Chapter 4: Ordinary World
Scene: Sam's office
Sam is at work after hours going over his notes for a project presentation he must give to the Fillmore clients tomorrow. He's feeling pretty nervous about it and wants everything to go smoothly so they are impressed with all the effort his team has put in over the last several weeks.
Genevieve Monroe walks into his office with a huge smile on her face.
Genevieve Monroe is originally from San Paulo so she speaks with a slight accent, and is fluent in Portuguese, Spanish and English. She's very beautiful with long tan legs and dark chocolate hair with very pretty dark brown eyes. Also, she is incredibly smart graduating at the top of her class and working her way up to junior partner at their law firm and well on her way to becoming a senior partner. Sam has been working with her a lot over the last year on many projects for the firm and they both enjoy working together.
Genevieve: "Sam you are never going to believe what just happened!"
Genevieve grins at him as she grabs a chair by his desk and sits down across from him to talk.
Sam: "Uh what happened?"
Genevieve: "I just won two free tickets to Star Wars 4D Film Festival!"
She holds up the tickets for him to see.
Sam drops his notes on the desk very surprised and happy for her. He grins.
Sam: "Really! Oh that's really great Gen that should be a lot of fun. Have a good time."
Genevieve's smile fades a bit confused by his response.
Genevieve: "You're coming right?"
Sam drops his pen again surprised by her assumption.
Sam: "Well I uh didn't think you'd want to take an old fuddy duddy guy like me, I mean I love Star Wars as a kid, but.
Genevieve frowns
Genevieve: "No, buts you have to come with me Sam. I loved Star Wars growing up too and I sort of felt like it made me such a nerd that I'm still into at this age until I met you and realized even hot guys are into it."
Sam blushes a bit from her compliment then becomes even more nervous about the fact that she is able to make him blush at all especially at his age.
Sam: "Uh look I would love to come its just Sarah and I have been going through a tough time lately and."
She interrupts him
Genevieve: "Say no more; tell her she's welcome to come with us."
Sam: "Oh Sarah isn't really into Star Wars; she's more into independent films and such."
Genevieve: "Well invite her anyway, if she says yes then I'll get an extra ticket for her no charge and if she isn't up for it then she shouldn't have any problem with you going right?"
Sam doubts Sarah would want to go and doubts that she would want him to either, but he does want to go so he's not sure how to respond.
Sam: "Let me think about it okay."
Genevieve smiles and stands up.
Genevieve: "Great, well I'm just going to leave this brochure for the festival here so you can carouse through it and then you just call for me downstairs when you're ready. Oh this is going to be so much fun Sammy."
Genevieve giggles a little bit and prepares to leave his office. Sam enjoys seeing her smile so much he doesn't even balk at her calling him that annoying little kid nickname he hates so much.
Genevieve stops right in front of his desk to pick up a staple lodged in the carpet on the floor.
Sam tries not to notice how amazing she looks, but she is very attractive especially when she's bending over. That he can't help, but look a little.
Genevieve stands back up and hands him the staple before smiling once more and exiting the room.
Sam sits back in his chair and sighs. He tries to go back to his notes, but has a hard time concentrating on them now as he plays with the staple she gave him.
Sam decides he better take his materials home with him for the night and go over them again in the morning instead. He is preparing to leave when his office building when he hears a terrifying scream.
Sam rushes towards the parking lot and sees Genevieve being held up by some thug with a gun. Sam yells at the guy
Sam: HEY!
The guy shocked and scared of being caught fires his gun at Sam, but Sam dodges the bullet.
The guy tries to run, but Sam chases after him quickly grabbing his jacket then yanking the man down.
Sam doesn't let up on him. He pummels the guy punching him till he's totally unconscious and bloody. Sam doesn't stop hitting him until Genevieve calls his name out scared he might just kill him.
Genevieve: "Sam its okay now!"
Sam pauses breathing hard a bit winded from his sprint and all the punching.
Sam looks at her as she walks closer still looking very much shaken up.
Genevieve bends down to pick up her purse next to the petty thief then looks at Sam.
Sam: "Are you alright?"
Genevieve shakes her head still upset about the attack.
Genevieve stands back up and hugs Sam as she cries on his shoulder.
Sam pulls her close and tries to calm her nerves.
Sam: "It's going be okay, it's over now."
Genevieve with tears in her eyes looks up at him
Genevieve: "Thank you so much Sam! I was so scared he was going to kill me. You saved my life."
Genevieve can't help herself she leans in and kiss Sam on the lips gently.
