Chapter 11- running away from the pain (part one)
Disclaimer: I don't own Big time rush but someday they will take over the Jonas brothers fan base. Or just record a song with them
Warning: tons of drama
Lexi's P.O.V
The next morning started out as any other for me I woke up early for school. As usual I was the first one in the lobby. Soon after I sat down my boyfriend put his hands over my eyes. "Guess who", he said. Truthfully James did this to me every morning so I sat there and thought of a clever response. After a few moments I started to laugh. "Alright Diamond I know it's you I said still trying not to laugh. James started to laugh as he kissed my lips. He sat down next to me and we were too busy kissing to realize that our friends were standing behind us. Kendall and Carlos started to cough annoyingly while Logan was laughing. James and I broke our kiss. He started to blush while I was rubbing my neck awkwardly like Logan does when he is caught doing something that was awkward. After that little incident we went to class. Mrs. Collins gave back our book reports and I got an A+ because I worked extremely hard on it because everyone knows I'm a book worm. James received a B+. I was very proud of him. After class James and I were walking to my apartment. We were both horrified to see that someone broke into my apartment! When we walked in my mother was talking to a police officer. "Mom what happened", I cried as James held my hand. I don't know honey I just got home an hour ago she said as she whipped a tear. The officer brought my mother down stairs to see Mr. Bitters and ask him for a copy of the security cameras tapes. The officer told me to check my room and make a list of the things that were stolen. James and I searched my room looking for anything that was stolen. When we were done I looked at the list. The weird thing was that was my diary was stolen. If that got into the wrong hands there would be no telling what would happen. When James wasn't looking I shoved the note into my pocket. I didn't want him to know my diary was stolen because there was something's that he didn't need to know. I didn't want to lie to him but I had no choice. I needed to protect him and the guys from knowing the truth about how I truly felt about them leaving Minnesota to become big time rush. I felt awful and then I realized that there was stuff I had said about the guys that were hurtful that I didn't mean I was angry with them because before I dated James I wanted to date the quarter back at our old high school. I was upset because they told me that he was a jerk and I hadn't believed them until it was too late. I just hoped that my friends would never find out. That night I could barely sleep. I had three nightmares about my current situation. I somehow managed to fall back asleep.
James's P.O.V
I felt bad for Lexi and her mother. They were both going crazy cleaning up their apartment. I was surprised that none of Lexi's things were stolen. I mean when we walked in to her room it was a total pigs sty. I texted Lexi to make sure she was ok and then I went to bed. The next morning I woke up early even though it was Saturday. There was a package on the table that was addressed to me. As I opened it there was a small book and it had a sticky note on it that said:
IF YOU WANT TO Really KNOW WHO LEXI TRULY IS THEN READ THIS
- ANOMOUNUS
As I took the sticky note off there were three letters on the book. A-M-D. Those letters were Lexi's name Alexa Margret Dupree. This book in my hands must be her diary and as her boyfriend and I shouldn't read it but before I could stop myself. The anomounus person told me to read was folded.
Lexi's Diary
9/14/08
Dear Diary,
I can't believe the guy's! They are treating me like a baby all because I was asked out to the Home Coming dance by Ryan Stevens A.K.A the star of the foot ball team! I'm so sick of Kendall, James, Logan and Carlos! Seriously I want them to just butt out of my life and let me figure this out for myself. I love them all as brothers but they are ANOYING!
9/20/08
Dear Diary,
So the guys were right all along. Ryan was using me and basically humiliated me in front of the whole school. But thank God the guys showed up when they did! Carlos and Logan stayed with me while James and Kendall went to the parking lot with Ryan. I've never felt as loved by anyone. I'm truly blessed to have four great buddies by my side. I just wished I listened to them before it was too late. At least now I know who my true friends are. I probably knew that when I choose them to be my friends.
Back to James
I wasn't surprised that Lexi was truly grateful for having me and the guys in her life. But when I closed her diary a piece of paper fell out of the book. I set the book back on the table and bent down to receive the paper. My eyes widen when I read the message on the paper.
