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AN:Hey everyone! I am so sorry it is taking me so long to update my stories and my blog/forums. Things have been crazy in my personal life and have gotten in the way of my writing. Just so you understand I will tell you a bit about what's been going on....On Jan 1, 2010 my husband lost his job and we lost our house. We have been dealing with a deranged ex landlord/boss that has gone out of his way to make our life hell. Our phones have been altered and threats have been made. Dealing with that on a daily basis kinda zaps all my creative energy. On top of all that my kids dog died and my daughter has been moved back into Kindergarten. May not seem like a big deal to you but to a 3 and 6 year old it's the end of the world. Good news is that I have some great material to work with now!! If you know anything about me then you know I write my emotions and often about true experiences. Therefore, almost everyone in my life has somehow been wrote about in one of my posted stories or one I have hidden in a notebook here at home. So it is safe to say that if you are reading something and you think it sounds alot like you...it very well may be. Now with that said i am no longer working with any Betas so forgive me if there are a few errors. This story will be ending soon!! The ending depends on you! So please check out the new poll on my profile!!

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~*~*Stay*~*~

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"Come on baby, let me in and show me what this really is….Cause something must have made you say that. What did I do to make you say …that to me? Something must have made you so mad. What can I do to make you say…come back to me?" Safetysuit

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So many things raced through my mind as we drove at lightening speed. The car was unusually silent for Seth and I. Over the time we have grown rather close and always seemed to have something to say to one another. A drive that was actually 45 minutes took Seth less then 20 to complete.

Seth took my hand and we raced into the ER entrance together. I followed his lead as he pulled me toward the front desk.

"Our parents were brought in…Sue Clearwater, Charlie Swann, and Billy Black…..there was an accident of some sort." Seth's voice was rushed but firm. The nurse at the desk told us to have a seat in the waiting room and the doctor would be out to speak to us as soon as possible.

My gaze swiveled over the entire waiting room, looking for a place for Seth and I to sit, as well as an all to familiar face. A TV played quietly in one corner, a distraction in hopes to obviously keep everyone's mind off of the real reason they were there. What ever that reason would be…whether you are ill or a loved one is. It is usually never goof.

In the far side of the room sat a young man with a bloody towel wrapped around his arm. It was apparent he would need stitches. There were multiple people coughing and sneezing as they huddled in there seats. The seats closest to them stood empty, sandwiched between two sweating and shivering men. As one leaned forward and filled the space with harsh, hacking coughs, I understood why no one else had jumped at the prime location.

Seth steered me to the other side of the room, the bland walls and table full of torn magazines suddenly much more appealing. Then that is when I noticed them….then I saw him. Right next to the men I remembered being introduced to as Sam and Quil sat none other then Jacob Black. I couldn't help but notice the beautiful native girl sitting to his right side.

Apparently Seth noticed what I was starring at because he leaned down and whispered Leah in my ear. I only hoped that no one else noticed my interest other then Seth.

He opted to sit at the far end of the group, entirely away form Jacob. I sat in silence as Seth spoke softy to the gentlemen sitting next to him. I couldn't help but notice the advertisement posters on the walls. The irony of the situation was that the poster promoting ascendance and birth control were right next to the toy corner full of blocks and coloring books and other various toys for children.

My hands were clamped around the chair grips squeezing tighter and letting go as I continued to cross and uncross my legs. Low whispers, coughing, and throat clearing filled the room. I noticed Quil staring at me from his seat across the room and the fact that Jake was talking to him as if he didn't even notice.

"Don't worry about it." a soft female voice whispered from my side. I turned and noticed a stunningly, beautiful woman. I haven't seen either one of them in a long time but the eyes gave her away. I knew that she was in fact one of Jakes sister. Which one, I still wasn't sure.

I wasn't entirely sure of what it was that she was talking about. She could have been meaning the situation with Jake or simple the fact that she felt our fathers and Sue would be ok.