Sam can taste her salty tears mixing with their kiss and he can feel his heart beat rise again.
Sam finally pulls back to stare at her still not sure what to do now.
Sam: "I uh let me just walk you to your car and then I'll call the police and stay here till they come."
Genevieve: "Sam, I know this is going to sound crazy, but well I really don't want to be alone right now, my hands are shaking. I don't want to drive like this. I'm just too scared to go home by myself."
Sam nods he can feel her still trembling in her arms and knows she's still shaken from the attack.
Sam: "Fine, I'll take you home then come back."
Sam wipes a tear off Genevieve's face
Genevieve rests her head back on his chest and tries to soothe herself and get the image of the gun pointing at her out of her head.
Sam walks with her back to his car opens the door so she can get in then drives her home.
Scene: Pastor Jacob's church office
Castiel sits nervously awaiting for Iris to show up so they can discuss the new baby.
Castiel stairs at the clock above the doorway then looks back at Pastor Jacob.
Castiel: "Are you sure she said 8'o clock?"
Pastor Jacob: "Yes, she'll be here so don't worry."
Castiel: "Don't worry? I can't help it! I'm going to be a father!"
Pastor Jacob smiles he can see how excited and scared Castiel is about all of this.
Pastor Jacob: "I know, just try to relax Castiel its all going to be okay, you've been doing well here no more fits, no more drinking. It's best to remain calm I want this all to work out for you."
Castiel smiles a bit and tries to heed his advice.
Castiel: "I want to change Pastor. I want be a better person, a better man. I have to be for her, for the baby."
Pastor Jacob smiles happy to see Castiel slowly retuning to his old self again.
Iris knocks on the door.
Castiel immediately stands up so nervous and clumsily he knocks the chair he was sitting in over as he stands.
Pastor Jacob looks at him and shakes his head.
Castiel sighs trying to regain composure.
Pastor Jacob goes over to answer the door.
Iris walks in also looking nervous and unable to look Castiel in the eyes just yet. She's wearing a big coat over her clothes like that of a man's and Castiel immediately notices it, but more importantly he is surprised at how beautiful she still looks to him, and he can't help staring at her small pregnant belly.
He thinks to himself, wow she's more beautiful than any angel I've ever seen.
Castiel: "Hi"
Iris: "Hello Castiel."
Pastor Jacob: "May I take your coat Iris?"
Iris nods and removes it handing it to Pastor Jacob. He hangs it up on a coat rack in his office.
Iris comes to sit down
Castiel pulls the chair out for her
Iris gives him a halfhearted smile as she sits down still nervous about seeing him again.
Castiel picks up the chair he knocked over and sits down next to her.
Pastor Jacob goes back to his chair behind his desk and begins the counseling session.
Pastor Jacob: How have you been feeling Iris still nauseous?
Iris nods a bit
Iris: "It's worse in the early morning and really late at night, but I feel okay right now."
Castiel smiles happy to hear she's feeling well.
Castiel nervously asks her: "How's the baby doing?"
Iris: "Fine so far."
Castiel looks at her stomach again he wishes he could touch it even hold the baby already, but he doesn't move because he doesn't want to scare her off again.
Castiel sighs
Castiel: "Iris I want to say I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you."
Iris looks at him then looks back at her lap then up at Pastor Jacob.
Iris: "How have you been Castiel?"
Castiel: "Miserable. I've missed you so much. I just want us to be a family again."
Iris looks worried and sad.
Pastor Jacob: "Castiel you need to slow down just a bit okay. We are still working on your rehabilitation and recovery. Iris, he has been doing a lot better since he came to stay with me though, no more drinking no more suicide attempts."
Castiel: "When I told you before about who I really was I was wrong then that is not who I am and its not who I want to be not anymore. I just want to be there for you and for the baby.
Iris: "I just don't think I can really trust you. I need someone I can count on"
Castiel frowns sadly at her
Castiel: "I'll do whatever it takes to show you I can be a better man then I was."
Iris sighs
Iris: "I'm glad you are getting back on your feet Castiel. And you know I still care about you its just I've met someone else. .
Castiel looks back at the men's coat hanging on the rack.
Castiel feels like he wants to jump out the window and die, but he stays calm not wanting to show his weakness.
Castiel: "I understand if you don't love me anymore, but I still want to be there for you just to help you in anyway I can. The baby does need a father."
Iris feels her stomach jump a bit and looks at him.
Iris: "Yes, but to be honest I am just not sure you're the right person to be this baby's father."
Castiel wants to shoot himself he can feel himself about ready to throw up it hurts so much.
