A/N: I apologize for the long wait. I've just been working really hard and taking care of Nero. That little by is a rebel.
Rin did not know how long she sat there staring into the bedroom door which now gaped open. She stood slowly the pain was evident in her steps. The bathroom was only a few short feet away but to her walking them felt like a mile. Every she took made it seem like the distance was farther. She raised her arms to forming bruises with another bought of tears falling from her eyes. 'I don't deserve him...now.' she thought sadly as she reached the bathroom. The door knob was cool against her fingers she thought as she opened the door.
Inside the excessively large bathroom was a bathtub, complete with jets. A toilet and two mirrors with two sinks beneath them. 'I need to leave.' she thought as she washed her face of all the makeup. Despite her now clean face she felt still covered up by filth. She washed herself some more, her arms and face again. Rin's hazel eyes stared into the mirror seeming as though she were staring into a black hole.
"Hey! I didn't know you were here Rin." Inuyasha greeted her taking his head phones out of his ears.
"I've been here for at least an hour. I was in Sesshoumaru's room." Rin said with a fake smile.
"Was Naraku being mean to you? You look as though you've been crying." he asked her.
"It's nothing at all really. I'm a girl, you know we are very emotional." She tried to joke as tears came to her eyes.
"Well, Sesshoumaru should be back soon." Inuyasha raised a brow suspiciously and walked towards the kitchen.
"I know." Rin whispered. 'I don't want him to see me this way.' Rin thought, but no sooner than that thought passed through her mind did he walk through the front door.
"Inuyasha, where's Rin?" she could hear his voice, her body tensed as she froze using the sink to hold herself up.
"I think she was in the bathroom." the younger brother answered. Rin sunk to her knees and looked up when she saw steps walk towards the bathroom. Then she saw him there in the door way with his glittering ruby eyes. Her demon.
"Hey Rin I just thought I should tell you, that you were good and thanks. It was priceless. I didn't think it would be so easy. I don't think that we could ever be a couple thanks. I'm sure Sesshoumaru will enjoy your moves." Naraku smirked as he spoke the words loud. Her eyes filled with tears. She heard a plastic bag drop to the floor. Rin's pupil dilated with pure desolation as more tears dripped over the edge of her rim. Naraku smiled at her and walked the hall way towards his room.
Sesshoumaru's steps were slow and with each one he was calculating trying to find a different meaning than what those words pointed to. 'One, my world is cracking slowly. Two, I'm falling deeper. Three, I cannot see. Four, If he hates me I have nothing at all. Five, I am nothing at all.' she thought with every step. Then he appeared looking like an angel in the door. The light pouring down on his silver hair. His eyes were wide with shock. It was the first time she'd ever seen such a face. The only words that came to her were incriminating.
"It's not what you think..." she began realizing what a horrible way to begin a sentence. To begin a sentence that was meant to defend you.
"Why are you crying?" Sesshoumaru knelt down to look at her, but she couldn't stand for him to see her face. She looked away flinched at his touch.
"I'm sorry." she sobbed forcing herself to look at him.
"For what? Is it true?" he urged her.
"I'm so sorry." she heaved standing up. He watched the faltering in her legs that told him all that he was looking for. The light limp the slow movement. The way she moved. It all spelled out what he thought when he had heard the words leave his brother's lips.
"I don't ever want to see you here again. Don't even talk to me." Sesshoumaru said coldly, with hard eyes.
"Inuyasha call Rin a taxi." he said turning on his heel. Rin grabbed the soft material of his shirt with desperation. He pulled his arm away roughly looking back for a moment into her misery racked eyes and then he was gone. Inuyasha looked at Rin who was now sobbing in heap on his bathroom floor, the sounds disturbed him. He wanted to help her but he couldn't and he knew it. It was too late. 'So cold...I never knew he could be so cruel.' Rin thought as she felt someone shake her arm. She turned fast hoping it was Sesshoumaru. Instead the amber eyes of Inuyasha looked back into hers.
"What happened?" Inuyasha asked with wide eyes.
"I don't want to talk about it." Rin whispered pulling herself up. The sound of a car horn blaring brought Inuyasha back to attention.