She reached out and took my hand and squeezed it tightly offering a sad smile and nod of understanding. She felt almost the same way I did now. Right now all I wanted was to be hugged, held to have physical contact with another human being. I needed to feel like I was still alive.

Being right here in the same proximity of him I realize how broke I truly am. The lyrics to the song on the radio on the way here echoed in my mind over and over again.

Thinking of a way to say I'm sorry for something I'm not sure I do…..not sure I do…..

The song fit my situation perfectly it seemed and it helped to listen to it. The strong smell burnt my nose. Lemon cleaner and bleach so evident you could tell the area had just been cleaned. I tried to focus primarily on the smell and not at the man that tore my heart into a million little pieces. With Seth on one side and Jake's sister on the other, still clutching my hand I closed my eyes and rested my head on Seth's shoulder.

Before I had drifted asleep I heard what sounded like a low growling noise and then a loud crash. The crash caused me to jumped and I was wide awake instantly. I couldn't help but notice that Jake, along with the two men that were sitting next to him were missing.

"Miss Swann…I am Dr. DuFresno, I am treating your father as well as Ms. Clearwater and Mr. Black." Seth and Rachel were alert instantly.

"How are they?'

"It was thought to be a random accident. Mr. Black lost control of his wheelchair while drifting down a steep hill…" the man next to Rachel snorted and whispered 'lost control my ass', receiving a hard smack from Rachel and a raised eyebrow from the doctor…"Chief Swann came to his aide and was able to get him out of the way before he got hit by the oncoming car….However Ms. Clearwater then got out of her vehicle to help assess the situation, from what we can tell she couldn't see the incident so she was unaware of fatalities if any, as she was approaching the men she was in fact struck by a pickup truck." He looked down at his notes as if to create a dramatic pause of silence.

I couldn't help but wonder….were they ok? He went through this long drug out story about what happened and not whether or not they were ok. Granted we would need to know what happened but what we need more then anything was to know if they were ok. I am not sure whether it was lack of sleep or the pregnancy hormones or maybe it was pure fear of the unknown possibilities of their conditions. What ever it was, I know it was in fact my voice everyone heard next.

"Okay..well how the hell are they? You have told us what happened, now tell us how they are." I spoke a little too loudly and with a little to much nerve but I didn't care at this point. Leave it to Jake to then decide to return, his group of goonies right next to him.

"Well now she fits in perfectly doesn't she." Rachel smirked and leaned back into the cocky mans arms.

I couldn't bring myself to turn around and look at Jake. I knew he was there, I could feel him but I wasn't strong enough to face him.

"I want to see my father." I sighed and let out a deep breath that I seemed to be holding ever since he walked back into the hospital.

"Of course right this way." The doctor cleared his throat and turned to lead the way. I tried to ignore the constant need to turn around and face Jake. I had to talk to him, to look into his eyes and demand an answer. To know why I meant so little to him that he could walk away that easily.

Seth was at my side the entire time. He never faltered. Once we reached the hallway there were three separate doors. The doctor directed us to each room,. Charlie and Sue's were right next to each other and Billy's was across the hall.

"Are you ok? " Seth looked down at me. "I can go in with you if you want." He offered as we both took in the sight of Jake comforting a crying Leah. I couldn't help but feel sick at the sight of his arms wrapped around her.

"No, no….I am ok. Go see your mom. I will see you in a bit." I forced a smile and realized that Jake's eyes were on me or for that brief moment anyway. And for an even briefer moment it looked as if he were jealous. I couldn't read the emotion that lay there afterward but no sooner I realized it he turned his attention else where. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Seth shooting him a death glare and shaking his head before he turned and walked into the room.

Charlie and Billy were in relatively good moods. Both suffered a few minor scraps and bruises and were being kept for observation only through the night. Sue on the other hand suffered the most, her right leg was broken in 3 different places as well as her left wrist that impacted the fall and to top it all off she had a minor concussion. The doctor was confident that after a few days she would be able to be released from the hospital. All three insisted on sharing a room instead of having separate. It was a long drug out struggle in order to get the hospital personal to permit such a thing but after all of us refused to leave the hospital until it was approved they gave in.

