Chapter 13: date Pt one.

Clare's point of view:

I can't believe I'm going on a date with Elijah Goldsworthy. But what if he's still a player? What if he only wants one thing? Stop it Clare! Don't Doubt him he might actually like you after all he did ask you out. I can't believe I'm going on a date with him after only knowing him for only a month. But during this month we opened up to each other. Like our flirty game today in first period or the late night phone calls that make me yearn to hear his voice even more. What happened to my game plan? I totally fell for the enemy. I haven't even seen him look at another girl since the first time we met. Maybe he has really changed.? Maybe he really has feelings for me. Stop Clare! Once again don't doubt him. he really did ask you out and was nervous about it. He has to be harboring some pent up feelings too, right? I was thinking that I'll be a little bold at the end of our date and end up kissing him on the cheek after he walks me to my dorm. That will definitely be interesting to see if he pulls me back for a tender kiss on the lips or pull away from me. Hopefully option one. Wow I got it for him bad. He wouldn't pressure me because he knows my beliefs and about my ring. He also has more respect for me than to do that. I hope he has changed from being a pig to a sweet gentleman scratch that. I know he has changed. KEY WORD: know. Whenever we are doing something and talking he never breaks eye contact to check out a bleach blonde tramp in a micro mini skirt and 6 inch stilettos walking by. If anybody breaks the eye contact it's me. I can't help it I get so nervous around him it's not even funny. It's like I would explode from the anticipation of his every move. I also feel that if I don't break the contact I'll slowly drown in his perfect emerald orbs. He also is very sweet to me. His main three functions he does with me are protect, joke around, and be sweet. He is also the perfect combination of fragile and strong. That just amazes me. He is strong because he can most likely get through everything. But fragile because he is still healing from a loss. He didn't say who or how important this person was, all he said was that he's coping from a loss. And I didn't pry. Just like he didn't pry with my life. I still have some secrets to tell him. like how I was raped, or that I am still trying to nurse my tortured soul back to life from a recent break up that just brought me over the edge. I don't know what it is about him but…I feel like I've known him my whole life…like I can tell him anything in the world and he wouldn't judge me. He just has that ability for you to open up and let him in. and that's really hard for me to do considering I have my guard up full time for fear of being hurt. That's when it hit me. I'm falling hard for Eli Goldsworthy. One of the hottest boys at Degrassi. But he wasn't all looks. He had a personality….a soul. These were the thoughts that were swirling around in my head while walking the halls of Degrassi with my arm hooked with his. As we were walking the girls just glared at me because of envy. Don't they know that envy is one of the seven deadly sins? Eli was totally oblivious to the attention he was getting from the guys. He was getting Glares from all directions yet he had a smile on his face. He must be high or something. I must be as well because all that mattered was me and Eli and his arm around me. Soon we were outside walking to his car. Suddenly we stopped outside of a hearse. Why is there a hearse outside Degrassi?

"Well…Are you going to get in or not?" he asked. This was his? Well it suits him and it's kinda hot. When you think about it.

"You own a…hearse?" I asked.

"Yeah. And it's okay he doesn't bite." Eli smirked at me.

"That's cool." I replied hopping in. he started the car and put it in drive. The ride was quiet so I turned on the radio. It was playing one of my favorite songs. It was "Misey Buisness" by a band called Paramore. I started to bob my head.

"You like them?" Eli asked amused.

"Hell yeah" I said replying. 5 minutes later we were at the Dot. We walked inside and the bell rang behind us.

Eli led us to a booth in the back that wasn't really around many other ones. We sat opposite sides of each other. Our server then walked over to us.

"Baby Edwards! I thought you moved. You going to Degrassi?"

"Hey Pete. And yes I am now attending degrassi."

"that's good to hear. Are you communicating with Darcy lately?" of coarse he was going to ask about Darcy. Everyone always talks about Darcy. She was the beautiful, smart, and popular daughter but that's changed now that I started at Degrassi.

"Um.. yeah she said she coming down for thanksgiving and Christmas."

"okay. Now what can I get you two?" he asked smiling.

"I'll have a strawberry milkshake with a cheese burger."

"I'll have Coke and a Supreme burger." Eli said.

Peter walked away and I turned to Eli.

"Baby Edwards?" he asked.

"Yeah. He was my older sister's boy friend. She's in kenya."

"Cool."

"Can I ask you a question?" I asked.

"Shoot." He replied.

"Okay. Why did you become a player?"