Pastor Jacob can see how hurt Castiel is becoming and doesn't want this to affect his recovery.
Pastor Jacob: "Listen, you two have been through a lot and this is really difficult decision that doesn't need to be made right away. The baby isn't due for months why don't we keep meeting here in my office once a week to discuss things until then okay?"
Castiel nods trying not to cry.
Iris: "Can I bring Jason?"
Castiel looks at her shocked to hear this other guy's name.
Castiel: "You're with Jason now?"
Iris: "Yes, he's been real good to me after you went off the deep end. He wants to be there for me and the baby too. He loves me Castiel."
Castiel: "And do you."
Castiel pauses not sure he can even wants to know.
Castiel: "Do you love him back?"
Iris looks down at her lap not sure what to say and also trying not to cry.
Iris: "To be totally honest I don't know if I can love anybody again not even you. I'm worried about this baby's future. I'm scared something may be wrong. I don't want to be alone, but I rather raise this baby myself then see you or anyone else hurt my baby."
Castiel: "I would never do anything to hurt our child Iris, I promise you that."
Iris: "I know you say that now and well you know it's what I want to hear, but I need to be sure. Its not about just me anymore, it's about protecting her.
Castiel: Her?
Iris nods
Castiel smiles happy to know it's a girl.
Castiel: "I will die before I let anyone harm our little girl. You know I love children."
Iris puts her head down still concerned
Pastor Jacob: "This is about Mary isn't it Iris?"
Castiel looks at Pastor Jacob then back at Iris for her response.
Iris nods and looks at her stomach again.
Iris: "He's never told me the truth about what happened. I can't be committed to someone who keeps so many secrets from me."
Castiel sighs he was hoping to avoid this conversation.
Pastor Jacob looks at Castiel and frowns.
Pastor Jacob: "We need to clear the air here Castiel."
Castiel stands up slowly and begins pacing
Castiel feels tears coming from his eyes as he looks at Iris.
Castiel: "I am sorry okay I am! I didn't want to hurt you or them."
Iris can't even look at him, so she looks at her stomach.
Pastor Jacob: "We need to get past this you guys in order to do that you both have to be totally honest with each other. Now I know you want Iris to trust you again, you want us all to trust you again. Then you need to tell us what happened."
Castiel cries more and Iris refuses to look back at him because she's afraid of what he will tell her.
Castiel: "I was watching Mary and her older brother Johnny for Lisa while she went to the store. Mary was just four year's old at the time. She didn't speak, but it was like she understood everything I said to her anyway. She was the sweetest little girl.
Castiel pauses a bit
Pastor Jacob: "Okay, go on."
Castiel sighs again
Castiel: "Well I was helping Johnny feed his turtle when the phone rang. I went to answer it and I heard a telemarketer on the other end trying to sell me something strange only they weren't really speaking clearly I don't know what the guy was talking about so I just hung up on him. Then for some horrible reason I snapped. I still don't know why. I've been going over and over it in my mind ever since, but really there is just no excuse for what I did.
Iris: "No excuse for what?"
Castiel: "It was almost like I was possessed or something, but I wasn't. I know that isn't possible anymore. But, I still remember walking down the hallway into little Mary's room, she was sitting on the floor by herself just staring at the ceiling then she looked at me and I just attacked. It felt like I was losing control over my entire body it didn't make any sense what I was doing and it wasn't until I felt a sharp metal object hit me in the head from behind that I stopped strangling her. Then I blacked out in pain."
Castiel pauses to wipe tears of his face a bit.
Castiel: "I had blacked out and when I came too Lisa was balling her eyes out holding Mary who was still unconscious in her arms. Johnny was calling 911, they were afraid I'd killed her. I couldn't speak, I was just too shocked. I couldn't even explain what happened because I still don't know why it happened, but it is the worst thing I've ever done. I did a lot of unspeakable things in my time when I was an angel I even told myself I was just following orders, but the truth was I was in control then. I made my own decisions I chose to rebel against my brothers to help Dean and I never regretted that decision, but if I'd could go back and change it now I would. I never would have chosen to stay on earth. I thought I'd love being a human, I thought it would make me better somehow, but all I've done is hurt people closest to me. I hurt her, I hurt Dean, and I hurt you too and for that I'm so sorry. Now I often think I should have just left with the others when I had the chance and gone back to heaven it would have been easier. None of this would have happened. But, I swear I never wanted anything like this."
Pastor Jacob: "Life isn't always easy Castiel, sometimes we have to make tough choices, but the important thing is that we stick by those we love and we don't give up on them."
