Ordinary People

by lovepass77

This is the story of Sam and Sarah, Dean and Lisa with their brand new families and friends trying to cope with their new lives as ordinary people after living such an extraordinary one they all soon find out even regular people have lots of drama

3. Chapter 3

Chapter 3: Family Portrait.

Scene: Sean's bedroom in California

Sasha comes into his room wearing pajamas and holding a supernatural book and a big blanket her mom made for her.

Sasha gently taps on her brother's hand.

Sasha: "Sean. Sean."

Sean groans rolls over and pulls his hand away from her.

Sean: "I'm sleeping go away!"

Sasha pouts.

Sasha: "I'm scared Sean."

Sean groans then rolls back over again to look at her with sleep in his eyes.

Sean: "What? Why are you scared?"

Sasha: "Mommy and daddy won't stop fighting."

Sean sits up in bed he stretches a bit then yawns.

Sasha stares at him still very worried.

Sean: "Alright get in."

Sean moves over and allows room for Sasha to crawl into bed with him.

Sasha: "Why are they always so sad and yelling at each other?

Sean is old enough to know the truth though he doesn't understand all the details he knows this is serious; he's mature for his age and very protective of his little sister so he doesn't want to burden her with the truth.

Sean: "Mom and Dad are just old that's how old people are sometimes it's not a big deal, just go back to sleep Sasha it'll be better tomorrow."

Sasha: "I can't. I had another nightmare."

Sean frowns

Sean: "Another one?"

Sean: "Was it about the angel Castiel again?"

Sasha nods.

Sean: "You know maybe we should tell dad about this he knows all about having visions and nightmares."

Sasha shakes her head.

She is also mature for her age and doesn't want to burden her parents with the news that she has visions knowing they will worry about her too much. She is afraid they will prevent her from going to school if she tells them this because it's a sign of something supernatural and evil which is not suppose to exist in this ordinary world. Sasha loves her school and her friends there she doesn't want to have to move or leave.

Sasha: "No, you promised. You can't tell them."

Sean sighs and pulls Sasha in closer reaching around her and taken the book from her hand.

Sean: "Simon Said? You want me to read this one too you again, but we've read it like 50 times already."

Sasha smiles

Sasha: "I know, but I like Simon."

Sean shakes his head.

Sean: "There is no Simon, Sasha I told you before his name is Andy."

Sasha: "No there's a Simon you just don't see him, but I do."

Sean doesn't believe her, he assumes she must be talking about some imaginary friend like most little girls have at her age, but he tries to patronize his little sisters weird ideas anyway.

Sean: "So what does this Simon say?"

Sasha: "He says lots of stuff. He says dad's powers are not all gone they're just dormant now. He says Uncle Dean is not doing well and neither is Aunty Lisa. He says Castiel the angel is alive, but hurting, he wants me to go find him go help him. But, mostly Simon says that cousin Mary is the key."

Sean: "The key? The key to what?"

Sasha shrugs

Sasha: "I don't know that's why I need you to keep reading it every time I read one of Uncle Chuckey's books I see more of the vision, more of Simon and things become clearer. I have to find out what door the key will open, and how to use the key to open it.

Sean: "Why?"

Sasha: "To save our family of course."

Sean: "Dad is right you are getting way too caught up in these books Sasha! The supernatural world is gone and it's not coming back. God came and took all the angels away well he made some of them human, but he took away all the evil creatures, they don't exist anymore so there are no more monsters under our beds or in the closets that is over you know that dad's told us this like a thousand times..

Sasha frowns and begins to tease him a bit in her weird little sisterly way..

Sasha: "Over Rover no it's never over now move over Rover!"

Sean scoots over to give Sasha more room in his bed to spread out as she takes the book from him again and spreads it out in front of them.

Sasha: "Now read please start from the second chapter then end at the first."

Sean rolls his eyes then crawls onto his stomach takes the book and begins to read out loud to his little sister.

Sasha sits back against his pillows and listens to him taking it all in as she waits for the next clue to be revealed to her.

