ANOTHER STORY FRO ALL OF YOU! I'M HEART BROKEN SO PLEASE BE GENTLE! I'M CRYING RIGHT NOW! :'( IT IS SO PAINFUL!
WHEN IT HURTS SMILE:
People who is shattered cried their hearts out every time they saw their love one loving someone they truly hate. Yes, it hurts I know that much. I really should have never love someone who's out of my reach. It so hard to forget one who can give my existence in this world a use, a use to be able to say it is worth living a life just seeing you. But it hurts more just thinking that person love someone who you consider the best person you can be friends for life. I never knew before how it can pained me to love someone, I just fell in love at the thought of falling in love, that's all I'm so oblivious that I want to kill myself for even believing that when you love someone they'll love you back.
I saw them again together. So happy.
They smile at each other not even noticing me. They are in their own world and they are not allowing me to get in. they a too preoccupied loving each other to notice I am hurting, just looking at them hurts.
They finally notice me. But not my aches.
"how are you doing Wolfram?" said my ex fiancée .
" just fine. You?" I know I had been masking my pain but I take the chance just talking to him, even though for a while. This moment I will thought that he's mine.
" mmmm…I'm great! " he's too happy with her that even thinking in my own useless world that he's mine.
"I'll be going now! I don't want to ruin your moment" and because I don't want you to see that it hurts and that I can feel my eyes tearing up because you're too happy with her…..
" wait Wolfram!" please Yuuri.. please..let me go..let me walk away…don't say those words I know you'll say.
"yes Your majesty?" I know I can't call you your name anymore because I'm only your subordinate and nothing more…
" don't call me that! It's Yuuri! …Wolf….thank you…" there it goes again..the pain when you said that.. I would cry but you are in front of me so I won't
" for what?" says I, but I am a fool for asking..because I know the answer and it will only hurt me but I would ask again and again to make sure that it is only a lie but it isn't.
" oh..Wolf, for giving me freedom to love…." O h Yuuri.. I didn't give you your freedom…you run away from me and I didn't get a chance to lock you up in my heart again..that's why it hurts..when you thank me because it is not true.
"no problem I'll be going now" and I smile…and he smile back…..I turn around and wave and continue to smile and then tears flowed out my eyes as I swear to myself that when it hurts.. I'll smile. So that I can fool myself that it was all a twisted joke….
Smile. Smile. Smile. Something I know how to fake but to him I can't, to him it won't,to him it couldn't fake. Why? Because I love him more than I love my life.
The end..
Another one shot! God it hurts to write this when it is happening to me! Please review! I'll wait maybe it will mend through time! Bye bye!