Chapter 14: Date? Pt 2

Clare's point of view:

The look on his face sure was surprising, as if he didn't expect that I was gonna ask that.

"Ummm…Do I have to answer that?" he asked. I could tell by his eyes that he was nervous.

"No I suppose not. But I would like you to. How bout this. If you tell me my you became a player then I'll tell you my past. Is that okay?" I saw him visibly relax and then a smirk appear when I mentioned the part about my past.

"Okay. You got a deal." Yes! I finally get to know what drove Eli into using girls as his amusement.

"Great. But when I tell you my past we're going to go on a walk."

"Fine by me." Okay so…all I need to do now is think of how I'm going to tell him how I was raped or about my abusive ex. I will probably break down crying on our walk and he will never want to date me because of my baggage. Hopefully he won't judge me. I was snapped back to reality like a rubber band when Peter set down our food and drinks. Now it's rime for him to explain. This better go as planned.

"Okay…so will you answer my question now?" I asked softly.

"Yeah. But you promise not to judge?" was that fear in his eyes? He really must like me if he's scared of what I'll think.

"Trust me when you hear my past you'll be the one judging." I said before popping a curly fry into my mouth.

"Doubt it. But if I want us to get closer then I'll tell you." Awwww he wants us to grow closer.

"Okay shoot." I said mocking him from earlier.

"Okay. About two years ago I had a girlfriend named Julia. She was my first love. We were so close even though we had different opinions on EVERTHING. One night we had a fight. Turns out she was pregnant with another man's baby. Me and her were on and off. Never more than 4 or 5 days before one of us caved. During one of the 5 days she had sex with some guy and he didn't use a condom. About a month later she took a test and it was positive. So on our 7th month anniversary she decided to tell me that. I thought it was mine…but she told me it wasn't. we then got into a fight over it and I said some things I shouldn't have said. This was before I went to Degrassi. She was at my house for dinner. She got upset and got on her bike then rode off. About an hour later I got a phone call stating that Julia was dead. She had…been hit by by a drunk driver." His voice quivered at the end. He wasn't finished so he took a deep breath.

"After I got the news I became uncontrollable and reckless. But the girls…oh the girls mistook it as edgy. Soon they all started coming up to me asking to go somewhere private. I of coarse obliged being the guy that I am and went with them. When I got to Degrassi I didn't stop going with the girls. I would always end the 'relationship' the same way. By saying 'It just wasn't working out. So that my friend…is why I was who I was." I couldn't help but feel empathy and sympathy towards him. not pity. By the time he was done explaining he had a couple of tears rolling down his cheeks. I was full so I got up and walked to the side of the booth where he was sitting.

I sat down next to him. I decided that I was going to comfort him.

"Hey don't cry. You got it off your chest. There's no need to cry. I just had no idea that this is why you were like that. I just thought you didn't care about girls only your 'needs'. But I guessed wrong because as you were opening up to me I realized you are both sensitive and strong." He looked at me with tear stained eyes and smiled. Not a smirk but a genuine smile. I smiled back and wiped some stray tears away with my thumb.

"Thank you Clare…for being so..so understanding. And believe me I want to change."

"I believe you want to change but how can we start what do you want to do to help you.?"

"What I want…is for you not to give up on me." What he just said made my day. It's official I'm swooning over him.

"Hey there… who said I was going to give up on you? 'cause I sure wasn't planning on it." I said smiling.

"Promise?"

"Promise." I said linking my pinkey with his.

"Okay I'm done are you done?" he said smiling at me. I replied by nodding my head. He got up and went to go pay. Two minutes later he walked back with his arm out stretched. I got out of the booth and walked outside. For it being September it was a little chilly. We walked out side and started down the street. I decided to be bold so I grabbed his hand and looked at him. he looked at me and smiled. Then he interlocked our fingers. I was so happy.

"Okay I'm just going to come right out and say it. I'm going to tell you my past." He smiled an encouraging smile and nodded for me to begin.

"Okay. So last October I started dating a boy named Lucas. As well as you and Julia he was my first love. I really thought he loved me too because he would always say it. About after 3 months of dating he started to get really mad like quickly. If I did or said something wrong he would go off on me. One day I was talking to one of my really close guy friends and he saw. He walked over to me yelled at my friend for talking to me than took me to the back of the school. He yelled at me calling me these names like slut, stupid whore, and other really mean names. Then what came next was something I never even thought of happening to me. He slapped me. Hard on the face. Hard enough for my cheek to swell and become bruised. He apologized and said it wouldn't happen again but he was lying. Every other day it would happen. Then one night we were at a party. It was for the football team so of coarse it was gonna be crazy. Well that night Lucas got drunk. He took me upstairs to a room and raped me. He was stronger than me so he had the advantage. I pressed charges but he was charged not guilty. So he's out there some where doing things like that to other girls. Putting more girls in my position of fear and helplessness. So that's my story." I finished and Eli had the look of shock and understanding written on his face. Apparently I was crying so he pulled me into a hug.

"Shhhh shhhh it's okay don't cry. He's not here he can't hurt you." He said as he gently rubbed my back.

"I was so scared" I whispered into his chest. As he was hugging me I took in his scent. He smelt like mint and pine. Strangely it drew me to him. we pulled away and I noticed we were at his car. So we must've walked a lap. I got in his car and buckled myself in.

"Clare don't worry about him ar any guy. I won't ever let you get hurt." he said. I smiled.

"Thank you." I said. He started up the car and we were driving again. The silence wasn't awkward it…. was just comfortable. What made it better was that shortly after he started to drive he grabbed my hand interlocking the fingers. Mine fit perfectly with his. 5 minutes later he stopped the car and we were in the parking lot to the school again. Eli got out jogged up to my side and opened the door. I thanked him and smiled politely. The walk to my dorm was nice. He had his arm around me and mine around his torso. Even though we weren't official I bet we looked the part. The walked ended and I decided I was going to kiss him on the cheek we stopped and I turned around so my back was facing the door.

"Thanks for the date Eli I had fun." I smiled.

"Me too."

"So…" here comes the awkward silence before I kiss him.

"So…" he says mocking me.

"I guess this is where we say good night so good night." I said before I stepped on my tippy toes and kissed his cheek. As I was about to open the door he spun me around and his lips met mine. I kissed him back and wrapped my arms around his neck while his were around my waist pulling me closer. When we kissed I swear fireworks went off and everything went in slow motion. I was disappointed when he pulled away and I think it showed because he smirked.

"Good night my dearest Clare." He whispered huskily in my ear making me shudder before walking backwards down the hall.

"Next Friday we have another date." He said and I blushed. He laughed before turning around and heading off to the boy's dormitories. I walked in the door and I see jenna sitting on her bed staring at me. It was kind of weird.

"You two seem close." She said. Was that jealousy I detected in her voice.

"Yeah. We are. Why?" I asked.

"Oh no reason." She said suspiciously before going back to homework.

What was her deal?

How was that? I finally made them kiss. I have to say this is my favorite chapter. And what's up with Jenna. She going to stir some shit up with Eli & Clare. So far longest Chapter. Sorry I haven't been updating this lately but you should check out some of my new stories called Deranged, Love Drunk, and Understanding. All of them are Eclare of coarse. Like why wouldn't they be?

Hugs,

Amanda