Authors Note:
Hey guys sorry I haven't updated in a while I have had a lot of stuff on like music camp. Anyway here's the next chapter, hope u enjoy and please review.
One hour later
My test results were in and I couldn't stop shaking… I was too scared to find out the results what if I was sick or what if I was fine and we had just wasted our time in coming here. We it was finally about to be known and I was so scared for the answer, the answer that would change my, no our life forever.
The room felt like it was getting smaller as Doctor Cullen pulled a slip of paper out of my file and the room grew silent. My grasp on Jaspers hand tightened as we waited for Carlisle to tell us the results, as my stomach started to flip and Carlisle started to speak. "Alice…" He held my name in the air for a few second and I just wanted to beat him with a baseball bat, forcing him to tell me if there was something wrong. "I'm sorry… there is a problem with you blood cell counts and the tests have come back positive for…" He stopped, all I could think about was 'what did I have' and hurry up and spit it out. "You have leukemia" he told me sympathetically. What… the world was spinning I was only 19 and I had a deadly cancer inside of me… this couldn't be happening not to me… I mean I was good in school, had all the right grades and now god was punishing me… why? "I'll leave you to alone" He told us and as he stepped out, closing the door behind him the tears started falling down my face.
Jaspers grip tightened on his hand as he wrapped his other arm around me as he whispered words of love and support to me. He whispered stuff like 'You're going to be through this' and 'we are going to get through this together'. But I didn't know what to think, all I could feel was sadness wash through me and all I could think was 'How was I going to tell my parents, brother and friends that I may die'.
I stood from the chair fast and pushed Jaspers hands away from me, what was going to happen to us now I thought as Jasper stood. I couldn't take it anymore, his looks of sadness and the way I felt, it was all too much and I feel to the ground sobbing. Everything was too hard I thought as Jasper sat on the floor next to me and hugged me close. "I… I…" I couldn't get the words out, my mouth was like I had just had cement shoved down it and I let out another sob. "Shhhh…" Jazz whispered as he began rocking me back and forth in his arms. "J…Jazz w…what ab…about all th…the th…things we said we…we were go…going to…to do to…together" I said in between sobs. "We will ne…never have k…kids or…or get mar…married or…or anything cause I…I'll be gone" I cried again. "Alice Shhhh… nothing's going to happen to you… I won't let it" Jazz told me rubbing his hand up and down my arms.
That night I didn't go home, I was to upset and after a long amount of persuading I was allowed to leave the hospital. I of course stayed at Jaspers but tomorrow I would be back in the hospital for them to explain what was going to happen next. I couldn't believe this was happening, it was like I was in some bizarre dream and all I wanted to do was wake up, but that never happened. When we got to his house we went straight upstairs and never came out. His parents must have thought it was wired for a girl so fun and loving, coming into their house with tears streaking down her face. As soon as we got in his room I curled up on his bed and couldn't do anything. I couldn't eat, drink, sleep or do anything I was to sad. I could tell that Jasper was starting to worry but what could I do when I was worried and scared myself. That night I did almost everything together with Jasper but I mainly just cried and cried and cried in his arms.