The concert was here. It was the night of the concert and I was so nervous but so proud of everyone. To my astonishment, after the bell rang signaling the end of the school day, no one left. Every one of my students stayed where they were. They stayed at the school until the time of the concert, which was, like, six hours later.

All the girls were in their dresses and the boys were in their suits but none of them had their ties tied or their jackets on. We still had twenty minutes before anybody went on so we all just freaked out backstage. Ella had avoided me the entire time too. Fang was no where to be found.

I cornered Ella. "Something wrong, Ella? You've been awfully quiet."

She stared at me. "Just nervous, that's all." She let out a shaky chuckle. This was the first time she landed a solo in a song. Of course she'd be nervous.

I gave her a hug. "Don't worry, Ell. You'll do great."

Iggy ran into the backstage room, a giant grin on his face. "Max!" He called.

I gave Ella a reassuring squeeze in the hug before stepping over to Iggy. "What?"

"We just got invited to the big Christmas Bash on Christmas Eve that Jeb is holding." He held his hand up for a high five and I slapped it slowly.

"Okay…"

"Now it's formal so we have to dress up; meaning a dress for you," I groaned at the statement coming out of my brother's mouth.

"Do I have to-?"

"Yes."

"Have to, what?" A third voice broke through.

I turned around and saw Fang standing there, suit and all, his jacket open and his hands shoved in his pockets. His red tie was loose around his neck, resting against his black dress shirt. His suit was black too.

"Max has to wear a dress." Iggy grinned, his tongue between his teeth while he snickered.

"Don't make me fire you." I warned with a serious tone, serious expression. Although I would NEVER do that to Iggy… unless I had to.

He shushed immediately.

Two minutes until they went on. I was wringing my hands together, my nerves getting the better of me.

"Don't worry." Fang's voice rang through as students ran around, getting ready to go out on stage.

"I'm not worried, I'm nervous. What if no one likes the songs? I'm not even sure if the guys showed up." I confided.

Fang shuffled behind me and gave me a hug, my arms pinned to my sides. "Like I said, don't worry. Everything will be great. You did great." He kissed my pulse point and then suddenly I was cold. I was free. Fang wasn't by me anymore- in fact, he wasn't even backstage anymore. My pulse point burned with recognition from his lips and I held back tears of remembrance.

This is one thing no one except Fang and I knew. Not Iggy, not our parents, not anyone. But, in a way, Fang didn't know part of it.

He was my first.

In every way possible. My first kiss, my first crush, my first love, and my first time as well.

I'm sure he knew about being my first kiss but not about the other times. I mean- yeah!- he knew about that time but he had no idea he was my first. I'm sure I wasn't his but I took what I could get.

I took a deep breath, trying to rid my mind of the memories of our past, and paid attention to the beginning of the concert. The curtain was up:

Showtime.

---!---

Everyone was joyous in the choir room, chatting happily and munching on the treats laid out and created by my chef of a brother.

The kids were there, the guys from SNC were there too, having seen the concert, some teachers and parents were there. It was a party. Nudge was there too and she was sitting at the piano with Iggy, both talking quietly.

People tapped their glasses, for a reason I did not know.

Iggy stood. Uh oh… "How about it Max? Play us a song?"

Everyone clapped and cheered, wanting me to. Even Fang was smirking in the corner. I blushed lightly and made my way to the piano.

"I don't even know what to play…" I answered honestly.

"Why not one of the songs you wrote in high school?" Nudge suggested.

I thought about which song, scanning my eyes over the people, the crowd. My heart pounded- I hadn't played in front of so many people in so long. My eyes landed on Fang for half a second longer than my gaze at anyone else. I sat down at the piano when the two got off the bench.

I started playing, the whole room quiet, save for the piano. "Under your spell again. I can't say no to you. Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand. I can't say no to you. Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly now I can't let go of this dream I can't breathe but I feel Good enough I feel good enough for you.

"Drink up sweet decadence I can't say no to you and I've completely lost myself and I don't mind I can't say no to you Shouldn't have let you conquer me completely now I can't let go of this dream can't believe that I feel Good enough I feel good enough its been such a long time coming, but I feel good and I'm still waiting for the rain to fall pour real life down on me cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough am I good enough for you to love me too? so take care what you ask of me cause I can't say no…" {Good Enough by Evanescence}

I had closed my eyes as soon as the lyrics flew from my throat, moving with the music. I faintly heard a violin in the background throughout the whole song. I opened my eyes to see everyone staring in amazement. Applause was heard everywhere. I looked to my left and saw Nudge with a violin in her hands. She had heard that song before. Of course she would know about the violin needing to be in there.

I had written this song junior year, when I had started liking Fang. My life had been improving, increasing in good fortune, and I felt worthy to at least be in his presence. When I wrote that song, I had no longer felt like scum on the bottom of a scuba diver's boot.

I laughed, a little shocked at how long the applause held out. After a while, people starting chatting again, turning away from me. I was still smiling.

---!---

We had left the school ten minutes ago, going back to our place. Nudge, Ella, and Fang were in the back seat, Nudge babbling about how the band concert would totally own ours. Iggy was driving and I was in the passenger seat.

As we made our way up to the apartment building gate, I stopped in my tracks, staring at the guy waiting at the door. He held a key in his hand and there was a box by his feet. William.

My jaw almost hit the ground when I realized it was him. "Will? What are you doing here?" I stepped forward.

