A/N: I know it has been 57 days and I'm freakin' SORRY! But this one is really long :D

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PS: Their conversation in the beginning was rewritten at least fifteen times, so if it's horrible, I'm Sorry :S

PPS: Random Song Quote that I love:

Oh my friend, we're older but no wiser, for in our hearts the dreams are still the same. -Mary Hopkin, Those were the days

Chapter 7

Rose's point of view

After lunch we all went to Dimitri and my room and Lissa and Christian helped collect our stuff and drag it to the Dragomir wing. Christian had already moved into the prince/princess suite with Lissa, and we got a (way too huge) suite down the didn't take us long to get everything into the new apartment and I was quite annoyed to have to pack everything up again after just having unpacked.

Our new home had one huge master-bedroom with a private bathroom. In the luxurious bathroom there was a jacuzzi tub that was almost as big as our king-sized four-poster bed. We also had a kitchen with an adjoining dining room. Both were way too big and luxurious, but my best friend insisted. Last there were two empty bedrooms, a living room, another bathroom and a separate toilet.

It was all beautiful and surprisingly modern. The master-bedroom was held in black and white, with patches of purple here and there. On the floor, there was a thick white fitted carpet and I loved walking around on it especially when I was barefoot.

When we were finally done I put on a nightie and cuddled up on the comfortable bed with my Russian god. "Comrade?", I asked before he could fall asleep. "Do you think it's a girl or a boy?" He seemed pretty surprised at my question. "I don't know. I want a girl though. A tiny little you.", he told me with one of his rare full smiles.

I could imagine him with a little girl. He'd be like play dough in her tiny hands. I could see myself scolding my daughter for eating sweets before having dinner, and him handing her a cookie behind my back, just because he couldn't resist her pout. I smiled at the mental image. "But I want a boy. A little boy who looks just like you. And I have the feeling that it is a boy.", I said.

"You're wrong. It's a girl.", he disagreed. I shook my head. I wanted a boy who looked just like Dimitri, and I wanted to name him after Mason. "I know it's a boy, comrade. He's inside my belly so I know better. And I don't think you want another me. The world wouldn't be able to handle another Hathaway woman. Plus, she'd be the most spoiled little monster in the world because of you. You would be play dough in her hands", I grinned.

He just rolled his eyes at me. "Firstly, don't call my daughter a monster, secondly, I PUT her there, so I know BEST, and thirdly, I'm already play dough in your hands.", damn, he really did want a girl very much, and now I hoped it was a girl, too, just so he'd be happy. The odds were on his side, seeing as my mother's mother had only had a girl, my mum had only had a girl, and Dimitri's mother had three girls.

I decided I didn't care if we had a boy or a girl. It was stupid to think about such a negligibility when I was barely two weeks along. Anything could happen to my little comrade. With that last thought I fell into a deep sleep.

The next morning we got up early, dressed in our Guardian Uniforms and went to guard Lissa and Pyro. They insisted we had breakfast together and then we sat down in the Dragomir main living room to read the rest of Anna's diary. Adrian came too, seeing as he wanted to learn more about Spirit. I sat beside Dimitri and handed him the folder.

Taking turns to read aloud seemed like a good idea, and Dimitri started.

"So, Guys, this one was written a few weeks after the first one... with the aura thing.", he said before he started reading,

"Dear Diary,

I've decided I cannot postpone it any longer. Vladimir told me that if I don't tell Alexei soon, he will...but I'm so scared. Of course he already has noticed that something is off, but I can't just bring myself to tell him. He will leave me, I can feel it."

For a moment I really hoped Anna was wrong, but Dimitri didn't give me time to wonder, he just kept reading.

"I asked Vladimir why he wants me to keep this diary. He seemed annoyed at my question, and gave me a very confusing answer. Even though he has learned to read my thoughts and emotions as well as I can read his, he doesn't think it's necessary to explain anything to me. Whatever I ask him, his answer is always some cryptic nonsense. He said, and I quote 'This will help someone who needs this information in the future. Nothing you need to worry about.', he really is frustrating.

