Change Is In the Air

I went to my house packed a bag then went to Carlisle's house. I was nervous because I didn't know how this conversation was about to go. I know the talk has to occur but I'm afraid I am going to lose my best friend. I have to do what I have to do, such an awful thing to say but it's what needs to be done. I finished packing left my parents a note then made my way to Carlisle's house. It took all my strength and will power to ring his doorbell. I waited for a few minutes before the door opened. There he stood in front of me with a smile on his face. I felt bad because I was about to take the smile off his face.

"Hey Bella" I put on a fake smile "hey Carlisle, can I come in?" "Sure" he opened the door wider so I could step in. My nerves were in overload. "Bella are you ok, you look like your about to pass out" that was an understatement. Come on Bella get it together you have to do this. "Carlisle we need to talk about what happened" I could see Carlisle tense up. Guess he wasn't expecting this so soon. Now is the time Bella, no chickening out, you can do this.

"Carlisle what happened upstairs in your room should not have happened, don't get me wrong I have always wanted something like that to happen but I was with James. Actually I am still with James. He knows what happened, we talked and he has forgiven me. I have loved you for so long hoping that one day you would want me but you never did until it was too late. I want us to continue to be friends but I would understand if you don't want to." I took a deep breath; it felt good to get that off my chest. Now the cards were in his hands.

Carlisle looked stunned like he wasn't expecting that, he took a deep breath before he began. "I see you have made your choice, I wish it was different but I understand why you chose him. I will back off for now and just settle for being your best friend but know this Bella that when I see an opening I will try to make you mine." I didn't know what to say to that. I was happy he was going to continue being my friend; I just hope things don't get out of hand.

"Well I need to get going; I just wanted to clear the air between us." I stepped up to him to give him a goodbye hug. He whispered in my ear "I will always love and I will make you mine one day." As I left his house that sentence stayed with me. What was I suppose to think about that. I made my way to James house. He was outside waiting for me so I ran up to him and kissed him with everything in me. Things were confusing but I made my choice and I had to stick with it. "Come on lets get you inside" he grabbed my bag and led me to his room. I was nervous this was new territory for me. I had never stayed the night with a guy that I was romantically involved with; then again this is my first real romantic relationship.

He put my bag down on the floor then he sat on the bed. I took a seat next to him. "So how did it go with Carlisle?" I didn't know if I should tell him everything or just what I thought he needed to know. "It went good he understands and is going to continue to be my friend. He promises to back off so I can be happy with you" I smiled liking my answer. "Well I am glad, so how about we watch a movie or something" I nodded "That sounds like a good idea" he took my hand and led me to where his movie collection was. I decided to pick a comedy; I needed a good laugh after all the drama lately. Lying in James arms watching a movie together was a nice change from everything that's been going on lately. Halfway through the movie my mind started to wander to what Carlisle said earlier.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I was startled to fell feather light kisses on my neck. "Bella you seem to be a million miles away. What's going on in that pretty little head of yours?" I sighed the turned to look at him. "I just have been thinking about what happened with Carlisle" he sighed "No thinking about Carlisle tonight lets enjoy us" he leaned in and planted his lips on mine. The kiss started out innocently but then it escalated. The things James makes me feel I don't know if anyone can ever make me feel like this. He deepened the kiss, I felt like I was going to explode with all these different emotions.

I decided to experiment so I started to move my hands under his shirt and across his chest. He let a moan escape his lips so that must mean I am doing something right. He moved so he was on top of me. His lips left mine and made a trail down my neck to my collarbone. A moan left my lips when his hands started to wander down my body then under my shirt towards my breast. This was all new to me, was I ready for this new step in our relationship. James stopped his movements and backed away from me a little so he could look me in my eyes.

"Bella I want you so badly right now but I know you are a virgin so if you're not ready for this then we can stop right now." He was so sweet for asking if I was ready for this or not. Am I ready to lose my virginity to James? I think I am so I leaned up on my elbows and gave him a peck on his lips. "I trust you James make me yours" he gave me the biggest smile I have ever seen before he captured my lips in a passionate kiss.

James pushed me gently back onto the bed then he took off his shirt and when I say baby got a body he got a body. Football does wonders for his body. I move my hands up and down his chest memorizing every muscle. He lets me explore for a little while before he removes my hands kissing them before wrapping them around his neck. He leans down and starts to kiss me slowly at first then his tongue pries my lips open. He explores my mouth make me moan with all the passion he is making me feel just with his lips.