Scene: Mary and Johnny's bedroom in Texas

Mary is still awake as she sits by herself in the corner and though she doesn't speak to anyone and hasn't since she was born now at five years old she sits in the corner rocking as the words from the story Simon's Said spill out of her mouth the very words Sean is reading to his sister back in California.

Mary has never read any of the books, she can't read so she has no idea what she is saying, but the words continue to flow from her mouth anyway uncontrollably.

Johnny her older brother who is eight years old wakes up at the sound of her words and gets up to check on her.

Johnny: "Mary?"

Mary doesn't respond to his movement or to his voice instead she just keeps reciting the words from the book without stopping.

Johnny knows this isn't the first time sharing a room with his little sister he knows this happens every time his parents have a fight and it worries him a lot.

Johnny thinks to himself: Man our lives suck here, dad is always yelling at Ben and at mom. The sound of all that yelling makes me want to cry, but I can't. I never could I don't know why, but I wish I could it hurts inside just the same so it sucks I can't cry about it. I know it must heart my baby sister too that's why she doesn't talk. She can talk she's talking now, but she doesn't talk to us. I wish she would But, what's the point no one listens all they do is yell and curse at each other. I love my family, I want everyone to be happy, but no matter what I do no matter what I say it never stops, the yelling, the fighting sometimes I want to just run away and never come back here. I just want to take Mary and run, we can go live in the country on a farm maybe. I love animals. I understand them, they never hurt me they never yell the way people do, and they are my friends. I wish I were an animal too maybe a dog or a cat. Then I'd run away from here for good.

Johnny goes and grabs his blanket and places it over his sister in the corner he knows she'll be there talking to herself for a long while so he at least wants her to be warm.

Johnny then goes over to his hamster cage and pets his hamster Bobby then he feeds some fish to his turtle Misha. Finally, he checks on his pet snake Meg.

Meg the snake speaks to him in a slithery snake voice.

Meg: "Is you're ssssister alright Johnny? Sssshe sssseems ssssoo sssssad."

Johnny doesn't know why he's able to talk to animals he learned he could about six months ago and he has yet to tell anyone, except Mary who doesn't talk to anyone so he know she want tell on him.

Misha the turtle talks very slow because well he's a turtle.

Misha: "Johnny!"

Misha pauses to breathe slowly

Misha: "You're sister."

Johnny comes closer to Misha's aquarium to hear his words.

Misha slowly breathes again.

Misha: "She is."

Johnny: "She is what?"

Misha stops talking and turns to look at Johnny moving slower than a snail would.

Bobby the hamster speaks up quickly irritated that it takes the turtle forever to say one damn sentence.

Bobby: "Oh for crying out loud, she's the key ya idjiot!"

Misha frowns with his turtle lips.

Misha: "I was getting to that."

Misha pauses to breathe.

Misha: "Part!"

Bobby rolls his hamster eyes.

Johnny stares at them confused

Johnny: "Mary's the key? The key to what?"

Meg: "Sssssshe is the key to the Ssssssssupernatural."

Johnny: "The Supernatural, but that is all over with there are no more supernatural creatures anymore not on this planet anyway."

Bobby shakes his hamster head.

Bobby: "And what do you think we are? Figments of your imagination? Boy if we are that means you're crazy!"

Johnny looks over at his little sister again who is still reciting words to herself from the book..

Johnny: "She's only speaks from those books she must know something about the supernatural she just can't tell us. I am not crazy. I well I don't know what I am."

Bobby: "You're a Winchester that's what."

Meg sticks out her snake tongue

Meg: "Yessss you are which meansss you have a destiny to fulfill."

Johnny: "A destiny? What is my destiny?"

Misha: "It is coming."

Misha pauses

Johnny: "What's coming?"

Misha breathes out

Misha: "The answers they are."

Misha stops and moves closer slowly

Misha: "They are coming you must"

Misha pauses again.

Johnny gets closer to his cage listening carefully to the turtle.

Misha: "Stop it!"

Johnny's eyes widen.

Meg: "Sssstoop it! You are sssscarying the boy."

Johnny stands up.

Johnny: "I'm not scared! I'm a Winchester!"

Bobby starts running in his hamster wheel.