I will tell Alexei tomorrow evening when we have time off together. I cannot postpone it any longer.

Well, this was short.", Dimitri said and handed the book to Lissa. "Hmm, he has learned to read her thoughts?", she asked with her eyes on me. "Looks like it. Why don't you try?" I suggested. She nodded and closed her eyes in concentration.

"Okay, repeat what I'm thinking.", I said experimentally repeating 'Christian Ozera has a tiny dick', In my head. I knew she had succeeded when her eyes flew open and she glared at me. "Rose! I will not repeat that! You have such a dirty mind, ew.", she complained. I chuckled.

Dimitri and Christian looked back and forth between the two of us, but we didn't bother to explain. Let them think whatever they want.

"Don't even think about abusing this new little power of yours. Princess or not, I do not want you in my head all the time, especially not at night. Some things aren't good for your innocent eyes.", I warned her, only half serious.

She rolled her eyes, but nodded and started reading, "Dear Diary,

I told Alexei today. He did not believe me...he shouted at me and called me some horrible things. I feel so torn up inside. What am I going to do without him? I cannot raise a child alone...I just can't. And I don't know if I can live without him for very long. I can feel spirits darkness seep into me and I wonder what is happening to me. It is as if negative feelings make it worse, but how could that be possible? Vladimir never said anything about my own feelings having to do with spirits darkness...

So many questions and not a single answer. Alexei is leaving to go to his sister for a while, and he told me he won't come back. Vladimir told me that I have to get through this. I've been trying not to let the madness get me, but I feel like I'm standing at world's end, and a tiny push will bring me over the edge."

Looks like Anna had been through hell because of this Alexei dude. I wondered how nobody had ever heard of him. I could imagine only too well how she must have felt.

There were many more entries, all of them short, and each of them stranger, sadder, and more melancholic than the last. She would occasionally write completely senseless stuff like Adrian would sometimes start babbling nonsense. We took turns reading though, feeling like we needed to know all of it.

Anna explained her days at Vladimir's castle, how she handled her pregnancy – which was making her moodier than ever, queasy, strange and hungry –, how she dealt with the darkness and loneliness. When she explained Vladimir dying Lissa teared up and I was close. A sorrowful silence engulfed the room.

One of the last few sheet protectors in the folder held an entry which made my fears come true.

It was my turn to read, and this page was full of dried stains of something. Tears? They made the whole thing blurry and hard to read. Her writing didn't seem so neat anymore.

"Dear Diary,

Alexei is dead. He was in a carriage accident.", my voice broke a little but I kept reading "I have had enough. I will not write again. This is my last entry. I cannot take it anymore, now that Vladimir is dead. He killed himself just to escape this madness and left me all alone. I have been trying to stay alive for long enough now.

I have had enough pain... There is no point! Not anymore, not for me. I cannot take care of this child when I can't even think clearly. Today I am going to attack a strigoi hideout I have located. I am going alone and I don't care that I am pregnant.

At least I will do something meaningful before I go...I will use the darkness for fighting again, it is the only thing it's good for. I don't want to live without Alexei and Vladimir, everything seems so lifeless and depressing...

There seems to be no life or happiness in the world.", I paused and looked around, fighting tears that threatened to spill over. Lissa buried her face in Christians shoulder and sobbed quietly. I gulped and finished it quickly,

"There is only darkness...and it's swallowing me.

I'm surrounded by people all the time...but how come I feel so alone? I don't want to feel so alone.", the entry ended and I turned the page curiously. Surely Anna hadn't gone to Strigoi to let them kill her and her baby, had she?

But there was nothing. The last few sheet protectors held no copies of entries. They held papers and photos. Things like Anna's graduation diploma and birth certificates. There was also a death announcement for each of them, but nothing about Alexei.

