I know it has been awhile since my last upate and I apologize for any inconviences. However I am back for now and I honestly owe to the most amazing women I knew. They helped me when I didn't have the motivation or the confidence to continue with my stories. It is that sole reason alone you should be grateful for them and show them some love. If is wasn't for them this chapter along with those that follow wouldn't be possible. So Rent A Wolf, Leave the Pieces, Make Up Your Mind & Unforgettable. Read them and review!!

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There is a graphic lemon in this chapter!! If you don't like them don't read it!! You have been warned.

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Chapter 9

Regret

We walked away hand in hand down the beach. I stole a few glances at him without his knowledge. If you cut through all the bull shit and get right to the point you would realize he is truly beautiful.

His black silky hair tied back in a pony tail allowed perfect access to his facial features. His full kissable lips, high cheek bones and his beautiful soft russet skin. I loved how his eyelashes brush against his cheeks and how his smile seems to light up the darkness.

Could it be that he has this sort of effect on my? Could it be possible that I was falling for the one person I despised more than anything?

There was something about him. Something about his voice, the way he held me while we danced the feel of his breath against my skin as he whispered in my ear. Oh yeah. This was bad.

As we walked closer to the shore I waited for him to pull his hand out of mine. However that didn't happen. What did happen I had never expected and was completely mind blowing.

He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and pulled me in closer to him. As he rested his cheek on the top of my head I sighed and fell into him. The closeness of his body was something I so desperately seeking.

Everything about this was wrong and yet it felt so right. My mind was screaming, begging me to stop but my body had other intentions.

The way his skin felt against mine was euphoric. His hands trailed down my sides until they reached around and grabbed my back side, pulling me in closer to his body.

I could feel his prominent erection between his legs as it poked through the material of his shorts. My hands went to his neck, untying the rubber band to reveal a black silk curtain.

His eyes met mine and for the first time I saw him. Not Jacob the detective, or Jake the annoying house guest, but his true self.

In that very instant I knew what I feared was true. The only difference was I wasn't falling for him, I already had. I was in love with Jacob Black. There was no way out of it.

As I realized I was about to have him, all of him, a mischievous smile crept across my face. His eyebrows rose instantly, he obviously caught the smile and probably curious as to what went through my mind at that very moment.

He looked so damn sexy when he did that and it lit the fire that was burning deep down inside me. The burn became too much to bare as I stood on my tip toes and captured his lips with my own. My hands fisted in his hair, pulling his face in closer to me. I tongue traced his lips and was soon dancing with his as he ran his hand up my shirt and unclasped my bra.

I pulled away quickly to remove my shirt, taking the bra with it. Jake's eyes suddenly widen as I tossed the discarded material. His hands were quickly at work as he grasped both of my breasts. I moaned as I rubbed his hardness with my hand.

"Bella." His breath was raspy as he bucked his hips into my hand.

"Jake." I reach for his shirt "Please, Jake I need to feel your skin against mine." I whispered against his lips.

Quicker than I thought imaginable his shirt was off and lying amongst the pile of unwanted clothing. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me in closer as we began to kiss again. My nipples hard against his tight, muscular chest. His hands slightly caressed my body sending shocks of pure pleasure throughout my body.

His lips found my neck and he began to kiss and lick the sensitive skin, I could feel the wetness pooling between my legs and I knew that I needed him now.

"Jake, please." I moaned as I threw my head back in pleasure.

"Please what baby?" he whispered back as he licked my ear lobe. My hands tightened on his shoulders and his took my left nipple in his mouth and suck before gently biting down.

"Ughh..." I moaned as I felt myself get wetter. I quickly began to unbutton my pants as I felt his hands around my wrists. This was it, the part where he played the responsible one and put a stop to this nonsense. Maybe he changed his mind and didn't want me in this way.

Much to my surprise, he placed my hands at my sides and swiftly unzipped my pants. He pulled them down halfway and then kneeled down in front of me. He kissed the top of my thigh before running his tongue up the inside and went to the next one.

He inhaled deeply as his nose brushed the outside of my underwear. Almost as if he could sense my arousal, he growled as he inhaled it again.

"Bella." he groaned as he finished removing my pants... Here I was topless and in nothing but my white lacey thong on a public beach and it didn't faze me on bit. Jake's presence filled my mind and overtook every nerve in my body.

I knelt down in front of him and began to unbutton his shorts, I really hoped that none of the guys would come looking for us. My heart raced with excitement. I was more aroused then I ever had been before, even when I was with Edward.

I moved in closer to kiss him on the lips as I used my hands to push away his shorts. I gently placed my hands on his chest and pushed. He granted my wish as e lied down on his back removing the clothing.

I felt my eyes widen at sight of his throbbing member. I was seriously growing concern for my well being and was pretty sure it wouldn't fit inside of me. He chuckled at my expression.

"Don't worry I promise to be gentle." his voice was placed with arousal and much huskier then before. I bit my lip and smiled. I don't know what it was about him. I felt so safe and secure that I knew nothing would ever harm me as long as he was around. If he promised he wouldn't hurt me I knew he wouldn't.

I crawled in between his legs. I looked at his hardness and smiled once more before my tongue began to lick the top of his shaft. He moaned and I continued as I wrapped my lips around and began to take him further in my mouth. I moved up and down in a sturdy rhythm the best I could.

The sounds that were slipping from his lips were surely encouraging to say the least.

"Bella…..uh…shit...oh so good…" his hand fisted in my hair but just remained still, just holding on.