Bobby: "Then you better get scared cause I've never met a Winchester that wasn't scared of something."

Johnny frowns.

Johnny: "Is the supernatural really coming back? Can it come back?"

Bobby: "Yes, but forces are set up to stop it. This new world of yours is meant to be better without it. Do you think it's a better world Johnny?"

Johnny: "No, I think this world sucks."

Bobby: "Then you better find a way to protect your sister and get some supernatural help before it's too late."

Johnny: "Should I tell dad maybe he can help he use to do this for a living before I was born. He knows all about the supernatural."

Bobby: "I know that boy I taught him most of it. Now I can teach you too."

Meg: "If you do thissss you will probably be tortured, broken you could even be killed Johnny once you bring the supernatural back into this world you can't go back you won't be able to control it."

Johnny thinks about it for a moment, he's spent his whole life living in a supernatural-free world, he's seen what its done to his dad, to his family, he doesn't like the sound of torture and death, but this ordinary world lately seems so unappealing to him and he can't help, but be curious.

Johnny: "I don't want to die, but I really don't want to live in a world where I can't even cry. I've always wanted to see a real vampire, to meet a real ghost. So yeah okay I'll do it."

Misha: "Good boy!"

Scene: Ben's bedroom down the hall from Mary and Johnny's room.

Ben Braeden is on the phone chatting with his best friend and fellow band-mate Chris Ackles.

Ben: "Dude, you are so lucky your parents don't hassle you all the time."

Chris: "Yeah what cause my dad's in jail and my mom's too drunk all the time to care what I do."

Ben: "Well my mom is screwing around on my dad, and my dad is drunk a lot of the time too so I know how ya feel."

Chris: "I thought he was going to AA now?"

Ben twirls one of his drum sticks in his hand as he often does when he's nervous or upset about something.

Ben: "Well he's still going I guess not that it helps him much he use to be a real cool guy. I practically worshipped him till I found out the jerk cheated on my mom."

Chris: "Dude, that sucks! Well screw them man parents are a total drag when we move to California they won't be able to control us or tell us what to do and when we get are own record deal and make the big time, they'll wish they showed us some damn respect."

Ben: "I know right. Only thing is what about Charlotte?"

Chris sighs

Chris: "Yeah, what about her?"

Ben: "I mean I finally got her to agree to go out with me. If we start dating, I don't know what will happen man."

Chris rolls his eyes.

Chris: "Ben, you've been crushing on this girl since what like fifth grade its time to move on. Dude, they're plenty of hot ass chicks in Cali you don't need to be tied down to some girl here in Dallas."

Ben sighs

Ben thinks to himself, I don't want to let the guys down. I know we all agreed to move to California after graduation come hell or high water we even got tattoos of a band emblem so we're a band for life now. Oh Dean would throw such a hissy fit if he knew I got one he's such a pain now, I don't know why I ever thought he was cool and that he would understand me. But, Charlotte she understands she loves my music and we've known each other practically my whole life. I'll never forget when I rescued her from the monster that was trying to make us eat our mom's brains out. She was so pretty, prettiest girl I've ever seen still is. I'm so glad she moved here too. I remember Dean came to rescue us back when he was a bad ass hunter, back when I wanted him to be my father. Now I wish he just go ahead divorce my mom and pay her some good alimony.

Chris: "Are you going to ask her to prom?"

Ben: "Yeah thinking about it depends on how our first date goes."

Chris: "Think she'll let you hit that?"

Ben: "Hey, don't talk about Charlotte like that man come on."

Chris: "Sorry, jeez you're really carrying a torch for this girl aren't ya?"

Ben: "Oh well you wouldn't understand this, but we understand each other and I can talk to her about stuff I can't talk to with anyone else.

Chris: "Hey what happened to bros before hoes dude?"

Ben: "She's not a hoe!"

Chris: "It's just an expression, man when did you suddenly get all sensitive?"

Ben: "I don't know, sorry I'm just tired I guess. Hey look I'll catch up with you on the bus tomorrow alright; I'm going hit the sack."

