On the ride home in my chevy, i felt my mind drift slighly about a large pair of green orbs. They sun danced of them with such beauty it left my breathless. The shade was an unual, almost unique.
They were bright and sparlked like diamonds with a mixture of darker tones mixed, like the forrests that surrounded me. The feelings that overcome me were new, fresh and spread freely through my chest like a tornado.
It felt like my insides were crying for longing, like they needed to be near something.
I looked around me to see my cottage-like home. I cut off the engine and pulled my arms around my lower adomenom. There was something missing inside my stomache, but i didnt know what.
I took a large breathe out and looked down at myself.
I was wearing my old faded jeans and a tight top under a thick warm coat. I looked no different to any other day, so why was i feeling this now. I bit my lip for a few seconds, before shaking my head and reaching for the car door. It was stupid to over-think something as stupid as feeling different inside. Its part of growing up, that's what everybody told me.
st When i reached my door, i unlocked the lock and took a deep breath to calm my heart from its fast pace state.
Later on out with Bree at the mall...
"Ohh i think you should get this one. Oh OH NO wait this blue scarf will look nicer." Murmured Bree, grinning like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time.
She was that little kid having the MOST wanted presents from the very Santa himself. I rolled my eyes, and my lips puckered up into a tiny smile.
"Yeah, that looks...cute." I replied with fake exitement dripping in every word. She noticed though, she saw through my fake exited smile. She rolled her eyes at me and plunged the scarf into my already heavy basket.
I don't even want to know the overall price of all these things.
"So Bella, why do i hear my sources tell me that Edward Cullen and you shared a moment in biology eh? ... They saw you two gazing at each other with love-sick puppy eyes." She asked teaseing
She wriggled her eyes brows at me and sat down on the nearest bench at the mall. I sat down obediently, giving my poor un-fit legs a rest. I looked at the shops in front of us, ignoring the question.
"We should go to Starbucks next, I need to re0-boost my energy levels back up" I murmured all-too-quickly to be seen as innocent or not obvious. She looked at me like her easy prey. I shuddered, feeling small and ready to spill.
She seemed pleased by response.
"You like him, don't you? wow, who would've thought the one girl everyone thought resisted his charm, could be falling for the very same prince charming," She paused looking deeply at my torn expression.
" Bella, you don't have to be strong, i wasn't, and I'm way over it." She murmured, with a little smile that helped the feeling ease in my stomache. She's right, this is just temporarily, the feeling will go. Every girl has gone through this with Edward. Its hormones.
" I dont like him, i just got a wierd feeling in my gut when he looked at me today..." I un-hunched my bag, and spread my shoulders wide.
" I'm still the girl who can resist him without effort." I smiled victoriously, raising my chin up with a grin spread wide across my face, but inside my gut went wild.
Bree laughed along with me, but hers seemed more unsure than mine. I ignored the thought, and pushed her up to the large Starbucks that stood in front of us.
I sat down with my caramel brulee latte, sipping it slowly. I enjoyed the warmth, something that usually didnt exist in forks. In front of me, Bree looked like she was concentrating on something hard, so i nudged her and smiled and asked "Whats on your mind now?" She shook her head and began talking about the other shops she NEEDED to have a look in. I nodded along and moaned between each shop the whole time.
When we both finshed, we chucked our rubbish in the bin on the way out, looking around for the H&M shop. But as i looked around, i spotted Edward laughing, flicking his hair around as reached out his fist to hit someones much larger.
He looked care-free, like he did when we were just little kids. I blinked, and looked around to see Emmett and Jasper all laughing in a video came shop. A quick memory flashed through my head.
A vission of a la push beach flickered through my head. My dad sat there, finally with a smile on his face. I remember for months he moved around me like a corpse, but this day was different, he actually semmed happy. Mrs. and Mr cullen were sat there cudling with warm tea in thier hands. All their hair dancing in the wind.
It was a cold day, but warmest yet in forks. The sky was a dark blue with patched of sun passing through the clouds. I was running through the soft sand, picking up the many beautiful shells on my way.
I looked up and infront, noticing Edward watching me, he had a crooked grin that made me drop all my precious shells. I smiled back and dashed my way over with such speed that it knocked me over. We both fell to the floor laughing.
"Bella? Hello Bella, youve been stood their for atleast a minute, so can we get moving." I felt Brees warm palms surround my face, and her blurry voice chase away my memory. I shook my head twice before giving out a smile ot her.