Do to my frequent urge to urinate every 5 minutes I told Seth that I would meet him downstairs at the lobby. Now here I was alone staring at my reflection in the mirror. I couldn't help but wonder how I ended up here.

As I stared in the mirror at the various shapes and contours I couldn't find familiarity in any of them. Who was I now? Surely not the same girl I was a few months ago. Now in a few more short months I would be someone's mother. While I was nervous and worried that I wouldn't be able to fill the status that entailed, I couldn't help but smile. Part of the life growing inside of me was Jake's. This baby was something the both of us made together and while he may not feel the same any more didn't mean I had to stop feeling what I felt.

It is funn were life takes us. We may not feel a certain situation will turn out right or that it is best for us. However it always works out right. Life goes on and you survive things you never dreamt possible, only to come out stronger in the end. Every ounce of my being believes that is true about this situation. At first I never thought I would be able to handle an unexpected pregnancy let alone one in which I am alone in.

After I splashed cold water on m face and fixed a few stray pieces of hair I walked out of the bathroom and toward the rest area. As I turned the corner to the last row of chairs I ran right into what felt like a brick wall.

'I'm so sorry, I wasn't paying attention. I…" I looked up and had the breath knocked out of me. The figure I ran into….the hand that was now on my arm steadying me….was in fact Jake.

"It's fine." He quickly removed his hand His voice was stern, showing no emotion at all. The place on my arm where is hand had once been remained warm and tingled slightly.

His eyes bore into mine and I wanted to run away and hide. Here he was, the source of all my hurt and grief and I was frozen.

"You better get going, you don't want to keep your man waiting." he snorted as he turned away from me. My man? What the hell was he talking about? He couldn't possibly think that Seth and I were together could he?

"What are you talking about? My man?" I sneered as I suddenly felt braver taking a step closer to him. He just watched, he didn't turn away. "You couldn't have seriously thought that Seth and I were together ….or did you?" I asked incredulously. How could he think such a thing when I felt the way I did for him and him alone?

"How could I not? He disappeared on us guys, turns out he was with you the whole time." He spit. His eyes were full of emotion, the same eyes from the beach that night we made love. His face however was distorted in pain.

He leaned in slightly and our lips were almost touching. I could feel his warm breath across my lips, smell his calming scent. I placed my hand on the back of his neck and he braced the side of my face with his. It felt amazing to feel the warmth of his touch again. Right at this moment I knew nothing that wasn't Jake. He was everywhere, attacking all of my senses and I didn't want it to ever end.

However, much like good things do, it ended before it really began. Jake rested his forehead against mine and let out a long sigh.

"Jake…please." My voice was barely above a whisper.

"Bella, listen to me." his voice was laced with love yet full of remorse. "I'm no good for you Bella. You need to move on and let go of me." He closed his eyes as he spoke.

As the words he was saying finally sank in tears ran down my face uncontrollably. It didn't matter that we were in a public place. Right now all that mattered was that we both were here and he was talking to me.

"Please don't say that. You are good for me. It would be good for us." There I went again speaking in plural terms regardloing myself and the bab, a bab he knew no thing about.

I refused to tell him. I wouldn't use m child as a tactic to get him to come back to me. I wasn't that tpe of person.

"Bella…you are not good for me…..I have thought about this a lot and made my decision." This time his voice was barely above a whisper.

"What about me? What about what I want?" I was getting hysterical and was beginning to get sick at my stomach but I pushed on. He pulled his face back and dropped his hand. I recoiled my arm suddenly missing the heat from his body. "Did you ever feel anything for me at all?"

His eyes darkened and he nodded a heavy nod. "I didn't say I never did…"

"But you don't feel that way now?" I whispered as I slowly felt part of my heart break away.

"You need to let me go Bella. We would never work, we are too different." he offered but it didn't help make me feel better.