Chris: "Yeah, sure just don't forget to bring my mega-chip the one I let you borrow last week, we got rehearsals during gym class so don't be late again off chatting with your girlfriend."

Ben sighs

Ben: "Alright, okay I'll bring it and dude she's not my girlfriend."

Chris: "But, you so want her to be don't ya?"

Ben doesn't respond he knows Chris will only tell the other guys and they all just make even more fun of him about this. Chris takes Ben's unresponsiveness as sign that he's knows I'm right and just doesn't want to say it, so Chris laughs.

Chris: "That's what I thought, okay talk to later lover boy?"

Ben: "Yeah, later Chris."

Chris hangs up

Ben immediately checks to see if he's got a text message from Charlotte, but none so far which disappoints him.

Ben finds it difficult not thinking about Charlotte, she's so beautiful with long blonde hair and big doe eyes. Ben shared his first kiss ever with her back in seventh grade when they both escaped detention together and hide out in the cafeteria stock room.

Ben lies back on his bed picturing her he presses the pillow to his face and imagines her lips there instead.

Ben knows she just moved to Dallas and he's one of the few people she knows here. He's hoping to rekindle what they had back then or at least what he wanted them to have before Dean showed up again. At the time Ben was thrilled Dean came back to be with his mom. He explained to both of them what had happened with the apocalypse and how all the supernatural evil in the world left after they finally defeated the devil and were re-resurrected by angels.

Ben thinks to himself, I wouldn't have believed it if it weren't for our own encounter with a supernatural monster. Sure my mom and I both tried to, but we could never really forget it or Dean. I actually thought about growing up to be a hunter myself I so wanted to be just like Dean. How stupid was that? He may have saved our planet, but he destroyed my family. My real father never speaks to me anymore after Dean punched him once. Okay my dad was out of line he hit me, but still Dean has no right to be all self righteous when he's so totally messed up he can't tell which way is up anymore.

Ben removes the pillow from his face and sits up in bed.

Ben hates thinking about the turmoil in his family, but lately it was hard to ignore. He feels even sadder that he's lost some respect for his mother too after learning of her own torrid affair by reading her voicemail messages from some dude name Paulo.

Paulo must be an evil bigger jackass than Dean is who would sleep with a married woman what a douche bag on top of which my little brother and sister have no idea what the hell is going on. Well my sister probably never will since she's Autistic and though it's weird sometimes I envy her. She never has to worry about anything except I don't know learning how to eventually tie her own shoelaces. Her mind is one big blank.

Mom coddles her all the time and even I can't help, but sometimes wish it was just mom and I alone like before. Sure it wasn't always easy back then, we didn't have much money, but at least we were happy we were a family. I do love my little brother and sister I do its just they are so much closer in age and Johnny seems to understand Mary in a way I can't. I mean the girl doesn't even speak to anyone but him and they seem to share their own little world together I have no idea what those two do whispering alone at night when they think no one else can hear them.

It's sort of freaky how the only time I've ever even heard my little sister speak is at night with Johnny I can't hear what they are saying though and if I try and peep in there to find out she immediately stops and he pretends he's asleep. I know those two bugs are up to something, but hey I guess I'll never be part of their little club since I'm technically not a real Winchester well hell I'm glad I'm not. The only Winchesters that even give a damn about me anymore is my Uncle Sam and my cousin Sean.

Sean totally worships me kind of like I use to worship Dean, he so wants to be in my band when he gets older. He's a cute kid and pretty funny too, but I don't think he'll ever have much in common with my friends. He's just too young besides Uncle Sam will never let Sean-John get out of going to college he's got them in those fancy prep schools and already Sean's a straight A student. Hell, I'm barely passing English and I speak the damn language. Only class I can even stand is music and gym class because we always skip gym to go practice our music.

Mr. Harper is cool he lets us used his old barn for rehearsals just as long as we slip him the notes from Miss Applebee our history teacher, dude's crushing on her something fierce. Can't say I blame she is the finest teacher at Woodrow High, though its weird he won't just cross the street and go talk to her himself, he's too shy I guess.

