I don't own anything, you know that whole deal. Sarah and Raid are mine. I'm giving this warning now there is cutting in this chapter, you'll get to that line, "I can't let you in unless you have the password." thank God, he does not know it. And if you don't want to read about her doing that skip the next little paragraph, then you can start reading again at this line "Rain, what are you doing?" he started to walk up to me. He put his hand out like anyone would if trying to talk to suicide jumper down.

Just thought I would let you all know. A little heads up at the bottom.

"Four weeks into the year and you have had detention from Snape every night." Sarah was pissed at me because I have either detention or quidditch. I didn't have much time I do other things like work on band music.

"Sarah, I can't help it, I love picking on the grease ball. Besides we have a big game Saturday, Gryffindor vs. Slytherin." I'm the only one Harry is pushing. No one was use to seeing me with green eyes and almost the same build as Harry, in a way I'm a female Harry. I tried my best to keep Draco from knowing but it was hard because we had a lot of classes together.

"Rain, here comes Draco." Sarah said, pointing behind me.

"No, Sarah! My eyes are not silver they're green. He can't see me like this." I started to panic. I couldn't hide anywhere.

"Hey Rain, what's wrong? You look kinda sick." I had my head down. I was feeling sick, but I couldn't look up at him.

"I'm fine Draco." I was lying to him again. I had to tell him lies so he wouldn't find anything out until I was ready for him to know.

"Well okay, do you want to walk to class or are you skipping?"

"Yeah, let's go." I started to walk off knowing I left him behind confused. He quickly caught up with me.

"Are you sure that you don't need to see the nurse, Rain?" He was worried. He touched my arm, I kept walking. I stopped not that far ahead; I had to know if it would cause a problem.

"You don't care what I look like, do you?" that was one way to find out if he cared.

"Why? Yeah!" 'Oh no, I'm in trouble.'

"You do? Well, I'm going to go." I started to walk away again, but he grabbed my arm.

"Why? Rain, if you need to hear that I don't care, then I don't. You look great anyway." He put his hand on my face, trying to get me to look at him but I turned away from his hand.

"Cause." I looked at him.

He smiled, "There is nothing wrong with you. Are you trying too hide your eyes from me?"

"Yeah, Draco, trust me, I can explain why I look this way." My heart started to race, I just didn't know how to do it.

"What way? You just did a spell to make your eyes green." He did not see the big picture, it didn't matter right now.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~DADA~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Welcome back class. I will be dividing you up into pairs, and then you can work on the spell." I zoned out till my name was called. My eyes darted over to Draco to watch his reaction.

"Malfoy and Potter." Professor Page said. Draco's eyes shot to Harry, "Sorry, two Potters in here, Rain Potter, Mr. Malfoy." Well things were spilled. My life was over, and Draco looked very confused. 'Well I guess I would have to explain everything now.'

"Professor, Rain's last name is Twilight." Draco stated moving next to me. I bit my lip knowing that I couldn't explain everything yet, I didn't know how to. I needed time to think and I didn't have it.

"No, Mr. Malfoy, she is a Potter. I got a note saying that she is Mr. Potter's twin sister." My life is definite over. Draco looked at me then Harry then the professor and back to me, with his mouth open, trying to find words.

"Professor, may I speak to Rain alone?" I closed my eyes tightly, hoping that the professor would say no.

"Yes, Mr. Malfoy, but make it quick." Draco took my hand and dragged me out of the class room.

"Don't yell at me. I did nothing wrong." I wiggled out of Draco's grip.

"You didn't tell me that you're a Potter. I would count that as doing something wrong."

"I think we should talk about this later. For now we need to be in class." I walked back into the room. 'How could this be happening to me?' My mind was racing with thoughts that Draco and I were breaking up.

The class was the same other than it wasn't Draco and I, but it was Harry and Draco, me and Ron. Well it still worked out for the best, Ron was probably just as confused as Harry, but I had a feeling that if Draco and I worked together it would be a disaster.

"Rain is everything okay?" Ron asked me as I sat down next to him. I closed my eyes to get the bad thoughts out of my head, it wasn't working. 'Maybe just one time wouldn't hurt and you know how to cover it up with out anyone finding out about it?'