I checked the dates. The death announcement was dated one day after the last entry in the diary. There was no birth certificate for a baby born in that year.

It seemed Saint Vladimir's Anna had not only killed herself, but also her unborn child.

After Vladimir committed suicide and her love left her alone and pregnant. The only thing I could suddenly think about was 'This could be me. It's all seems to be happening again. I'm shadowkissed, I'm with another dhampir, I'm pregnant...-'

'Rose! Why are you crying?', someone snapped me out of my daze. I blinked and unconsciously touched my cheek and then looked at my hand. Sure enough, it came away glistening with tears. Jeez, now I was even crying! Soon I'm gonna eat like a - "EARTH TO ROSE!", Dimitri shouted, making me finally look at him.

"Thank god she hasn't left us yet. Jeez, what's up with you?", Christian asked. I shook my head and angrily wiped away the stupid tears with the back of my hand.

We all had lunch together, not talking much. Everyone was still thinking about Anna. Another few hours later, after dinner, our shifts ended and everyone went to do their thing I went to the bedroom and sat on the bed, looking at my hands and wondering. Why did we only now find out those things about Anna? Thinking about what she had done made me shudder. Would I do this if I ever got out of control like that? Would I go crazy if Lissa died before I did?

I remembered the one time when I was at my worst, overwhelmed with darkness and completely out of control...consumed by anger and blood lust. That day Dimitri had helped me, though, and I could recall how focused and controlled I had felt later, like he had taken the darkness away and put it away into a box. But would he really always be there to protect me? And what would happen if one day he wasn't? Would I hurt innocents?

"Roza?", Dimitris soft voice snapped me out of the daze I had been in "please talk to me. Are you okay?" I blinked and finally looked at him. "Huh?", I asked.

He sighed "Rose you haven't been listening or talking to anyone since we finished with that diary. Are you that sad because of Anna? We already knew she committed suicide." I flinched. "It's not that. It's just...I'm scared because I might end up like her. What if Lissa dies before I do? Will I go crazy too...?" He was shaking his head before I had finished talking "That won't happen. You're stronger than her and you have me. I won't let anything happen to you, I promise.", he said, pulling me onto his lap and kissing my forehead.

I felt a little better. At least Dimitri didn't think I had cheated on him or something crazy like that. Plus, I won't let Lissa die first. Moroi live longer than Dhampirs anyway...

"It's gonna be fine. I won't let anything happen to you. Something in that last entry is making me wonder." he started, effectively distracting me from my worries. I tried to raise an eyebrow at him and failed. He chuckled at my pout "She said 'I will use the darkness for fighting'. Do you have any idea what that could mean?", he asked curiously.

Use the darkness for fighting. Could it be possible that Anna drew strengh from the darkness and used it to fight? That sounded pretty dangerous – what if she lost control of it and it consumed her? Maybe that was what had happened... "I haven't tried that before, but I guess it could be possible. I mean, using the darkness for fighting. We could try it out sometime.", I said, already plotting.

"No wait", he cut me off "I know you're planning already, and I don't think it's a good idea. It could be dangerous. Maybe doing this is what made Anna lose it."

"But it's worth a try.", I argued. He shook his head immediately. "Please? We'll just go to the gym and I'll see if I can do anything with it. Please Please I want to try it out. ", I tried. He groaned "Okay, fine. But if anything goes wrong you'll stop immediately. No evasions.", he said in his annoying mentor-y tone. I rolled my eyes theatrically and pulled him along with me.

When we arrived in the Gym I told him to wait and then attack me when I gave him a sign. Somehow I knew exactly what I was supposed to do. I closed my eyes and concentrated on the feeling I had so long ago gotten used to, a slight hum, like an almost unnoticeable pressure on my chest. When Dimitri drew in a shocked breath, I knew it was working.

Opening my eyes, I looked down at my body. A strange dark smoke was around me, and it looked like it was visible to Dimitri too. "Attack me.", I commanded.