2/19/09
Dear Diary,
The boys are in HOLLYWOOD! Apparently Gustavo Rogue came to Minnesota looking for his next big come back band and he chooses Kendall. Kendall Knight the boy who dreamed of playing Hockey for the Minnesota Wild is now going to be a singer! I had always thought that James would be the one to become a singer. Mr. Pretty boy never stopped showing off his singing talent. Poor Logan he wanted to be a doctor not a singer and Carlos who would probably become a stunt double. I still can't get over the fact that they left and didn't tell me. The only reason why I know this is because Mrs. Garcia told me when I went over to Carlos's house to see if he wanted to hang out. I'm just angry that they didn't tell me in person. Kendall would give the excuse that he isn't good at goodbyes! Well I guess I would have cried when they told me. I don't know if I can forgive them for this. But If I ever see either of them again I won't talk to them. Besides they probably forgot about me anyways.
I just found out that my Dad is leaving for good this time. Mom is going to divorce him. I wish the guys were here though. They would help me get through this but I guess I have to forget about them now. I'm going into a slump and a depression. Mom also told me that we are moving after the divorce is settled. She got promoted to head nurse at Saint Leah general hospital. She found an apartment at the famous palm woods apartments which is home of the future famous stars. So I guess when she is at work during the day I'll be auditioning for different bands that are looking for a female guitarist/ vocalist. Wish me luck.
Back to James again
I didn't know that Lexi had really felt that way when we left. She had told us when she found out that she was surprised. Did Lexi lie to us? She lied to me about her diary being stolen! Basically I knew how she felt about hoe me and the guys warned her about Ryan. I was angry that she lied to me about her diary and about how was happy for us. I don't want to deal with this. But no sooner did that thought popped into my head there was a knock at the door. Not surprisingly my lying girlfriend was standing there. I opened the door to let her in but when she leaned in to kiss my check I went to sit down on the couch. "Ok James what's the matter", Lexi asked as she put her hand on my shoulder. I shrugged her hand off of my shoulder. Then I got up and went to the table and handed her the dairy. "How did you get this lexi", asked surprisingly? "It was delivered tome this morning", I replied quietly and making no eye contact with her. "You didn't read it did you", she asked angrily. Well if I did I guess I learned how you really felt when we", left I said still not looking at her. "I didn't tell you because I was trying to... But before she continue I interrupted her. "Don't you dare tell me that you were trying to protect me ok because the only person you were only protecting was yourself ", I shouted as I was facing her! "Well sorry I didn't tell you about how I was feeling ", she shouted back! Whatever I replied! We stood there in silence until Lexi walked out of the apartment. "That's right Lexi runaway like you always do when something happens", I yelled down the hallway so she would hear it! Suddenly she stooped in her tracks and turned around. She was defiantly crying. "Well at least I'm not acting like a humongous child and a jerk ", she shouted! I heard her apartment door slam shut! After the fight I sat down on the couch and watched TV. Kendall and the others were soon home and we all spent the night playing video games. The next morning I woke up and there was a folded piece of paper on my night stand. I opened it and this is what it said:
Dear James,
I'm so sorry about everything that happened. I wanted to tell you the truth so many times but I didn't want to screw this up. I know now that I screwed up big time. We've been through so much these pasts few months that I'm leaving and going to Minnesota to visit my Aunt and Uncle and their new baby girl. I'll be back in a couple of days. I think we need sometime apart so that's another reason why I am leaving but don't worry I'll be back in time to shoot the music video if Gustavo hasn't fired me buy then. Maybe by then we could figure out if our friendship/relationship is strong enough to get pass this wall. I love you so much and I know that your trust in me has failed. Did you notice that I wrote I Love You because I never said it to you before? Sorry for the delay I wanted to wait and see if what I was feeling was love and it is or was I don't know anymore. Goodbye for now James. –Lexi.
To be continued
Authors note:
I know you all are waiting to see what happens next but I'm afraid you'll have to wait until part 2 which is in chapter 12. Please don't be mad at me for breaking James and Lexi up again because they might get back together in a later chapter. So be on the lookout for chapter 12. Kendall, Carlos and Logan will have their point of views in chapter 12.