I can't wait till we hit Houston next month for our new gig. Barry told us they'll be scouts on the look out so that should be cool. If we're really going to make a go of this we need to at least get some talent scouts to see how talented we really are before we move out to California. I know my parents think I won't do go. They think I've applied to universities here, but I didn't. I used the money for new cymbals for my drum set. It'll be worth it one day they'll see.

Ben checks his phone again to see if he got a text message still nothing, so he checks for his saved pictures and finds one of his favorites he took of Charlotte on the first day of the school year.

Ben smiles as he looks at her smiling back at him.

Ben can't help wanting to be with Charlotte he again pictures her kissing him. Ben takes off his jeans and pulls out his dick. He begins rubbing it as he thinks of her. Ben pictures her touching him there and imagines her hands as his while he slowly strokes himself.

Lisa knocks on Ben's door.

Ben stops touching himself groans and quickly hides his legs and his erection under the covers on his bed with his comforter and sheets.

Ben: "Yeah what the hell is it?"

Lisa: "Ben, can I'm come in?"

Ben sighs

Ben: "It's a free country I guess."

Lisa comes into Ben's room and tries to smile knowing that after what happened downstairs it will be hard to smooth things over, but she feels she must at least try.

Lisa: "Ben, so how's school going?"

Ben: "Same old same old"

Lisa: "I wanted to let you know Charlotte called."

Ben sits up in bed feeling confused

Ben: "What? When?"

Lisa: "Earlier today, she just called to ask me about my gym she's thinking of joining."

Ben: "Why didn't you tell me this mom?"

Lisa: "I was planning to tell you when I got home, but well I came home to see you and your father at each other's throats again really this behavior needs to stop Ben."

Ben sighs and lays back and folds his arms irritated with her.

Ben: "Tell Dean, he's the one that threatened me first. The dude's a total Looney bin"

Lisa: "Hey don't talk about your father like that alright he's had a tough life."

Ben scoffs

Ben: "Yeah, and so have we ever since you married him."

Lisa frowns

Lisa: "You know that's not true things were wonderful in the beginning they were and you two use to be so close."

Ben doesn't respond he just sits there frowning pretending that's not true.

Lisa: "I remember you two were always do things together and going places, ya'll went fishing, camping, he took you too Disneyland remember that? You said it was the best week of your life, he was so happy to be there with you to give you that."

Ben still doesn't respond though he does remember he's still angry.

Lisa: "You're father and I are just going through a hard time right now and we'll going to have to see someone about it."

Ben looks at her very concerned now.

Ben: "What a lawyer? I hope so.

Lisa pauses hearing him say that sends a stinging pain through her and she immediately feels even sadder.

Lisa: "I didn't mean."

Lisa pauses to breathe trying to fight back tears.

Lisa: "I meant a marriage counselor someone who can't help us get back on track. Your Aunt Sarah recommended her she's supposed to be one of the best; she just moved in town and opened up a practice."

Ben: "What do you two need to pay some counselor a whole bunch of money when the problem is clear between you two, even a blind man could see it."

Lisa frowns

Lisa: "Oh really? Well what exactly is our problem smarty pants?"

Ben: "You two don't love each other anymore."

Lisa: "That is not true Ben; I do love your father."

Ben rolls his eyes

Ben: "For the last time tonight he's not my father!"

Lisa: "Look, Ben I didn't come in here to argue with you, you are a part of this family rather you like it or not and you need to show us all respect it's the only way we can get through this is if we all work together."

Ben: "No, if you two stop fucking other people that would help more."

Lisa slaps Ben across the face for his comment.

Ben is shocked in all his years his mother has never struck him like this.

Lisa stands up with tears in her eyes she can't speak she's too angry, too scared, too embarrassed all at the same time, she just gets up and walks out slamming the door to his room as she leaves.

Ben feels the tears coming to his own eyes now as if the sting from her hand was more painful than it really was because he immediately feels bad for saying what he did and for hurting her like that.

Ben knows he's been acting really awful to his family lately and it bothers him he doesn't want to be an asshole, but he's just so mad. He's mad all the time and he's afraid of what this madness will do to him. Only time he feels good anymore is when he's with Charlotte or with his buddies during a jam session. Being with his family makes him want to run away screaming and punching walls.