"Fine, just fine." I had to lie. I never liked getting attention from people. I go to class, do the work, go to practice, play the game, eat and sleep. Attention was never added to my list. I don't know why I'm in a band if I don't like attention, maybe it's because it's a better release for me then other things, which is why I needed to stop thinking about those things.

"Okay, it's just you and Malfoy always work together. Now you two aren't." Ron was starting to act like a brother to me always worried about me or taking care of me.

"Twilight, what the hell? Whose last name is that's?"One of the Slytherin girls said.

"Mine, so?" I said, stepping up. I wasn't going to let some bitch trash talk my name.

"That is a strange last name. No one will be friends with you!" one of the other girls said.

"Back off, she is my friend!" Ron walked up to my side. I had to be thankful for Ron but he didn't have to do that for me.

"Weasley! How did we know you would befriends someone like her." the ringleader finally stepped up, Pansy. I hadn't been here long and I already wanted to up her head through a wall.

"How would you like it if I fucked up your face more?" My fists were ready, and I really wanted a fight. She was just begging for me to punch her out.

"Rain, she'll get her friends on you. You and I, both, know that you'll get you ass kicked." I had to hand it to him, he cares. He was right I couldn't take them all, but I would sure try too.

"Fine, I'll get you later." I walked off with Ron beside me. I couldn't care if she thought it was an empty threat but I didn't make empty threats, as soon as she gave me a great reason I fight her I would.

"Lunch!" Ron yelled as he ran out of the class room. I stayed back so I can talk to Draco. 'I hope he would listen to me.'

"Tell me that you're not mad at me. Draco, I was going to tell you, just..." he put his hand up to cut me off.

"Just not at the moment. Rain you can't keep things like that from me!" I cast down my eyes to the floor, "I'm not mad at you, it's just that it's a shock to me. I'm a Malfoy and my father has laid down some hard rules."

"That does not matter, Malfoy or not. Draco, I can get past things easily." I put my arms around his neck. His eyes went from a soft grey to the cold as stone. I knew that wasn't a good thing, I was in trouble.

"We need to get to lunch." He pulled my arms from around his neck and started to walk off. I looked down at me shoes, knowing that he made up his mind and I wasn't going to be able to fix it.

"I'm not hungry, go, I'll be fine. I'm just got to get some things for the next class." I stated as he stopped to walk with me. He nodded his head and walked to lunch. I closed my eyes and sighed, knowing that music wasn't going to fix this problem.

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"How stupid can you be? Come on Rain, he doesn't like you. He just likes what you look like." I yelled in the empty common room. I reached for the dagger on the mantel; it's as light as a feather, 'Thank God.' It was just sharpened so that was good.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Draco's POV~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Sarah! Rain is back in your common room." I said out of breath. I followed Rain to her common room; I wanted to be sure that she was going to be okay.

"So? Draco, she'll be fine. She always is, so don't worry." Sarah was okay with that. I didn't have a good feeling; I heard her yelling at herself. I knew she was wrong about what she was saying, I felt like yelling at myself about what I did to her.

"Fine, what if she is going to something?" Sarah rolled her eyes, now I know why Rain some times hates it when she does that.

"Draco, Rain is okay. She is not crazy, I would know." Sarah turned back to her meal. I had to stop Rain, whatever she is going to do. I skipped lunch and ran back to Gryffindor's Common Room.

'Please be okay, please oh please. Why did I have to fight with her?' I finally got back.

"Password. You're not a Gryffindor. GO! No other house is allowed in the other's common room." the Fat Lady said taking one look at me. I didn't need to put up with this right now.

"I know! One of the students is in there and she could be in trouble!" I shouted at the painting. I would do anything to get in there, even fight with a damn painting.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Rain's POV~~~~~~~~~

"Draco?!" he knows, he would have too. 'Please don't let him in.' Him and the Fat Lady were yelling at each other.

"Rain, don't do anything stupid. Please let me in." Draco yelled into the room.

"I can't let you in unless you have the password." thank God, he does not know it.