He hesitated, but lunged at me nonetheless, going for my left side. I dodged quickly and roundhouse kicked him on the chest. He stumbled a little from the impact and attacked me again. It was working, I could feel the strength I had. I was able to block every time he attacked without even breaking a sweat.

A few minutes later I got bored. My leg swept out, connecting with his ankles and throwing him off balance immediately. The next thing he knew, he was on the ground, flat on his back with my stake right over his heart. "Dead.", I whispered in astonishment. It had been way too easy. I got off him and he sat up.

"Rose?", he asked breathlessly "Whatever you just did, you should definitely use it against Strigoi." I grinned. "So you didn't just let me win?", I asked, already knowing the answer. "No way. But...you were surrounded with some gray smoke...did you realize that? And how do you feel?", he asked. I nodded "Yeah. It looked creepy. But I'm not sure if that just helped releasing the darkness. I feel completely normal, other than the fact that I'm really hungry."

He rolled his eyes "When aren't you hungry?", he asked. I glared at him "I'm eating for two! I can be hungry all I want. Now get your lazy ass up and get food!" He grinned, but got up and a few minutes later I was stuffing my face with delicious pepperoni pizza.

* *R**~VA~**D* *

The next day we started planning. It was crazy, every day was a blur of decisions. Decide on the colors, the opening song, the dresses, bridesmaids, flowers, exact locations for this and that... I wanted to freak out. I would have, If it hadn't been for Dimitri always reminding me of how much I loved him. Which wasn't hard, really, I just had to think about him to remember why I was going through that hell.

Lissa thought it was fun to organize, but me? Let me fight a bunch of evil monsters and I'll be happy, but planning stuff was really not something I enjoyed.

Dimitri and I had even started talking about names, but we weren't sure yet. We were thinking about Ivan or Mason for a boy, in remembrance of our lost friends. Both of us also liked William. He insisted on thinking about girl names, too which I found ridiculous seeing as I felt exactly that my baby was a boy.

He was throwing around the names Lily, Jasmine, Blossom, Camille and other flower names. I did not like them at all. If I really had a daughter she would certainly not have a flower name...I just wasn't sure what girl names I liked. Oh well. It's a boy anyway.

A few weeks later

Time was passing too slowly. We now had two days left for the wedding and both me and Lissa had found the dresses, picked the flower decoration, the cake, had decided where and how exactly everything was going to be done.

We weren't moving to Saint Vladimir's academy after all – the Queen wanted Lissa around to teach her politics and Christian of course would be with Lissa. He was going to start teaching a class for Moroi so that they could learn how to fight. Everyone who wanted could participate and I was going to help him with teaching them physical fighting, without there magic when I became too big to guard Lissa.

As I'd expected, Comrade was becoming horrifyingly overprotective, and I was only approximately five weeks along. I hoped he'd get over it after the wedding and our first appointment with the doctor (Which was after the honeymoon). I wasn't really showing and my dress made the incredibly tiny bump (which looked more like I'd eaten a little too much this morning) I had disappear.

I didn't have any morning sickness yet, though I was tiring a bit too easy for my liking. I couldn't even train, either, because my dear overprotective fiance wouldn't let me do anything but run (carefully) and swim (carefully). Sometimes he still let me lift weights and kick the hell out of a punching bag, but only if he was around. I was starting to get frustrated with him.

If I didn't love him so much, I'd have punched him by then, and I suspected he was probably going to start baby-talking in Russian soon. The thought made me want to kiss him. Or hit him. I wasn't sure.

* *R**~VA~**D* *

Two days later

This was probably the most talked-about wedding in Moroi/Dhampir history.

The last Dragomir princess (who possessed the long forgotten power of spirit, which enabled her to bring back the dead, heal injuries, see auras and visit other people's dreams) was marrying Lord Christian Ozera, whose parents had willingly become Strigoi.