I could feel myself losing control. Tears were streaming down my face as I closed my eyes not wanting to look at his face again. Slowly I began to shake my head and covered my mouth with my hand not able to speak. My hands began to tremor.

"Bella…" Jake tried to make a last minute effort in attempts to somehow get me to think it wouldn't work and was for the best that we weren't together. However I wasn't having it.

"Leave…." I barked. "If you don't want me, if I'm not good enough for you…leave." A few painstakingly filled seconds passed by and then he finally turned his back and left.

I watched him walk out the sliding glass hospital doors and out of my life for what seemed like for good.

JPOV

As soon as I got the call I knew two things. One, I was seriously going to have a talk to my dad about his cruising as he calls it. And two, I knew she would be there. Her…..my Bella. Only she wasn't that, not exactly anyway.

Part of me was relieved and part was scared as hell. Sure I patrolled around her house everyday. I knew she was safe on most days and I pretended that the tears she cried weren't for me. Lately she hasn't been there though. She is also spending a lot of time with Seth and I do mean a lot. Not that I am not glad he is there for her, I just don't like the idea of him and his body touching hers. She even smells differently now.

The sweet strawberry scent is still there but it is laced with something different, something woodsy and you can tell she spends most her time with a wolf even if she doesn't know it. That was the biggest reason I couldn't be with her. Her life was already in danger thanks to a filthy leech. I wouldn't do the same and put her life in harms way. I cared too much about her to keep her around for my own selfish reasons.

I watched her the entire time we were in the hospital. I watched until I almost lost control when she came in hand in hand with Seth and then started to fall asleep on his shoulder. I watched as she stood up for everyone and told the annoying doctor off. I watched as she gave our fathers a hug and kiss on the cheek and instantly longed for her touch. She still walked the same although now her head was almost always directed to the floor. My heart ached with longing for her and even more for the very reason I was the cause of her distress.

Each time our eyes met it was like a jolt of electricity straight to my heart. I remember when I started the job I thought she was the most annoying thing. Sure she was beautiful but she was a stuck up snob and I promised myself that nothing would get in the way of me doing my job. Was I ever wrong.

Now I find myself in such a predicament I don't know how to claw myself out. I almost lost my self control and swept her into my arms in the hospital. Almost but didn't. Instead I left her with tears running down her face standing alone in the middle of the hospital waiting area.

My heart was breaking and I couldn't help but phase. I needed a way to release all this damn pain that was building inside my chest. Even after phasing to m wolf form I stayed close to the hospital. Just close enough to not be seen but to also make sure that she was ok and Seth would find her soon enough.

However what happened I never expected. It was Quil not Seth that came to Bella's aide. Not only was he talking to her he asked her if she would like to get something to eat with him and she actually agreed .

All my heartache and actions seem pointless at this particular time. Here I was trying to spare Bella the heartache and confusion of having werewolves and vampires in her life and she was going out to dinner with one.

I longed to have her in my harms to kiss her lips again and bury my face in the crook of her neck. Now I was beginning to truly understand why Sam was against me fighting the imprint. Not only was it painful it was getting to be downright unbearable as I stood here in the forest line and watched as my imprint ate dinner with my friend and fellow brother.

For anyone who can guess who it is that says this in the next chapter will earn a sneak peak at the coming chapters of Bodyguard!! It isn't narrowed to just Bella or Jake! it can be anyone of the characters in the story....so happy guessing!!

Coming Up: Chapter 14 - Not Ready to Make Nice

"Still I find it downright amazing how one simple little change in fate can rearrange everything you know. Everyone has their own belief to why things happen or even how including myself. However what I am referring to now is how the slightest change can change ones destiny forever. The only thing I could ask myself now was that if you could in fact choose your outcome which road would you take? Would it be the one that is full of heartache and pain with the possibility of a happy ending or would it be the rainbows and butterfly one? The one that starts off easy with no guarantee to happiness in the end. If it were you which would you choose?"