He smiled at me, almost sadly. "Max, can we go inside to talk? It's cold out here."

Iggy, Nudge, Ella, and Fang were already heading up the stairs. William and I followed at a slower pace. I didn't look at him as he lugged the box up the steps.

Iggy left the door open for us so we could just head in and I saw his bedroom door shut. I'm guessing they were all pressed against the wall, trying to listen in. I resisted the urge to roll my eyes.

"What are you doing here, Will?" I questioned, arms crossing in front of my chest.

"I came to return your stuff." There was venom in his voice. "All this shit was taking up space in my house."

"Are you sure it wasn't your shit that took up space? Or yourself, for that matter?" I was just as bitter. I set the box on the table after he shoved it into my hands. "Why now? Why are you bringing this to me now and not before?"

"Because I didn't want to see your fugly face, that's why, Ride." He snarled.

Back then, it would have hurt. It would have cut deep. But not now. Now I stood my ground, not blinking, just staring at him.

"You think you're so great. You're so full of shit, that's what you are. Thinking all high and mighty. You're no better than anyone else! Hell, I'm better than you! Completely better!" The vein in his neck was throbbing with rage.

"Then why was I the one who did the dumping?" I asked calmly, trying to back him into a corner- metaphorically, of course. "And you're right- I am no better than anyone else. At least I see that and don't act like an ass to people." I told him, referring to his behavior. "And, over the past year, I've improved myself." I got into a fighting stance after rolling my neck, cracking it. My hands were balled into fists. "So you want to fight, let's fight. But I won't be on the floor this time. You will. And I will show no mercy!"

He lunged at me and I spun, landing a roundhouse kick to his gut. I knocked him to the side and tried coming at me again. Why I ever dated this abusive asshole was beyond me. I think maybe it was because I was on the rebound from Fang leaving me. As he jumped at me, I rammed my fist into his cheek, snapping his head to the side. He stumbled and backed away, hand wiping his mouth while he laughed. "Well, well, you weren't joking." He started walking toward the door. "But just know, Max, I have ways." With that, he left my apartment.

I sighed and relaxed my tensed body. I went to the box and opened it, seeing everything destroyed. I had left clothes at his house and now they were all slashed. A picture of us was ripped and burned, my face no longer there but his intact. I ripped it to pieces.

I lifted the old notebook out and opened the pages, seeing blackened paper or blank paper.

Iggy's door opened.

"Is that your old song book?" Iggy asked, looking at the familiar blue cover.

I nodded and furiously threw it on the floor with a shriek of rage. He had destroyed my songs- deleting them from history. These were the only copies and he destroyed them- they weren't in my memory any more so I couldn't reproduce them even if I wanted to. Tears burned the back of my eyes and I sighed, spinning on my heel and heading to my bedroom.

I sat on my bed, breathing heavy. Tears fell from my eyes, all my memories of that horrible relationship coming back. These tears… Tears of Remembrance… always came whenever something reminding me of someone. Mostly William or Fang. Tears for William as fear or rage… tears for Fang as longing and sorrow.

My door opened and I immediately started wiping furiously at my eyes, embarrassed to be showing weakness. Arms wrapped around me and I almost broke down again.

"It's okay, Max. Remember what you told me? Follow your heart sometimes, not your mind? Follow your heart now and just let it go." Ella whispered to me.

I cried into her shoulder, my own shaking, body wracking with my silent sobs, her dress soaked from the tears. My arms wrapped around her, nails almost ripping apart the skin in her back, my emotions were so crazy.

I wasn't crying because of William showing up, or the fact he destroyed my past in my notebook…

I was crying because here I was crying and Fang wasn't here to comfort me like in the past.

He wasn't here holding me, wasn't here whispering reassuring words in my ear, wasn't here to just be here. Not like he used to…

I cried my Tears of Remembrance because the Fang I had loved was gone- he was in the past. The Fang I knew now wasn't the same one I fell in love with all those years ago.

I cried my Tears of Remembrance because images of a teenage Fang flew around in my head, memories swimming about, reminding me of what I once had. Of what was gone. Of what I couldn't ever have ever again. Ever.

Happy New Year, everyone! Hope this chapter was good for you!! I feel so sick, using William as her ex abusive boyfriend but I was running out of names. I would have used Dylan but I had already used him as a friend so...but William Pruitt. Ick!! Anyway, I'm sorry if this chapter is short for you but it's four am where I am and I'm exhausted. I'll update soon and I MIGHT create another story once I'm done with this one, IGYW, and Roommates. Here's what I'm thinking it could be:

Max is a rockstar. Fang is just a normal boy in a band with his friends. They have no idea that the other one exists...or the fact that they were made for each other. So when these two meet at a concert and immediately shart hating one another, what happens? What happens when Fate- or should I say Iggy, Nudge, Gazzy, and Angel- interferes? They wind up hacing to spend more time with one another than they like but they soon find out that they have more in common than they thought: like the fact that people will do anything to be with them, even break them apart first. What will happen to their lives when they're pulled apart after finally accepting one another?

So there's the really long summary. Heeheehee, that'll be posted at the beginning of every chapter, as a reminder. I'm already writing it out but I won't be posting it until after I'm done with everything else. I think I'm going to call it Rockstar Blues. But I'm not sure about that one yet...Anyway, review and let me know what you think about this chapter and the summary above. Would any of you read it??

~Amy-Katherine~