Thanksgiving Part II

Claire's POV

I knew I shouldn't have come to this dinner; I really have to start hearing my gut from time to time… I'm not in the mood to be here, all I wanted was to tell my dad about dropping out of college cause it doesn't make any sense to me lately and I just don't belong … I used to feel that I did but not anymore…Maybe this compass can lead me to my real destiny, some place I belong! My dad keeps doing my head in about the carnies but all I can think now is I NEED THAT COMPASS... I take advantage of the fact that someone is knocking on the door to put in on my pocket… AHAHHHH I just hope he doesn't notice… who is knocking on the door anyway? Don't people know that it's Thanksgiving Day? Some people just…

"Sorry I'm late…" Great now I'm hearing things… I know this voice, but it can't be... I have to look I can't help it…IT'S HER… SHE IS REALLY HERE... what is she doing here?

It was not enough for her to leave me once … now she shows up again to leave me later? Maybe something is wrong… why am I feeling so happy and so angry at the same time? Why do I want to go there so much and hug her and never allow her to leave again… what am I suppose to do now? All I can do is stare… I can't really believe she is here…

She seems reluctant, like she wants to escape…but then our eyes lock and everything just makes sense again, all the feelings that I tried so hard to bury just came to the surface and I'm smiling… and she is smiling..And something tells me that everything is going to be just fine, that we are going to be fine…all of a sudden in a blink of an eye she is standing right in front of me and I want to kiss her.. I really want to kiss her…but I can't… she looks at me quizzically and seems to be thinking about something maybe she regrets coming here and wants to go... Next thing I know she is hugging me and I'm actually surprised... And I feel so warm inside. It felt like I lost all the weight I had on my shoulders, I don't move for seconds just enjoying the feeling when she pulls away kind of embarrassed "I'm so sor…" Oh shut up Gretchen just hug me again … I Need you close to me " I'm so sorry Claire I never meant to hurt you" I know you didn't, I'm so glad you are here " it's ok.. You are here now!" funny...Two words occur in my mind STRANGE ATTRACTORS Yeahp Definitely Gretchen, I think I know now what you meant!

I'm soooo Happy I never thought someone would made me feel this way, it's like everything is clear now I have more the friendly feeling for her and I must be zooming out cause she look at me in a funny way " I'm just going to go grab us something to eat, I'm sure you are starving right?" She looks so adorable right now ... Right I really have to catch my breath…

"So my dad called you?" makes me a little sad that my dad had to ask her, that she didn't come on her own… but hey it's not like I searched for her either, so I can't really blame her.

"Yeah... Well … he said you were feeling low and he knew I was feeling low so…!" You did exactly what I was needing… hum… is she visiting or she will come back? Maybe she already has a roommate a more normal and less dangerous one

"How is your new roommate?" sooo smooth Claire... ah ah nice one… she sure looks confused by the question…

"Fine… dull... Actually is awful, no one is trying to kill me for days now… and she is a slob" Amazing how she makes me laugh, I'm nervous… maybe there still a chance for her to stay here…

"You Know... The Other side of the room is still available…" my stomach is shacking; maybe I'm pushing her, why would she want to move in with me anyway…

"Sorry you were right; I don't know why you would ever want to move in with me again!" I'm a freak...And Dangerous and…

"Maybe because of all the people I met in college so far, you are the only one that made any sense to me."

I'm smiling i can't stop smiling... i look like i fool but i don't care... she always knows what to say to make me feel Loved...

Don't you dare to ever leave me again… I don't know if I would make it this time… because maybe I can't die, or get physically hurt but my heart beats at the same compass as yours does…and he already was pretty bruised and wounded but I'm willing to let you hold it in your hand cause I think you are the only the can save me from myself!