All Sophie wanted to do was tell her that she felt the same and that she wasn't the only one, she wanted to grab Sian's face and kiss her right there and then. "I'm sorry Sian, I can't do that" Sophie said pushing Sian's hands away and turning away also shedding tears.
Sian didn't say anything she just wiped away her tears and sniffed and turned away to leave.
"Sian, please don't go not like this" Sophie cried turning to face the blonde. "I don't wanna lose my best friend"
"Soph you know I'd never leave you not really." Sian told her
"Are you sure about that, because if you did... Sian you are my bestest friend ever in the whole world and I love you, I don't know what I'd do without you" Sophie couldn't believe what she just said and then it hit her maybe she did love her best friend. What was not to love?
"What?" Sian said taking a step forward. "You love me?"
Sophie looked down not wanting to answer the question "You know what I mean Sian"
"No I'm not really sure I do Sophie why don't you explain it to me" Sian said as she stepped closer to the brunette.
Sophie sat down on a chair in the kitchen and Sian sat in the opposite chair. "You're the only true friend I've ever really had and I love you as a friend, Sian" Sophie said feeling guilty seeing the hurt in Sian's eyes.
"And is that it, just as a friend?" Sian asked wanting the whole truth.
"I don't know" Sophie said truthfully.
"But do you feel something?" Sian tried again.
"Sian you know I do". Sophie admitted. There was a moment of awkward silence.
Sian was happy inside knowing that Sophie felt the same.
"But nothing can happen" Sophie told Sian.
"Why not Sophie?" Sian asked confused.
"Just because ok" Sophie saw Sian looking at her weirdly. "If you haven't noticed you are a girl Sian" Sophie snapped
Sian got up from her seat heading towards the door on the verge of tears, Sophie followed her to the living room and grabbed her arm and turned her around "Sian, I didn't mean it like that" Sophie said looking at Sian. "You are the most beautiful, caring, honest, adorable person I know and I think I do love you but we can never be together ok, I'm sorry"
Sian was now crying properly "Please don't cry Sian" Sophie said pulling the blonde in for a hug.
Sian smelled her and whispered in her ear "I love you too"
Sophie pulled out of the hug "Why'd you have to say it back Sian" Sophie said giving Sian a kiss on the lips. Sophie and Sian were both feeling the love and connection between them at this very moment.
They broke apart and looked at each other then closed the gap again. Sophie then moved her face away and looked away. "I think you should go" Sophie was feeling like such a bitch but she had to do it.
Sian sniffed and then went for the door and shut it behind her. When Sophie heard the bang from the door she burst out into tears.
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The next day was school and Sophie and Sian had most lessons together. First lesson was English they would normally be talking and getting into trouble but they just sat next to each other in silence.
They also had third lesson together; P.E. They usually get changed next to each other but that just seemed weird. During the lesson they had to get into their partners. Sophie and Sian were obviously partners. There first exercise was to throw a ball back and forth without dropping it. Sophie through it first and the ball kept going for about five minutes when Sian throw it a little harder, which then made Sophie throw the ball twice as hard. This carried on and on until Sophie threw one so hard that it went straight to Sian's face. Sian fell on the floor, as soon as Sophie saw this she instantly ran towards Sian asking if she was ok.
"Sian I'm so sorry are you okay?" Sophie asked stroking Sian's cheek to wear the ball hit and showed a red mark.
Sian got up and replied "I'm fine"
"Listen Sian I'm really sorry" Sophie apologised
"Will you just get lost Sophie?" Sian shouted
"See this is exactly what I knew was gonna happen" Sophie whispered then running out of the hall.
Sian signed and ran after her. "Sophie" Sian called out. Sian's first guess was the toilets so she knocked on the door
"Who is it?" Sophie asked
"It's me" Sian replied. Sophie got up and unlocked the door. Sian entered the toilet and sat down next to Sophie.
"I knew it was gonna be like this, I told you I would lose my best friend" Sophie said
"I'm sorry I've been ignoring you." Sian apologised.
"Well I'm sorry I hit you with a ball" Sophie apologised smiling at Sian. "Does it hurt?" Sophie asked.
"Yep,who knew you were strong" Sian joked.
"Now were even" Sophie said smiling
"What are you talking about?" Sian asked curious
"For pushing me of the sofa and making my back hurt." Sophie explained before laughing.
Sian joined in "ouch" Sian whined as her face softened. She put her hand on her face were Sophie hit the ball.
Sophie sat up on her knee's moving Sian's hand away. "Let me see" Sophie stroked her hand on the red bits and looked as Sian was looking in her eyes.
Both Sophie and Sian moved in and kissed again. "I can't help it Sian" Sophie muttered between kisses.