Ben grabs a pair of boxer shorts off the floor and throws them on quickly then he turns out the light and buries his head under his pillow to finally go to sleep and try to forget what a horrible night it has been.

Scene: Rufus's House

Doorbell rings

Rufus opens the peep hole but not the door to peer out at his guest.

Rufus: "You bring the scotch?"

Pastor Jacob nods and holds up the bottle.

Rufus opens the door to let him in

Pastor Jacob enters and takes of his overcoat.

Rufus takes the bottle of scotch from him and immediately heads to the kitchen cabinet for a glass.

Pastor Jacob: "I really don't know about this a pastor really shouldn't be buying alcohol for an alcoholic."

Rufus opens the bottle and pours some of the scotch for himself

Rufus: "Hell you'd be an alcoholic too if you had to live with an angel head case."

Pastor Jacob frowns and lays his coat down over the back of a kitchen table chair.

Pastor Jacob: "How is Castiel doing? We all miss him over at church."

Rufus: "He's a complete mess man! I caught him trying to hang himself again just today. I'm telling ya he may need to be put away somewhere it's getting to be too much for me too handle by myself."

Rufus takes another drink.

Pastor Jacob frowns

Pastor Jacob: "Oh its worst then I thought well let me talk to him perhaps I can convince him to come stay with me for awhile I think anyone is libel to go crazy stuck out here in the middle of nowhere, uh no offense."

Rufus takes another drink.

Rufus: "Hey that's fine with me country living ain't for everybody. I was crazy when I moved out here so I figure there's no place else to go, but the country at least it's quiet. But, Cas he doesn't belong here he's not happy and I just don't know what to do with him anymore. He hasn't been okay since Iris left him.

Pastor Jacob: "Yes, that was quite unfortunate, but really he never should have told her the truth."

Castiel comes into the kitchen overhearing the last part of their conversation.

Castiel is clean from his bath, but his clothes are torn and old, he hasn't even buttoned his shirt up right in front and his fly is down.

Castiel: "Unfortunate that's the word for it that's the word for my whole damn life Unfortunate! I never would have told her if I thought she leave me for it! Serves me right I didn't deserve her anyway."

Pastor Jacob stands up walks over to hug Castiel.

Castiel allows him too but doesn't hug back.

Pastor Jacob: "It's been a long time my brother. I know life has taken its toil, but God is still good."

Castiel: "He is? Well I'm not. I'm not good. My life is worthless. Rufus says I'm a mess yeah well that's a word for it. I would say I'm a worthless piece of shit, but mess would be more proper I guess in front of you Pastor."

Pastor frowns as Castiel heads for the bottle of scotch

Rufus pulls it away so Castiel can't have any.

Rufus: "Sit down and listen you need help more than I can give Pastor Jacob wants to help you so just sit down and listen to what he has to say!"

Castiel rolls his eyes and plops down into a chair to listen though he really doesn't care.

Pastor Jacob: "You may not feel like you're worth anything anymore Castiel, but believe me when I tell you, you are! We all are God's children and he wants you to believe in him again he wants you to come back to church and start living again."

Castiel: "Living for what? For him? I did that for centuries and what good did it do me?"

Pastor Jacob: "Well it allowed you to come to earth to help save our planet for starters, that was important Castiel and you were a big part of that."

Castiel: "Yeah well good for the world, but all I've done since has cost me everything and everyone I care about.

Pastor Jacob: "Iris still cares about you Castiel she's just hurt too that's all. Its hard for her to understand is all she doesn't know about the supernatural and really should shouldn't. But she still loves you I know she does."

Castiel: "Oh if only I could believe that, I still remember our first date."

Flashback begins

Scene: Outside the hospital

Castiel: "Dean I don't think I can go through with this."

Dean: "Dude, will you stop worrying you'll be fine."

Castiel: "How am I supposed to tell her the truth? She'll never believe me. I don't have my powers or my wings so it's not like I can show her."

Dean: "You don't have to tell her anything about our past. It's too early for that just keep the conversation light for now."

