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That was odd. Remus reflected. What's up with Snape? He wondered. He remembered back to the old days. As he made his way back to his desk he was lost in memory of his years spent as a student; his loyal and understanding friends, the sympathetic headmaster, and most of all Severus. He compared Severus' old behavior to his most recent ones. He always was odd. Remus thought, and then second guessed it. He didn't like the way it sounded. Severus wasn't odd, he was…different. Different. Yes, he thought that suited Severus much better. He smiled a sad smile remembering the day he had confessed to James his true feelings.
It was the very beginning of their fifth year. I hadn't been able to sleep at all during the night. When the first rays of sunshine just barely dared to creep over the horizon I put sleeping aside and got up. I knew it was too early to go to breakfast and if I hung around in the dormitories too long then other boys would start to wake up. I got out of bed, quickly dressed, then crept down into the common room. My hand slipped on the dormitory door and it closed much louder than intended. I flushed with embarrassment and waited on the other side of the door for someone to groan loudly, or yell at the rude awakening. When no one did I continued and was soon sitting in my seat staring at the fire.
"Couldn't sleep?" asked a cool voice from behind me. I nearly jumped out of my skin. I turned to see Prongs standing just behind me. "Y-yeah. Sorry, I didn't mean to wake you," I apologized feeling guilty. He sat down in his usual chair facing me. "It's alright I wasn't really asleep anyways," he said. I was concerned for my friend. He usually spent all night pulling pranks, nicking things, or practicing Quidditch. On Saturdays like these he would normally sleep through lunch. "What's wrong?" I asked. He looked at me with an odd expression. "I would ask you the same question," he commented. "What do you mean? I'm perfectly alright. Nothing in the world is possibly bothering me." I said all too quickly. Prongs eye's shone as his lips twitched in a smirk. "What's their name?" he asked. I blinked confused. "What do you mean?" I asked looking at him curiously. "You can't fool me Moony," he said his smirk fully engulfing his face. "You like someone. Badly."
I couldn't believe it. How could he possibly know? "I never said I liked anyone." I commented quickly looking away. James' smirk grew. "It's a guy isn't it?" he asked. My head snapped up as I felt my face become fully scarlet. Again I had to ask myself, how could he possibly know? His eye's shone with amusement. "It's alright, Moony. I've known for awhile now," his voice was softer, sincere. He was speaking with acceptance. "Y-you don't care?" I asked almost afraid of his answer. He smiled a kind friendly smile. "We became Animagus' for you, do you think we care if you're homosexual?" he asked. I flushed a deeper shade, but was still worried. "You mean they know too?" I asked in dread, looking at the dormitory door. Prongs looked at me with amusement again. "Did you only hear every other word?" he asked. I was on the edge of my seat now. He sighed. "No, they don't know. But I'm telling you, people won't just stop liking you because you're different, especially not your friends," he said. I felt the warmth of our friendship in the cold early morning.
Then James' eyes shone with a devilish gleam. "You still haven't told me who you like yet," he commented. I felt my heart fill with dread again. There was no way he would approve. I pressed my lips together. "You'd hate me." I stated. He looked bewildered. "Did you not hear what I just said?" he asked. "I don't care who it is, it wont effect my opinion of you." I shook my head sadly. "I'm sorry," I commented "I can't help it!" I heard people starting to get up. James sighed again. "If you don't want to share, then I wont force you." He said. He clearly desperately wanted to know. I felt a pang of guilt. After all that and I wont tell him. The boy's dormitory door opened to reveal a tired looking Sirius. "Moony, Prongs, there you are!" he said through a yawn. "Hey Prongs up to a game of wizards chess before breakfast?" he asked starting down the stairs. James gave me one last puppy-dog look before standing. "You're on," he said not sounding enthusiastic at all. The guilt was back. I stood and as Sirius stumbled towards us, whispered in James' ear: "It's Snape."
AN: A little friendship bonding going on with Remus and James now. If you have any suggestion for what the next chapter should be like, or what should happen, Please P.M. me. And while you're at it, why not Review? I know you want to.