Characters belongs to Stephenie Meyer. This is just a fanmade story by me.
Thank you all for the great reviews so far!! And yeah.. so.. here's chappy 4! Enjoy!

Bella's POV

Company

Bright sunlight woke up me up that Monday. It was three days after Edward had decided that we should take a "time-out", and so I hadn't seen him since then. I hadn't seen anyone, except for Charlie, my dad, as I'd practically stayed in bed since our goodbye. His goodbye.

I was actually very surprised as I opened my eyes, because, sunlight in Forks? That wasn't two words you often found in the same sentence. My thoughts immediately wandered off to my... What should I call him now? Was he still my boyfriend? I didn't know so I didn't finish that thought. It hurt too much. I just knew for a fact that I wouldn't be seeing them today either, as they'd be keeping themselves inside because they'd have to avoid getting struck by the sun's gleaming rays. It didn't hurt them though, it just made them sparkle like diamonds, like beautiful diamonds.

I got out of bed, and froze instantaneously. I wasn't alone.

"Jasper?" I asked nervously as I stared at the still figure in my old rocking chair. His golden eyes were focused on me, but not in a scary way. He looked sad. Very sad.

"Hey, Bella." He said, looking down on the ground.

I cocked my head to the side a little. "What's wrong?"

"Me and Alice split up.." he started. My jaw dropped as he said that, knowing what had made them do that. "I'm so sorry, Jasper!" I cried, putting my hands in front of my mouth. "This is all my fault!" I gasped in horror.

He held up one of his hands in protest. "No, Bella," he said. "This isn't your fault. It's mine! If I hadn't kissed you back then none of this would've happened.." he shook his head fervently as if he was trying not to remember something.

"Something else happened?" This was getting to be too much for me. I was almost on the verge of an emotional breakdown.

"Alice went to Denali!" He exclaimed, burying his face in his hands, and my eyes widened out of shock. Alice had gone to Denali?! Alice had left?!

I slowly went over to him, cautiously putting my hand on his shoulder as to comfort him. "I'm so sorry, Jasper.." I murmured, looking down on my bedroom floor. What the hell had I done?! I had broken up, not only me and Edward, but Alice and Jasper, too! Although we were just on a "time-out", as he'd called it. I wondered how long this time-out would last. Would it ever end? My heart started beating irregularly as I considered the possibility of him and me never getting back together.

"What's the matter with your heart?" Jasper asked, now looking at me incredulously.

"It's nothing." I muttered. "It does that sometimes.." ..When I'm with Edward, or when I'm thinking about him.., I added in my mind.

I blushed slightly as I remembered that Jasper could hear everything, too, just like Edward. Of course he could hear my heart misbehaving now.

"Why are you embarrassed?" He raised one perfect, delicate eyebrow at me.

"Just my heart.. it's stupid.." I mumbled, smiling weakly at him.

"Don't be embarrassed. It's nothing to be embarrassed about!" He returned my smile.

His topaz eyes captivated me and I felt as if I could not look away, like they held me prisoner or something "Erm.." I said, my mind blank as I met his gaze. I blinked twice, trying to focus. "Why did you come here?"

"Do you want me to leave?"

"Oh," I muttered. "I didn't mean it like that! I was just wondering what made you come over here..? You never have before."

"I wanted to apologize." He said. Like it was obvious.

"For what?"

"For the kiss."

"Why?"

He raised both of his eyebrows now. "What do you mean why?"

"Why did you want to apologize for that?"

"You don't feel like that kiss was a mistake?"

I thought it over for a minute. "I.." I mumbled, biting my lip slightly. "I don't know.."I admitted sheepishly. He seemed to be speechless.

"Do you think it was a mistake then?" I asked quietly.

"No.." He admitted after a few minutes had passed.

I went back to sit down on my bed.

"What should we do now?" This was getting pretty unreal for me. Me and Jasper, hanging out? But what else could we do when our loved ones had rejected us?

He glanced at me for a second, and then away. "I don't know.." He told me. "Well, I'll have to stay here 'til the sun goes down, so I'm staying for now."

I smiled tentatively. He smiled back at me.

"So.." I said after a few moments of an uneasy silence. "How about a movie?"

- - -

We put on this movie called 'Shallow Hal', which was about a guy who fell in love with this huge woman, but as he'd been put under a spell he didn't see her like that. He saw her as skinny and beautiful when she was really huge and ugly; on the outside. He learned not to be so superficial as he fell in love with her inner beauty. It was a good movie.

"That was cute." I said as the credits started.

"Mmm.." he murmured quietly.

We were sitting next to each other on the love seat now. I turned to look at him as he had gotten awfully quiet. He looked torn somehow, like he was struggling with himself.

He carefully put his arm around my shoulder then, and I stiffened in response. "Jasper..?"

His eyes connected with mine again, and I couldn't look away. Just like before.

I knew where this was going before it actually did.

His cold, marble lips crushed against mine and I more or less succumbed. His touch, like Edward's, was like a drug to me. I instantly craved more, and so I knotted my hands in his blond hair, pulling his face closer to mine. He followed my example.

What the hell was I doing?! Hadn't I done enough damage already? What would Edward do if he found about this?

I pulled away first, resting my forehead against his, breathing heavily. "I'm sorry.." I said in between breaths. "But I can't do this.. Not now.."

"Edward?" He guessed.

"Yes." I bit my lip, again, as I thought about him. What had I done?!

"It's okay," Jasper said calmly. "I understand."

"I'm sorry, Jazz.."

He shook his head. "Don't worry about it.."

- - -

It wasn't out of love or lust that I kissed him again. This was a few hours later. It was only out of comfort that I did it. To somehow heal the wounds, that were threathening to tear us apart, to an extent. Just comfort.

It was as if we were desperate for reassurance or something. Like we craved to be validated after having taken powerful blows to our hearts; mine still beating, and his long gone.

I held his face in my hands while I kissed him. "Maybe we should stop.." I murmured against his lips as I took a breather. "Maybe.." he murmured back, his hands caressing my face, too. I stroked his cheek absent-mindedly, looking over his pale features. He was actually beautiful, I'd never realized that before. Not like Edward though, but he still was beautiful in my eyes. Just in a different way.

"What?" He asked as he noted the change in my emotions.

I blushed and he pulled slightly away from me again. "What?" he repeated.

"You're sort of beautiful, I never realized.." I blushed an even deeper red.

He was quiet then, and I wondered what he was thinking about.

"I think I should leave now.." He got up from the love seat, leaving me there. This was getting a bit déjà-vu-like for me; being left behind. What the hell was wrong with me?! Why did I keep making people leave me? Often I didn't really know what I did wrong either, which only made it worse.

"Can't you stay?" I asked hopelessly, glancing up at him. He looked back at me.

"I'll be back later tonight, okay?"

"Okay," I sighed in relief. I didn't like being alone and with him there, being so close to him without having to be with him himself as we were on that stupid "time-out", I was happier. "I'll have the window open for you later.."

Jasper nodded and then turned to leave. It was darker outside now. "See you, Jazz.." I called after him, but I did not recieve a reply. He was already gone.

I hope you liked that. And I hope it was a good enough cliffy! Hehe. Ish I evil? Perhaps. Hehe.
Anyways.. back to dedications! I think I'ma dedicate this chappy to Lisa & Becca, two of my friends from home, 'cause they're soo ahmazing, and I realize that I've barely dedicated them anything! GAH! So.. yeah.. this one's for you! Lil Lady loves you two a lot!
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