I knew I didn't want him to cum this way, not that I would love to taste him because I would. I just didn't know how much time we had together before we were found. I was being greedy; I had to feel him inside me.

With a final swipe of my tongue I removed him from my mouth. I placed a gentle kiss at the tip on his member before resuming position on top of him. I straddled his body and leaned in to kiss him on the lips.

"Ready?" I mumbled as I gently bit down on his lower lip.

"More then you know."

I thought of the ways to go about it. How to make adjusting to his size easier. Ahe must have known what I was thinking because he whispered "Just go slow."

I aligned my opening to is center and could feel the wetness drip onto his penis.

"Holy fuck!" He moaned. I began to press down and could feel the head of him stretching me as he entered my body. My arousal was now streaming down him and he was well aware of it.

"Oh shit…so wet…..so...so…so tight." He moaned a little louder as he closed his eyes and threw his head back into the sand. There was a burning sensation that started to spread so I figured this would be like ripping off a band aid``. If I were to hurry up and get it over with the better it would be and I could start to enjoy the feeling.

Silently I counted to three and plunged myself down so that he was fully inside me.

"Fuck!!" He screamed as his eyes flew open. I slammed mine shut trying to hide the tears that were forming.

I began to rock back and forth slowly. Finally I opened my eyes to see Jacob staring at me. His before dark eyes burned into mine and I continued to rock back and forth. Our moans began to fill the air and it no longer mattered if anyone heard us. The feeling of him inside me was so much better than anything I could have imagined.

I rode him faster as I felt the tightening in my lower stomach. It felt so incredible that I never wanted to stop. For the first time in my life I felt whole... I felt as if I finally found were I was supposed to be and that was right here with Jake.

As I felt myself coming closer to an end I rocked faster and faster and came down harder on him.

"Ohh….yeah…Jake… hmmm." He could sense my impending climax and began caressing my breast.

"Cum for me Bella." He rubbed his thumb against my nipples. I am not sure whether it was the sound of his voice or all the sensations at once, but at that very second I felt the dam break.

As I reached my climax I yelled out his name over and over again. I was completely lost in the pleasure of the moment. I heard him groan and the next thing I knew I was underneath him.

He was hovering above me gently thrusting himself in me. After a few moments I began to regain my composure and was being sucked into that downward spiral again. He was amazingly beautiful and sweet. He was moving slowly and I could tell he was afraid to hurt me.

"Uh…Jake…" I rested my hand against his cheek. As he leaned into it a few pieces of his hair fell from his back and around his shoulder. I swear he was the sexiest man I had ever seen.

"Faster Jake." I wanted him to let go and enjoy himself. Even during a moment like this he was too refined, protective. I wanted him to lose himself and to let go in me the way I had done with him. He began to speed up but he was still being careful. A little too careful for me.

"Mmhhmm..Harder baby…harder."

"I don't want to hurt you." He grunted as he continued to thrust.

"You won't." I kissed him on the lips then began to make my way to his neck. I kissed the corner of his mouth and down his jaw until I reached the spot by his ear. I kissed, nibbled and licked before I whispered "Fuck me hard Jake, please baby fuck me harder."

In those few words he found the escape he needed and he begun to thrust harder and faster. Our moans were melting together as we held onto each other with all we had. Somewhere between the kisses and moans our sweat covered bodies climaxed together.

We were both in a peaceful solitude not wanting to move in fear of ruining it. Jake was the first to move. He kissed my forehead and pulled himself off of my body. As he stood he reached out and helped me up.

"We should go for a swim to umm... Freshen up a bit before returning." He spoke as he nodded to the ocean. He refused to meet my stare. Here I was naked and expose, full of his sperm and he refused to look at me. I felt disgusted not only at the situation but with myself. How could something so beautiful turn into something like this?

After watching him in the water for a few minutes I joined him. He was careful not to get too close but still close enough to have an effect on me. We walked back to the beach in silence. Everyone had already left and the fire was out. Both our fathers seemed to be in bed. How long were we down there?

The car ride home was even more painful than the walk on the beach. Not only was Jake not speaking my body was screaming at me. My muscles were sore and all I wanted to do was sleep. This day certainly took an unexpected turn.

Once the car stopped I didn't wait for him to open my door. I grabbed the handle and flung the door open much to my surprise Jacob was already standing there and held out a hand for me to take. I was reluctant at first but took it none the less. Any comfort I could receive from the touch of his skin I would be grateful for. Even if I was left questioning the reasoning of it all later.

Jake opened the door first and we walked inside. As soon as he flicked the light switch I noticed something strange. There were rose petals on the floor leading to the stairs. I let go of Jake's hand and walked toward them. Silently I followed the trail of the beautiful petals. Once I reached the top of the stairs I could see into both my bedroom and the bathroom. Both of the doors were wide opened and I saw the intimate surprise that lay inside

If Jake was with me then who could have done this? As realization struck me I let out a piercing scream. Jake was at my side instantly. He wrapped his arms around me as he took in the scene and tried to comfort me from crying.

This was never going to end. Would there ever come a day I could live and be happy, not having to worry about Edward being around the other corner. Just waiting to attack. The tears streamed down my face and I refused to let Jake go. He pulled out his cell phone and someone instantly picked up.

"I need back up, he is here." His voice was deep and sexy still during all this chaos. Then it hit me. He said he is here. Is not was. If that meant Edward was still here what did he want now? Would he ever leave without the one thing he seems to want most? The one thing that is putting everyone else at risk. The one thing being me.

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