Chapter 11: The Truth Hurts.
Scene: Inside Sam and Sarah's bedroom.
Sarah is very worried about her brother and where he might be heading off to. She tries to call him, but he doesn't answer his cell phone.
She slams the phone back down frustrated and on edge. She begins to pace back and forth across the room.
She knew Sam would get upset once she told him the truth about the babies, but she had to finally come clean. The lies just kept eating away at her soul making her lash out at him. It wasn't fair to do that to Sam, but now she fears things will only get worse. The pain of losing her children still consumes her. Sarah desperately wishes they could just forgive and forget, but she knows it's not so easily done.
Sarah finally sits on the end of the bed and hangs her head in despair.
I love Daniel he has always been there for me. I don't know what my life would even be like if he hadn't been looking out for me. But, what he did was so awful I'm surprised he even told me the truth. Well he never really could keep a secret from me even growing up I was the first he told about his abilities and he was the first I told when I discover mine too. We've always been so close so good to each other. How could he do this to me?
I can't understand why he felt having more children would be so bad. It just doesn't make any sense. Daniel had always been very loving to Sean and Sasha why would he do this. I have to find him. Every time we have a fight, every time one of walks out we'd eventually find away back to each other. It's going to be harder than ever this time, but I can't go on like this forever. I need Daniel and I need Sam. I just want us to be a family again.
Sarah lies down in the bed as tears fall from her eyes. She covers herself with a blanket as she tries to get her mind off all the pain she is feeling.
She closes her eyes and pictures pleasant memories of a family picnic the year she was pregnant with Sasha.
Sarah remembers how happy they all were together. How kind Sam was to her back then and how protective Daniel always was. She smiles with her eyes still tightly closed shut.
Sarah relishes the long conversations she had with Lisa then and how much she misses talking to her.
Sarah knows Sam and Dean haven't been talking to each other for awhile as if time just keeps passing them by. Sam needs his brother right now he's been avoiding talking to him for too long enough is enough.
Sarah decides that best way to reunite them is to talk to Lisa about it. She decides to take an afternoon nap to rest her nerves and promises herself to call Lisa.
Sam comes back from his walk with the dogs.
He sees her lying in bed so he quietly gets in bed next to her.
Sadie and Salt both take a rest at the foot of the bed.
Sarah turns over then puts her hand on Sam's chest and looks into his eyes.
Sarah: "Sammy I'm so sorry."
A tear escapes Sarah's eye.
Sam nuzzles her and pulls her closer to him.
Sam sighs and frowns, but doesn't speak yet. He wishes he could just make all the pain stop.
Sarah: "Sam I…I really think its time we talk to the kids about this. They deserve to know the truth and they should hear it from us before they hear it from somebody else. I know they will start asking questions about why Daniel left and I don't to lie to them anymore. I don't want them to hate him. He is their uncle and they care a lot about him so I'll tell them if you're not up for it baby."
Sarah lifts her head to look up into Sam's eyes.
Sarah: "Do you want me to be the one that tells them?"
Sam regrettably sighs.
Sam: "No, we're a team. We have to tell them together. They should hear it from the both of us. But, Sarah I…."
Sam pauses his words catch in his throat because he's so upset that he even has to say this to her.
Sarah: "What? What is it Sammy?"
Sam: "I don't want Daniel around the kids anymore. If we tell them the truth it is only to protect them. They need to know what he's done so they know to stay away if he tries to come back. They need to know it's not safe to be around him. I know he's your brother and we all love him, but these are our kids. It's our job to protect them and we have to do everything we can to keep them safe no matter what."
Sarah finally sighs this time as she holds back more tears ready to escape again. She sadly bows her head towards the floor and nods.
Sarah: "But, I really don't think Daniel would try and hurt them. He loves Sasha and Sean."
Sam frowns then moves closer and holds her head up under her chin with his hand.
Sam: "I'm not willing to take that chance. Are you?
Sarah lets the tears fall again as she pulls her head back and turns away from Sam.
Sarah: "Do you even realize what you are asking me Sam? You are asking me to choose between my own flesh and blood. You know I would gladly die for my children if I had to I love them so much and you. But, the truth is I'd also do the same for Daniel. He's given up his life more than once to help me. I know what he did was well practically unforgiveable. He's a liar and murderer, but…."
Sarah pauses as her tears flow.
Sam sits up in bed and stares over her shoulder.
Sarah: "He's still my brother Sam!"
Suddenly an overwhelming urge to hurl takes control of Sarah's body. She clasps her hand over her mouth in panic as her face turns slightly paler.
Sam: "What is it?"