Castiel: "Light?"

Castiel looks at Dean puzzled.

Dean: "Yeah, like I told you look into her eyes, smile and be confident man. If she asks what you do for a living just say you work for me."

Castiel: "But, I don't want to lie to her."

Dean: "Well too bad. That's what we do. We can't go around telling people we saved the world from the apocalypse. She's a nurse. She believes in science not the supernatural if you tell her the truth that will earn you a one way trip to the funny farm. You don't want to lie then ask her a bunch of questions keep her talking about her own life, but whatever you do try not to faint, fart, get a boner or say anything about being an angel of the lord got that!

Castiel nods though he's still nervous

Castiel: "You said I should think about Uriel naked."

Dean: "Yeah, that should keep you from getting another erection."

Castiel thinks to himself being a human male is weird I don't see how that is suppose to work, but okay I'll do whatever it takes I just want Iris to like me.

Castiel looks over at the hospital doors and sees Iris walk out. Castiel gasps out.

Castiel: "There she is! Oh I don't know if I can go through with this!"

Dean grabs Castiel's lapel and rolls his eyes.

Dean: "Hey, Hey calm yourself will ya, jeez you're worse than Sam when it comes to picking up chicks you're both so awkward and goofy about it. It's not that difficult."

Castiel: "It's not like I've have a lot of practice at this."

Dean: "You'll be fine. Just relax!"

Dean tries to reassure him with a smile.

Castiel looks at Dean terrified finally takes a deep breath then looks back over at Iris who is outside waiting for him.

Dean: "Just go! Don't keep the lady waiting."

Castiel finally gets out of the car carrying a bouquet of flowers for her.

Iris smiles when she sees him coming towards her and waves.

Dean watches Castiel walk over from the car and as he reaches the sidewalk he trips a little and almost drops the flowers.

Castiel smiles at her awkwardly as she rushes over to see if he's alright.

Dean sighs then says to himself alone in the car

Dean: "Yeah, he's so screwed."

Flashback ends

Scene: Inside Rufus's House.

Castiel: "I never knew it would hurt this much if I known getting your heart broken was so painful I never would have gone out with her. I never would have become a human; I'd rather be dead than feel like this."

Pastor Jacob frowns

Pastor Jacob: "I'm worried about you Castiel this is not healthy you need help. You need to come with me before it's too late."

Castiel: "Has she spoken with you?"

Pastor Jacob: "Yes, she has."

Pastor Jacob sighs

Pastor Jacob: "She's trying to move on Castiel you should do the same get your life back on track. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but life for you can be good again there are plenty of other people in the world to love my friend you just have to love yourself first."

Castiel: "Love myself, what is there to love about me?"

Rufus looks over at Pastor Jacob with a worried expression.

Pastor Jacob: "I'm not going to answer that right now you have to find that for yourself, but I suggest you get in touch with the Winchesters they may be able to help you with this."

Castiel: "Dean tried to help me before. He was my best friend. I cared for him like he was my own brother. But, I failed him. He hates me know."

Pastor Jacob looks concerned.

Pastor Jacob: "No, that can't be true."

Castiel: "What I did to his family is unforgiveable I understand why he doesn't want to see me anymore."

Pastor Jacob frowns

Pastor Jacob: "And Sam, what about him?"

Castiel: "He made his choice, he took Dean's side. I don't blame him either that's his brother and his niece I hurt. I'd probably do the same thing in his position. I'm surprised Sam didn't try to kill me for what I did."

Rufus: "Maybe you should try talking to them again a lot of time has past they may have gotten over it by now."

Castiel scoffs and looks away from them. He stands up and walks over to look out the window as it rains outside.

Castiel: "No, it's over between me and them. I had one job, I didn't have to pay for anything, they bought my food, my clothes, I lived in Dean's house they took care of me and I had only one job protect those kids like they were my own and I failed. I failed them and little Mary got hurt because of me."

A tear falls from Castiel's left eye at the thought of what he allowed to happen.

Pastor Jacob: "Surely it wasn't on purpose?"

