrong. They were nice stories," I shrugged before continuing, "but I don't really see how they answered my questions."

"Jake." He stopped and turned his body to look directly at me. "Think about your questions, and then think about the story."

I stared at him as if he had just gone crazy, "Paul, seriously? That story was about freakin...werewolves and vampires! How does that..." I trailed off as I saw his face drop.

"Jake, what do vampires do?"

"I don't know, drink blood?"

"Right, and what do leeches do?"

"...Drink blood." I began thinking that maybe Emmett was a... "No. He can't be. Vampires aren't real!"

The look that he gave me seemed to say otherwise.

"Okay, you know what. Let's say, for conversations sake, that I do believe that Emmett is...a vampire. That would make you a werewolf." I looked up at the full moon, "It's a full moon and you're still human. So...no."

He seemed to chuckle at my reasoning but his amusement was short lived before worry etched it's way onto his face.

"Paul...you're not a werewolf. You can't be!" At this point...I didn't know who I was trying to get to believe my words. Paul, or myself?

He didn't say anything. He grabbed my hand and began to practically run to the end of the beach, which led into a small mini forest looking set of trees. Once there, it seemed as though it was even harder to see things with only the, now, ultra dim light from the moon. We found a small open space in the trees

"Please...just please, don't freak out." He said before moving away from me and further into the thick veil of trees.

I couldn't see him, and I began to freak out from the eerie silence.

"Paul?" I called out his name. No response. "Paul, just forget it! This shit is creeping me out!" No response.

Then I heard what sounded like a hushed cracking of bones. I think it was safe to say that I was so scared, I was practically shitting myself at this point. Then I saw it. A big silver wolf. A big wolf...a wolf that could probably eat me in one bite.

"HOLY SHIT!" I yelled as I turned to run, but with my naturally clumsy techniques, I tripped over a tree root that was surfaced above the ground.

I lay on the floor, completely still. Half of my reasoning was out of fear, and the other was from the pain that I felt when I hit the floor face first.

"Jake! Oh, God Jake!" I heard Paul practically crying out to the heavens as he wrapped me up in his big, warm, and strong arms.

"Paul, oh my God, I was so scared. Did you see that fucking wolf?" I was crying from the fear that was instilled in me at the sight of the wolf.

"Jake...that was me. I thought that it would just be best if I showed you what I am...what our little pack is."

I pulled away from my warm sanctuary, so far away that I was actually out of his grasp.

"W-what?"

Paul's POV

"W-what?" He stumbled through the word with a crack in his voice.

He was looking at me like I was a monster. This is exactly what I was afraid of.

"Jake, please just let me-" I reached for him again, but he backed away from me as if I would eat him or something.

"NO! Don't touch me! Just...just get away from me!" He yelled at me. I tried stepping forward again but he continued to back away, until he eventually just turned and ran from me completely.

I can honestly say that I felt myself die a little bit as he ran. I had basically just been rejected. I couldn't live without him...I wouldn't live without him.

I felt my knees go weak as I collapsed to the floor, tears of pain and sadness falling from my eyes freely. I didn't have the strength to even attempt to be strong right now. And if this was really the end of things for us...I never would be strong enough.

A/N: AW! HOW SAD! Ahaha but yeah...Jake had to find out eventually! And yeah...he just...reacted really badly. So, review and let me know how you liked it, if I should continue...etc. Ahaha yeah, sorry for making you all wait so long! But I finally finished The Fame Monster! Woooh! Ahaha and then, this really sucks, but both authors that I was planning on collaborating with BAILED on me! So, once again, I am looking for someone to collaborate with! if you're interested, PM me! Don't forget to review!

Notoriously Yours,

GoinnGaGa