Back To The Hellhole

Over the summer Carlisle tried to get our friendship back on track. We even started back our Saturdays. Our friendship is still a little shaky but it's getting better. I kept in touch with James through email, text, and phone calls. He spent most of his summer moving and packing. I kept asking him where he moved to but he wouldn't tell me, he would change the subject. I guess he didn't want me to know. Oh well.

Today is the first day back, at least now I am a senior. I just have to get through this year then I was out of here. I stood in front of my car staring at my personal hell wishing this year to go by fast. "I see you're still as beautiful as ever." I turned to see James standing there with a big smile on his face. "James." I yelled before jumping on him. He laughed before giving me a big hug.

"It's good to see you again beautiful." He kissed me lightly on the lips. "Why didn't you tell me you moved here?" I pouted as he laughed. "Because I wanted it to be a surprise." "It is definitely a surprise. I'm so glad you're here. Now this year won't suck as bad." I led him to the office so he could get his schedule. We had most of the same classes except one I had gym while he had football. I could see all the girls staring at him but he paid no attention to them.

I saw Carlisle by his locker alone. I pulled James over. "Carlisle I want you to meet James. James this is Carlisle." Carlisle turned to face us. "So this is the James you told me about. It's nice to meet you" he stuck out his hand to shake. James took it a little hesitantly. "Same" was all he said. James wasn't a big Carlisle fan ever since what happened in Hawaii. Even though I have forgiven him it seems James hasn't. "Well we better get going to class. I will talk you later Carlisle." "Ok Bells, bye James" James just nodded.

I grabbed his hand and led him to our first class. The day was going good no one has bothered me but like always all good things must come to an end. "Well well well what do we have here? Its fatso." I could hear their laughter behind me. I refuse to turn around and let them get to me. I kept walking to the lunch room. James went ahead of me since I had to use the restroom, big mistake. "So Bella did you have fun on your vacation with Carlisle. Oh wait that's right he was with me the whole time. I mean who would want to spend their whole vacation with someone like you."

I heard their laughter follow them as they walked away. Once I knew they were gone I let the tears fall. I know I shouldn't let them get to me but I can't help it. I slid to the ground and cried. That was how James found me a few minutes later. "Beautiful what's wrong?" he sat down beside me and pulled me into his lap. "I'm not beautiful, I'm nothing" I started to cry harder into his chest. James pulled me back and stared straight into my eyes. "Bella listen to me. You are beautiful and you are something. You an intelligent beautiful funny woman. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise." I wiped my tears and stood up. "I I am so great then why doesn't Carlisle want me" I heard him sigh as he got up too. "Because he is an idiot who doesn't know how great a girl you are." I didn't know what to say. That was the sweetest thing anyone has said to me.

"Thanks James" I gave him a kiss on the cheek. "Anytime beautiful. So do you want to go to lunch or go somewhere else?" we ended up going outside to the bleachers. James had me tell him what made me cry so I told him what Esme said to me. He told me to forget about it that it wasn't worth my time. Having James to talk to was nice. I never could tell Carlisle because he wouldn't believe me. "Hey Bells what you doing out here?" I looked down to see Carlisle. "I wanted to sit outside today" he smiled. "Bells can I talk to you for a minute?" I looked at James who nodded. I got up and walked to where Carlisle was. "What's up?" "Well you know it's my year to throw the back to school party so I wanted to invite you and James" oh joys the back to school party. I have never been to one even though Carlisle always tries to get me to. Why go when you know no one likes you.

"I don't think" he interrupts me. "Come on please Bells. It's out last year plus I really want you to be there" he gives me his puppy dog face knowing I can't resist. I sigh "ok fine we will be there." He pulls me into a hug "great so I guess I will see you on Friday at my house 9pm." I nod my head. As soon as he is gone James joins me. "So what did he want?" I looked at him "to invite us to his back to school party on Friday." "So are you going?" "I said I would and you are coming with me no excuses" he laughed. "Of course beautiful."

The rest of the day went by uneventful. It was finally time to go home but James wanted me to stay and watch him practice. I have never stayed before because of them but I decided that I would just for James. Wow am I finally moving on from Carlisle. No I will never stop loving him but maybe it's time for me to get a life outside of Carlisle. I make my way to the field when I come across the bitch squad. "What are you doing here fatso?" I don't get a chance to answer because James takes the liberty.

"I asked her to come watch and support me. Hey beautiful" he kisses me right there in front of everyone. I can see their mouths hanging wide open. This was the best kiss ever. I could see something flash in Carlisle's eyes but I couldn't put my finger on what it was. I watched James practice and must say he is really good. After practice I waited for him to finish changing.
I'm shocked to see you here Bells." I turn to see Carlisle standing behind me "James asked me to." I could see the same emotion from earlier past through his eyes again, it looked like hurt. "Are you ready to go beautiful?" I shake my head. "Bye Carlisle" "Bye Bella"

I still couldn't get that look out of my head as I walked to my car. Why would he be hurt? Did I do something wrong? So many questions with no answers. "A penny for your thoughts beautiful" I forgot James was with me. "It's nothing" he didn't look like he believed me but let it go. "If you say so, I will call you later. Bye Bella" he kissed me on my cheek before getting into his car. I sighed then got into my car and drove home with Carlisle on my mind.