His hands make his way to the helm of my shirt and he slowly starts to pull it up over my body. For the first time in my life I am allowing a guy to see me in my bra. James keeps eye contact with me as he slowly makes his way down my body. He pulls me up a little so he can unsnap my bra. I move to cover up my exposed chest but he stops me before I can. "Don't Bella I want to see you all of you" I blush but keep eye contact with him. He moves his mouth to my breast and I about come up off the bed. He takes one nipple into his mouth while his hands kneaded the other. Moans were coming out of my mouth loudly which made me embarrassed so I closed my lips tightly.

James stopped what he was doing which made me give him a confused look. "Now Bella no closing that pretty little mouth of yours I want to hear everything and I want you to be as loud as you want" then he attacked my breasts once more and I let him everything. He switched his movements taking my other nipple into his mouth and kneading the other. I could feel dampness in my panties so I started to rub my legs together which made me moan even more. I could feel James smile against me. He started to move his lips down my stomach which made me suck in my little pooch but I let go when he gave me a glare. James really did want to see all of me. He started to unbutton my jeans then slowly pulled them down my legs. Once they were off he kissed his way back up to my underwear. He hooked his fingers in the waistband of them then pulled them off my legs throwing them with all my other clothing.

He sucked in a breath as he just stood in front of me staring at me. I was starting to get nervous, did he like what he saw or was he disgusted, so many thoughts were running through my head at the moment. I was about to cover up when he lay back on top of me "Bella you are beautiful don't let anyone tell you any otherwise. I love you Bella I really do" I remember him telling me that when I felt bad about myself. He has always been there for me when I needed him most; I felt tears come to my eyes. "I love you too James" He gave me a sweet kiss while he wiped away the tears that fell from my face. The kiss heated up in no time. His hand started to make its way down my body to my most private possession. He slowly started to rub my clit making me moan at the new feeling.

"So wet for me just for me" he slowly inserted a finger and I nearly screamed at the feelings he was invoking in me. He moved his finger in and out of me slowly at first then he started to gain speed. He put in a second finger as I started to feel a tightening in my stomach. "Let go Bella cum for me beautiful" and I did as he instructed I let go of it all. My body lifted off the bed some and I felt something leave my body onto his hand. My breath was coming in short gasp as I watched him lick his fingers clean. "You taste heavenly" then he kissed me allowing me to taste myself on him. I have never thought I would like that but it turned me on. He removed himself from me so he could take off the rest of his clothes. "Are you sure about this Bella?" I smiled at him "I am sure James make me yours" He leaned down and kissed me while his hands were searching for something in his drawer.

I saw the condom rapper in his hands and I knew that this is it, I was about to lose my virginity. He slipped the condom on and positioned himself. "Bella this is going to hurt but I promise it will feel better after awhile ok just try and relax" I nodded my head. I took a deep breath. He slowly pushed his way into me I could feel him getting close to my hymen. He did a quick thrust and that's when I felt pain like no other. I could feel the tears leaking out of my eyes. I could hear him whispering "its ok Bella it will go away soon I promise. I love you Bella" I could feel it going away so I moved letting him know I was ready. His thrusts were slow then he picked up speed setting a rhythm. I could feel that same tightening in my stomach again.

His hand started to rub my clit again and I came undone once again. He gave a few more quick thrusts into me before my name escaped his lips. He collapsed on top of me and I welcomed the weight. We just stayed like that enjoying the aftermath of our lovemaking. He rolled over removing the condom throwing it in the trash then pulling me into his arms. "How do you feel beautiful?" I smiled "I feel amazing. Thank you James for everything not just tonight but for all the times you were there for me. I love you" he kissed my forehead "I love you too Bella. I will always be there for you" I gave him one last kiss before falling asleep in his arms.

A/N

I am sorry it took me so long to get this chapter out….I have had it done for a while but with school and personal things that have been going on I just haven't had the time to type it up and get it out to you guys….But here it is that long awaited chapter…..Bella and Carlisle had their talk so what is going to happen between them now….Will Carlisle keep his distance or is he up to something….Where does Bella and James relationship go from here…..Cant wait to get the next chapter done and out for you guys….I hope you all enjoyed this chapter….Until next time review and be safe…..