"Peace in the school." 'Damn it, he must have heard me. That means he followed me back here, but why?' I moved the dagger to my arm just below the elbow and slid it to make an X on my arm I gasped from the pain, I had forgotten how badly it hurt, and I close my eyes just letting the pain run through my body. I heard Draco enter the room I really didn't care; I open my eyes to look at his pale face.

"Rain, what are you doing?" he started to walk up to me. He put his hand out like anyone would if trying to talk to suicide jumper down.

"Draco, don't you dare come any closer." my voice was harsh as the howling wind outside, the dagger at my side.

"Just drop the dagger. Rain, please you don't want to do this." I knew he was right but he caused me so much pain in Defense Against the Dark Arts. He kept walking towards me; slowly he put one foot down.

"Draco please, don't, please. I didn't want you to see me like this." He was only inches away. I didn't move to his and my surprise, I wanted to move but my body wouldn't listen.

"Rain, give me the dagger," he reached out and took it from me because I could only stare at him and my arm with dragger felt like it weighted a ton, "Come here, baby, why would you even want to do this?" He whispered in my hair, he held me tightly in his arms, crying hard on his shoulder.

"I wanted to forget what happened today. Us fighting and all, this helps a lot some times." I sobbed as he pulled back to look at me. His hands were on my shoulders, he was rubbing his thumbs on my arms in a soothing jester.

"This never helps, baby, if you need help talk to me or Sarah," My eyes were locked with his, "Let's get that healed." he mumbled a simple spell and it just a scar.

"Now, we have 5 minutes before classes let out. What do you want to do?" he placed his hand on my face; I closed my eyes again to his touch.

"Just sit with you," he led me over to the love seat, "Are we over?" I whispered as he pulled me down on his lap with my head resting on his shoulder.

"What? No, I'm just going to get use to the fact that you're a Potter." he kissed the top of my head. Sarah, Harry, Ron and Hermione ran into the common room. I didn't jump up like I probably should have. I didn't care what they could be thinking, Draco on the other hand moved, much to my displeasure.

"Rain, why weren't you in class? The teacher was thinking something 'cause Draco wasn't in his class either." Sarah was the calmest so she spoke. Draco stood up after I did, I was perfectly happy sitting on his lap with his arm around me and we would have stayed that way if my brother and them didn't come in.

"We weren't skipping on purpose. I was upset and well, falling back into old habits, so Draco was stopping me." Harry, Ron and Hermione were really confused. Sarah and I would have to explain what I was talking about later. I looked at Draco out of the corner of my eye, I couldn't tell if he was uncomfortable or not.

"Well, I'm gonna go. I'll talk to you at dinner." Draco kissed me cheek and then peacefully walked out the common room. I sank back down on the love seat with my hands clasped together.

"What the bloody hell just happened?" Ron said looking at the dagger on the floor. It still had a bit of blood on it. We didn't clean that off; I didn't care right now about cleaning it off either.

"Nothing Ron, why?" Hermione finally spoke.

"It's just that, there is blood on the dagger and on Rain's sleeve." he was right my dark blood was on my shirt.

"I cut myself." Sarah knew what I meant by that. Harry sat down next to me, looking at my arm.

"Rain don't slip back into old habits. You know what happened last time." Sarah warned me as she picked up the dagger. She cleaned the blood off of it and placed it back on the mantel.

"Yeah yeah, I almost died. Sarah I will not do anything stupid. I do have a knight in black robes." I smirked. Draco was my hero; he saved me from falling over the edge just in time too, who knows, what I would have done if he didn't follow me here.

"What? How could Malfoy be you knight? And how can you take almost dying lightly?" Harry started to freak.

"Calm down Harry. When I was younger I use to cut with knives. Well when I started the band, I stopped because I put all the pain I was going through in songs. Well, what happened is I felt pain I had never felt before, well I have just not this way." I paused so they could catch up. I nodded for Sarah to continue.

"She felt heard break. As she said she has felt it before just not this way. Most of her ex-boyfriends are her close friends. Well, as she also said songs helped. Don't get stressed, I don't want to be the one who has to explain it to your family." Sarah warned me. I cracked my back as I started to yawn.