The rest of the evening I thought about Carlisle and the kiss. My head felt like it was going to explode with all my thought working in overtime. I went to bed with a major headache. Why do guys have to be so difficult? I woke up the next morning looking like death. I barely got any sleep because my mind was too active to allow sleep to come. I got dress then made my way to school. As soon as I pulled in and turn my car off, James and Carlisle were by my door. James looked ready to kill and Carlisle looked pleased. What is wrong with this world? I sighed before grabbing my stuff. I got out the car and was immediately pulled into a hug "hello beautiful."

He gives me a kiss on my cheek. I gave him a smile which looks more like a grimace. His face turned into one of concern. "You ok Bella you don't look so good" I try to smile again. "I'm ok James just didn't get much sleep. Hello Carlisle" I turn to Carlisle who looked deep in thought. "Hey Bells" he smiles a small smile. "So is there a reason why both of you are here waiting for me?" Carlisle seems to snap out of his thoughts then. "Yes I wanted to see what you were doing after school today" I raise my eyebrows at that. I wonder what's going on. "I didn't have anything planned then again I never do" I frown at that thought. "Do you mind if I come over after practice?" hmmm now I am really curious. "Sure" what is going on? "Ok see you then. Bye Bells" I wave bye to him. I turn to James who has a frown on his face. "Bella are you sure you're ok?" I smiled a real smile at him. He was so caring and sweet. "I'm fine James really. I just didn't sleep much that's all. Come on let's get to class before we are late: he nodded but I could tell he was still worried.

The day went by ok. I kept getting death glares from the bitch squad but that's nothing new. After school I opted to go home instead of stay and watch James practice. I figured I could get some homework done and maybe take a nap before Carlisle came over. I was just drifting to sleep when the doorbell rang. I got up to answer it. I let Carlisle in then led him up to my room. I sat on my bed waiting for Carlisle to start the conversation. "I don't like him" I knew my face was showing confusion at the moment. He must have noticed because he elaborated "James" What is going on? "Why?" he sighs before he starts to pace. "Come on Bells seriously how well do you know him. You meet him on vacation then he so happens to move here and now you are going to football practice. He is changing you plus I don't get to see you anymore" throughout his rant my anger kept rising.

"James has been a better friend to me then you have been lately. Yea I may not know everything about him but I am slowly learning. So what if I am changing. It's a good change. James is giving me the confidence to be me. He makes me feel beautiful. He doesn't treat me like the fat ugly girl. The reason you don't see me anymore has nothing to do with my friendship with James it has everything to do with you always being with Esme. You are the reason our friendship is falling apart."

I stop to take a breath. I was furious with him for putting all the blame on James. "Bella can't you see he is using you. You deserve better, you can do better" where is all of this coming from? "No I can't. Do you see a line of guys beating down my door asking for a date? No! I'm not the beautiful, sexy girl guys like you go after. James isn't using me, he likes me for me" I could feel tears falling. "Bells seriously how stupid can you be. He is using you" I cut him off "Stop just fucking stop. I don't know what the hell is going on with you but if you want to keep me as a friend then I suggestion you stop talking shit about James. I like James he has been a great friend to me. I don't have friends Carlisle. You're my only friend but lately you haven't been a good one. I don't like your friends or your girlfriend for that matter but I don't talk shit about them to your face because I know you like them. How about you give me the same respect and not talk shit about James" I take a deep breath before continuing.

I think you should leave before you damage our friendship even more. You are my best friend and you always will be but right now I don't know how I feel about you" I saw the hurt and tears in his eyes as he walked out of my room. I collapsed on my bed crying. What has gotten into Carlisle? Why was he acting this way? When did my life get so complicated? Staring at the ceiling with tears in my eyes was how James found me. I looked up when I felt the shift in my bed. "I guess things didn't go so good with Carlisle?" I shook my head before crying again. He took me in his arms whispering calming words in my ear. After I calmed down I replayed my conversation with Carlisle to James. When I was finished I looked up at James's face. He had many emotions splashed on his face.

"Bella I would never use you, I really do care about you. I would like this, us, to be more than friendship but I know you're in love with Carlisle so if friendship is all I can get from you then I will take it. You are a great person Bella and you deserve better than all of this" wow that was just the sweetest thing so I did something I have never done before I kissed him with all my might.

"I am willing to give this a try. I know I love Carlisle but he doesn't love me back and I have to accept that. I may not be good at this relationship thing but I want to try" he gave me the brightest smile I have ever seen before he crushed his lips to mine. It is time for me, Bella Swan, to have a life and that is what I plan on doing.

Thank you all for the reviews and support….I really appreciate them….sorry it took so long but been having computer problems hopefully it's all better now…..as for if James is a good guy or not in this story you are just going to have to wait and see I don't want to spoil anything….Bella and Carlisle had a disagreement so where does this leave their friendship…..and where does this new development leave James and Bella….oh so much is going to happen…..I can't wait…..next chapter is the party and I must say that things are going to get even more crazy……read review and until next time be safe…..