Sarah doesn't answer him instead she quickly jumps out of bed.
She rushes into the bathroom and barely has time to lift the toilet lid before puke begins pouring out of her mouth
Sam gets out of bed and rushes to be by her side. He frowns very worried about his wife.
Sam pulls her hair back away from her face and holds it behind her back with one hand. He rubs her back slowly with the other hand.
When Sarah finally stops vomiting Sam gets up and grabs a towel for her to wipe her face. He notices her eyes are starting to turn yellow.
Sam goes into the medicine cabinet and pulls out some pills from a bottle.
He gives them to Sarah with a cup of water.
She takes the pills immediately and tries her best to calm down.
Sam sits down on the tile of the bathroom floor. He pulls Sarah to his chest and leans against the tub. Sarah leans into him and uses the towel as a cushion.
Sam: "I'm sorry. It isn't fair for me to ask you to choose between them. It's just you and the kids are my life. You know I do anything to protect this family so that's all I'm trying to do here. Please don't hate me."
Sarah nods at him.
Sarah: "I could never hate you. You're right Sam. I know you are right it's not safe for Sean or Sasha to be around him right now. I hate that it's the worst feeling in the world, but it's true. I love this family more than anything else. I never want to do anything to put you or the kids in danger. So I promise."
Sam: "Promise what?"
Sarah: "I promise to keep Daniel away from them until you feel it's safe again."
Sam kisses Sarah on the forehead and holds her close praying she won't cry or throw up again.
Sarah: "Just if I do this then I need you to promise me something too."
Sam whispers into Sarah's ear.
Sam: "Anything babe."
Sarah: "I want you to let me take the kids to Texas."
Sam pulls away a bit to look at her face again a bit surprised by this request.
Sam: "But, why?"
Sarah: "With Daniel on the loose and Genevieve too. I would feel much safer in Texas with the kids instead of here at the house. The only person I trust besides you to do everything to protect us is your brother."
Sam: "You want to go stay with Dean. Are you sure?"
She nods at him.
Sam looks at Sarah for a moment and he realizes she is very serious about this.
Sam sighs.
Sam: "Actually, that may not be such a bad idea. I'll have to talk with him about it first though."
Sarah smiles for a moment at him then leans back down onto Sam's chest.
Sam lets her rest for a few more moments then scoops her up in his arms and places her on the edge of the tub.
Sam slowly and gently removes her clothes.
Sam: "I'll draw you a bath."
Sarah: "Don't bother it won't help just let me sleep it off."
Sam takes Sarah by the hands and holds her hands in his.
Sam: "Trust me alright. I know what I'm doing."
Sarah sighs then finally reluctantly agrees.
Sam turns on the water and lets it get really warm. As the tub fills up Sam gives Sarah her toothbrush with some toothpaste on it so she can brush her teeth and get rid of that awful taste of vomit.
He helps her into the tub once it's all filled and softly washes her back and massages her shoulders.
Sarah sighs peacefully as she takes in the pleasure of his massaging hands.
Sam: "Feels good doesn't it?"
Sarah nods and smiles.
Sarah: "You're too good to me sometimes. Even after all we've been through and are still going through you always find away to make me feel safe again."
Sam: "I wouldn't want it any other way."
Sam smiles and begins to wash Sarah's hair with her favorite shampoo. He massages her scalp thoroughly then rinses the shampoo out with the shower hose.
After he finishes bathing Sarah, he goes over to the dresser and pulls out one of her nightgowns then he returns to the bathroom and helps her into it. Sarah walks over to the bed and gets under the covers. Sam pulls out a warmer blanket from the closet and places it over her along with the comforter already on the bed.
Sam takes off his shirt and jeans leaving only his boxers on. He climbs back into bed and wraps his arms around her.
Sarah rests her head on his bare chest for a moment and sighs out loud.
Sarah: "Now I feel much better thanks."
Sam smiles and kisses her forehead as she yawns.
She shifts her body off him again when she remembers something she needs to do.
Sarah: "Oh I really should help the kids get ready for school tomorrow first."
Sam pulls her back down towards him again.
Sam: "No, they're older enough now to do it on their own. You need to rest right now so you don't get any sicker. I'll check in on them once you're asleep."
Sarah decides not to argue with him because she is really tired. She lies back down on his chest and closes her eyes.
Sam stays awake holding her for a while until she is totally fast asleep then he quietly gets out of bed to go prepare a meal for the kids and help them get ready for school.
A part of him wishes he could stay there to watch over her, but then Sam thinks about sending her and the kids down to Texas. He knows that means get in touch with his brother again and the thought of getting Dean involved in this makes Sam feel nauseous too.