"I'm going to bed. Sarah can you tell Draco I went to bed?" I said starting to walk up to the girl's room.

"Aren't you hungry?"Harry called.

"Nope!" I yelled.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Sarah's POV

I looked at Harry; he had a lot to learn about his sister. I wasn't going to spill everything about her; she has to do it in her own time. I don't even know everything about her; I only know what has happened after we became friends. This is, I think, the first time she has fallen this fast for anyone, but then again she hasn't said anything about being in love in Draco, so maybe she didn't fall that hard yet.

"So Sarah, what do you think is going on with those two?" Hermione asked pull her potions book out before we could walk down to dinner. I wasn't that hungry but Rain asked me to tell Draco why she wasn't there.

"I don't know Hermione, as soon as Rain is ready for us to know everything, she will spill it all." Or she would spill it all to me and beg me not to tell anyone, but then I would tell her that everyone is going to find out one way or another.

"Sarah, do you think she would keep anything from us?" Harry asked. If I told them the truth then they wouldn't trust her, she did keep things to herself but only if it would hurt someone else, unless it came to a friend getting cheated on or whatever.

"Harry, she tells people what they need to know. Other then that she doesn't and its really not that big of a deal, that's how she has been since I have known her and even the guys says she was like that before I was there. Rain is well Rain, as she told me many times, stop trying to understand me and then you will understand me." She was right, as soon as I stopped trying to get her, I got her. We got down to the entry hall to enter the great hall, when my arm was grabbed, which made me yelp.

"God, Sarah, I'm sorry." Draco let go of my arm. "So where is Rain?" He quickly looked around as he said that.

"She is back at the common room, she wanted to get some sleep, but knowing her, she is playing her guitar." I don't know if he would be happy with that or not. He just nodded before entering the hall. I would take some food up to Rain, she shouldn't skip meals like she did but no one ever stopped her.

"It's odd to see Draco acting the way he is. I mean it's a nice change but still it's weird. Maybe it's not a bad thing that Rain is dating him." Ron said as I sat down at the table. I shot him a look, as I started to put some potatoes on my plate.

"You know if their relationship doesn't work that he will go back to the way he was and Rain will be one of the biggest bitchs you have ever met." I said as I picked up my goblet to take a sip of the pumpkin juice. He didn't say anything after that; I guess he knew I was right. I glanced back at Draco; he was just sitting there playing with his food, while Pansy tried to make moves on him. I went back to eating the meal like nothing happened, smiling to myself; I knew that it was going to happen this year. 'I told you so Rain; you would fall in love this year.' I thought as the conversation changed from quidditch to homework to music. To bad Rain wasn't here, she would love to talk about music, as long as she was feeling better it was all good in my books.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Rain's POV

I felt bad about not going to dinner because Draco wanted to talk to me, but I wasn't in the mood to try to tell everyone that nothing happened while classes were still going on. I lay on my bed looking at the canopy above me, thinking. 'What if Draco hadn't come, would I have gone as far as really hurting myself or worse? I don't know if I could have done that to my family and friend or even Draco. I think Sarah might be right about one thing, I think I was starting to fall in love, not that I would show it any time soon.' I growled slightly, I didn't need anyone laughing at me because I fell hard for a guy. I mean really no one has ever said that someone like me couldn't fall in love and stay the same. Not go for any of the mushy crap that every girl dreams of, "prince charming riding in on his white horse to whisk her away" that's the kind of stuff that made a girl like me gag. I want it to be something quite, like love forming over time or something like that, the day I turn into one of those other girls is the day that Ozzy dies.

"You know better then to think about that! You can't act one way the rest of your life." Great, I'm talking to myself. I ran my finger tip along the scars that married my skin; I can't forget why each and every one of them was there, no matter how hard I tried too. I figured I would make good at what I told Sarah about going to sleep, I needed it after all this.

End of the chapter. Hope you all liked, sorry if you didn't like the whole cutting thing. Quick little note, once I start working I don't know how long it will take to update, and its going to be longer once summer hits because I'll be working like 60 hours a week and I only have one or two days off a week, so that will be the only time I'll really be able to work on it.

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