"Give him a few days to cool off." Inuyasha said handing her the jacket she'd worn there. She wrapped it around herself and held onto it tightly. 'He hates me now...' Rin thought as she walked out of the house and towards the taxi. Inside sat a woman with short red hair. Rin got in the car. Her entire outward appearance reflected her inner feelings. Destroyed. She was beginning to form a bruise on her eye and lip. The cab driver kept looking in the mirror with this look of pity that made her uncomfortable. It was making her think about what just occurred and she couldn't stop herself from beginning to sob again.
"Are you doing okay?" the cab driver pulled over for a moment. Rin looked up with annoyed eyes.
"I'm fine. Just keep driving." she snapped, the woman just smiled at her kindly. Rin was shocked at how hostile her voice sounded when she had spoken the words.
"Listen, I'm not trying to get in your business, but you look like you could use someone to talk to." the read headed woman said.
"I have friends to talk to." Rin mumbled.
"How many will be able to relate to you?" she said.
"I don't know what you're talking about." Rin lied her voice shaking. The woman began driving towards Rin's house again. 'She can't possibly know.' she thought.
"It's obvious to someone like me." the woman said.
"You don't know anything!" Rin shouted.
"My name is Leah. Take my card if it ever gets to be too much to keep to your self." she handed her the taxi card that had her number written on the back in blue pen.
"I won't need it. Nothing's wrong." Rin said taking the card anyway.
"In case you do. Goodbye." Leah said driving off without asking for the fare. Rin knew that Kagome would be sleeping when she got home. Rin closed her eyes as she walked up the stairs to her bedroom. The walls were a sky blue with white trim. There were many pictures of her smiling with her friends. A whole collage dedicated to her and Sesshoumaru. Her breath caught in her throat at the thought of him, of his face. His cold words repeating in her head.
Rin tore off her clothes and walked to the bathroom. Now unclothed she could see the bruises on her pale skin, the remnants of blood on her inner thighs. She stared into her hazel eyes trying to pretend nothing was wrong but she felt as if something was crawling over all of her could feel the urge to scrub take over her. She looked at her reflection one more time and allowed a breath to escape her as she forced a smie.
"You are fine." she told herself as she turned on the shower. She held that smile until she was in the shower. She could see her reflection in a small mirror. It was then she felt how truly broken she was. She sobbed violently. She pulled the shower turning the water to the highest heat she could handle as she scrubbed herself leaving light scratche on her skin. She was frantic with her scrubbing. 'I still feel him...' she thought as she stood up from the floor.
"Is it always going to feel ths way?" she asked her reflection. Rin shook her head and pulled on a pair of sweat pants and a tank top with a large cardigan. Rin threw herself in her bed. The warm covers and smooth sheets never felt so comfortable and terrifying. Just seeing a bed made her thinking of what had happened to her. But wrapping herself in her own bed made her feel like she was wrapped in a protective shell. 'I am my own mistake.' she thought. Sleep came rather quickly as she laid in the darkness of her room.
Rin opened her eyes and felt like a brandnew person. Her hair was shining at her smile was bright. She went about her morning routine. A breath ran through her with a small smile. Rin dressed in her uniform and looked in the mirror. In her reflection the room was completely dark. Her face was not as she felt. She lifted a hand to her face and touched it feeling fine, but tears poure down the face of her reflection. Her skin was not wet as she touched it. She could feel something behind her, she stared into the mirror and saw Naraku. He was sitting on the edge of her bed. A smirk was painted on his face as he watched her every movement.
"Why are you in my room!" she yelled turning around to see no one there. She turned back to the mirror and he was getting off of the bed and walking towards her. She could feel her heart pounding inside her chest. The way her breath caught in her throat. She was breathing fast as his fingers laced around her arms.
"Get off of me" she said but found she could not look away fro the mirror. She could not escape as his hand roamed underneath her shirt. She could not move away, or push him, her body was frozen. She screamed and yelled loudly but felt as if no sound left her.
Rin woke up with a cold feeling all over her body. The sweat covered her and her skin was warm to the touch. She could hear herself heaving. Her mouth was dry. She coud still feel him on top of her. Her eyes opened slowly just to assure herself that it was just a dream. That all of it was just a nightmare. She stood and turned on her light, only to wake to the bruises that looked much worse now that they had time to marinate.