Castiel: "I don't want to give up pastor. I want to make it right again I just don't know how?"
Pastor Jacob: "It takes time, patience things will get better, but first you need to confront the Winchesters. Tell them the truth, tell them what happened and how it made you feel. It is the only way you will ever be able to get to the bottom of this, mend your broken heart and theirs."
Castiel: "I'm too afraid. When Dean came to the hospital Mary was still hooked up to a breathing machine. Lisa told him what I'd done and he wouldn't even look at me after that. He wouldn't even talk to me. He told Ben to tell me to leave and that if I ever showed my face around there again he wouldn't hesitate to shoot me dead."
Castiel: "I left that night and never went back. Then a couple of days later I went to a library and I got an email from Sam, all it said was 'You will burn in hell for this!' I never heard from either of them again. How can I ever go back now? They hate me. I don't blame them I almost killed her.
Pastor Jacob frowns shocked to hear this news.
Pastor Jacob: "That is awful."
Iris can't take it anymore she begins to cry too and finally starts yelling.
Iris: "And so now you expect me to let you in my daughter's life!? How can I!? Castiel, you did hurt me, you hurt me a lot. You wouldn't stop drinking after what happened. You wouldn't even talk to me about it either. No matter how many times I asked you about it you just kept pushing me away, then you finally tell me you're an angel and you belong in heaven what did you expect me to think? I was so scared back then you use to stumble in all hours and just go into these fits of rage. I know you say you want to change, but I'm still scared. I've been having nightmares about it. I can't let you hurt Grace like that!
Castiel stares at her in shock at the mention of that name in particular.
Castiel: "You've decided to name her Grace?"
Iris: "Well I'm thinking about it."
Castiel thinks to himself, we still think so much alike she wants to name her Grace, unbelievable this must be another sign from God right.
Iris starts to feel nauseous again and clutches her stomach with her hands
Iris: "I'm sorry Castiel, but this is just too much for me right now. Pastor I'll call you okay, but I really need to go home and lie down."
Pastor Jacob stands up and helps her put her coat on.
Pastor Jacob gives her a small hug.
Pastor Jacob: "You go home rest dear. Tell Jason to take good care of you."
Iris nods, she glances at Castiel one last time before leaving the room.
Castiel goes and slumps back down in his chair still scared and sad.
Pastor Jacob: "You know this may sound a bit strange Castiel, but do you think it's possible something else happened to you that night?"
Castiel: "What do you mean?"
Pastor Jacob: "I've known you for quite some time and I know you came to visit Bobby when he was sick in that nursing home when very few did."
Castiel nods a bit
Pastor Jacob: "So it's hard for me to imagine that you would do something like that to a little girl do you think maybe something supernatural could be involved here?"
Castiel stares at him for a moment
Castiel shakes his head.
Castiel: "No, that's impossible; the supernatural elements of this world are gone. God took them all away and their gone forever. I did this and I have to face facts. Only I can change my destiny now."
Pastor Jacob stares at him then sits back in his chair
Pastor Jacob: "So then you still believe in destiny Castiel?."
Castiel: "Yes. I have to believe I can change"
Pastor Jacob: "Then perhaps you should meet a friend of mine he may be able to determine just what your destiny will be."
Castiel looks at him confused.
Castiel: "What is he a psychic?"
Pastor Jacob: "No, not exactly. How about on Wednesday evening I'll take you to visit him? I think you will find his advice to be quite helpful he's helped me many times."
Castiel nods
Castiel gets up to leave.
Castiel: "I'm going go take a walk, I'll be back soon."
Pastor Jacob nods.
Castiel is about to walk out when he says remembers one last thing.
Castiel: "You know what the worst thing of it is I was having this horrible strange dream the rest of the week after it happened about little Mary burning on the ceiling, but I couldn't tell anyone about the dream. They wouldn't have believed me anyway and well thankfully it didn't happen, so I don't want to make things any worse. I even still have all their pictures in my wallet. I just can't bring myself to burn any of them. I really do miss them all."
Pastor Jacob: "Well then you need to tell them so."
Castiel nods knowing that eventually he will have to make that journey to see the Winchesters again and explain himself, but he knows that first he has to get Iris to trust him again so he can be there for their daughter.
Castiel grabs his coat then leaves the Pastor's office.
Pastor frowns after Castiel closes the door
Pastor Jacob picks up the phone and makes a call.
A man answers the phone on the other end.
Man: Well what did you find out?
Pastor Jacob: It's starting again!
Man: Son of a bitch!