Castiel bows his head he can't speak of it; the memories are still too painful.

Pastor Jacob: "What about Iris?"

Castiel: "It's over between us also now."

Pastor Jacob: "But, she's pregnant."

Castiel turns sharply too look back at Pastor Jacob.

Castiel stares at him in shock and disbelief this can't be true.

Pastor Jacob: "I didn't want to have to be the one to tell you, but she is pregnant with your child Castiel. She came to me about a month ago in tears she'd just found out and didn't know what to do about it."

Castiel can feel his body becoming numb and weak all of a sudden.

Castiel faints. Rufus rushes over to pick him up off the floor.

Rufus: "You couldn't have told him that while he was on the couch!"

Pastor Jacob: "I uh, I'm sorry, I thought it be good news for him to hear."

Rufus: "Good new? The man's a mess! He can't sleep, he barely eats all he does is drink and try to commit suicide and now you tell him he's going to be a father. That ain't no good news!"

Pastor Jacob helps Rufus carry Castiel back over to the couch.

Pastor Jacob: "Well the thing of it is, I don't know if she's going to even keep the baby. She's really scared; she doesn't want to raise a baby alone."

Rufus: "Well maybe she shouldn't."

Pastor Jacob: "Rufus!"

Rufus: "What? I'm sorry, but I mean this is dangerous you know what God said we must keep the supernatural evil out of this world this must be some kind of sign of evil right?"

Pastor Jacob: "The Association is aware of the signs they feel we must keep a close watch on how this develops. The child is cause for concerned, but not necessarily evil. Castiel's human now so the baby may turn out normal, but either way they are the ones that have to make this decision not us."

Rufus: "Well you're their spiritual advisor, why don't you speak with the Chairman tell him about Castiel's condition maybe he can help him with this."

Pastor Jacob: "No, the Association must remain anonymous; they don't want Castiel or the Winchesters to know about their existence and what we do."

Rufus: "Oh hell, when I joined the Association I thought they were going to help us, they haven't done much!"

Pastor Jacob: "They do it all you just don't see it, it's because of them the supernatural evil can't get back on our planet. They keep it away and watch for signs of its return. They can't let evil destroy this new world we've built not this time. If Castiel or the others knew the truth it would only cause more problems for them and they may try to interfere you know I can't allow that. If this child being born turns out to be a sign of evil then I will take care of it don't worry."

Rufus: "Well I am worried, and not just about the child there have been other signs lately too other children something is coming I can feel it. These kids they're the key to it all they never should have been allowed to be born in the first damn place."

Pastor Jacob. "We don't know that so stop worrying just pray about it."

Rufus: "I'm telling ya something's coming!"

Castiel stirs from his sleep still confused and though he wasn't able to hear their conversation, but he did catch what Rufus just said.

Castiel: "What? What's coming?"

Pastor Jacob looks at Rufus fearfully they shouldn't be talking about this in front of him.

Pastor Jacob: "Nothing, except well like I told you Castiel you are going to be a father, so you need to get yourself together and come with me, Iris is waiting."

Castiel sits up a bit and for the first time in a long time smiles

Castiel: "I will come. I must see for myself."

Pastor Jacob smiles and helps Castiel to his feet.

Castiel: "Oh Thank you Pastor. Thank you for taking such good care of Iris you are a true friend."

Pastor Jacob: "Oh no need to thank me I'm just doing my job."

Pastor Jacob smiles again and pats Castiel's shoulder.

Castiel goes upstairs to gather his things for the journey.

Castiel thinks to himself, I'm going to be a father this is magnificent ever since I saw Sam and Dean have their children, living with Dean's kids that was the best time in my life. When Iris and I were happy and in love I wanted children so badly. I wanted her to be my wife. I still love her so much. I can't let her raise our baby alone. I want to be there for her, for the baby. I want to finally have a family of my own a real family and show everyone that I can do it. Oh God thank you thank you! I thought you'd forgotten me, but you've given me my grace back, you've given me a second chance her with this child I can feel it. In fact that's what we should call her if we have a girl I want her to be named Gracie. Thank you God for giving me a reason to live again thank you father!

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