Added to that, it was a double wedding where the other couple consisted of two Dhampirs, who were said Dragomir princess and Ozera Lord's guardians. By the way, those two Dhampirs could miraculously have children together.

And as if the mess wasn't crazy enough, one of the Dhampirs was a former Strigoi and the other had died once. Oh yeah, and, before I forget: The Dhampir guy was the former mentor of his bride, who in return was seven years younger than him.

Yeah, we were a messed-up bunch.

"What are you smiling at?", Lissa asked nervously. We were walking down the aisle together in half an hour. I quickly explained my thoughts to her and she laughed. "Oh Rose...you're the only one who could make me laugh in a situation like this." I rolled my eyes "What situation? We're just getting married.", I told her with my trademark devil-may-care smirk. "Geez Rose. Just shut up and walk me down the aisle.", she shot back.

"I think you got it wrong, sweetie. YOU are the one walking ME down the aisle.", I countered.

Before she could give me her smart ass reply, a familiar voice interrupted, "Why don't I walk the two of you down the aisle?", I spun around, and there he was. My mobster dad, Abe Mazur. He had been a surprisingly awesome father in the past few weeks.

He'd given me a credit card (an unlimited one that I could use for anything I wanted) and was spending time with me and Dimitri (and sometimes even mom) almost every weekend. In the beginning, we had taken Lissa and Christian to avoid awkward silences, but now that was not necessary anymore. I finally had my parents and they were spending time with me. I had everything I had ever dreamed of and more.

"Daddy!", I squealed and threw my arms around him, only now realizing how much I'd missed him. "Hello there kizim.", he said and hugged me back, surprised at me calling him daddy for the first time.

"You really want to walk us down the aisle, Mr Mazur? Both of us? TOGETHER? Like, at the same time?", Lissa fired her questions at him excitedly. Geez, you'd think he asked for a threesome with the two of us. I shuddered at the thought. Rose you have such a dirty mind! I swear you are so, so, so EW!

Yeah, she'd learned to read my mind.

'Of course Vasilisa. Unless you don't want me to. And I told you to call me Abe or Dad. You and Rose are just like sisters, and Rose is my daughter.' Instead of blushing like I expected she grinned and shrieked 'FINE! But do NOT call me Vasilisa. It's Lissa, Dad.' I giggled at her outburst, then turned back to Abe. "Dad, that would be awesome. Thanks so much." He smiled, "Thank you kizim. For letting me be a part of your life even though I missed the first eighteen years of it."

* *R**~VA~**D* *

The church was so full that it was almost too full. Lissa had had to invite two to three members of each royal family. Then there were my parents, Eddie, Abe, Mia, a few guardians, Dimitris family, Jillian 'Jailbait' Mastrano and her mother, Adrian... the whole gang and more. The guest list was way too long but I was very surprised to see that four certain people had made it: Tamara, Lev, Denis and Artur.

Yes, I had invited my Strigoi hunting gang, and they were more than surprised to find out what had happened since they had seen me last. I realized that they had thought I'd be dead or Strigoi by now, and a week after sending the wedding invitation I had received a call from four astonished Russians, demanding to know if I trying to spoof them them.

Abe took our hands and led us down the aisle. As finally saw Dimitri, for the first time in a week (Because Lissa thought it would make the honeymoons better if we all didn't see each other for a week. I did NOT like that idea and neither did Christian and Dimitri, but she'd camped out in my room all the time and it had been fun, just like old times.) I couldn't help smiling like an idiot. He was smiling back at me, looking as dashing as ever in his tux, with his long brown hair tied neatly at the nape of his neck.

Darn it, I'd tried to persuade him to not tie it today, but does ever listen to me? Of course not.

Finally we reached them and Abe placed my hand in Dimitri's and Lissa's in Christian's. Then he went to his seat. I barely even glanced at Christian; I only had eyes for my Comrade.

Who cared that the whole Moroi world was badmouthing about our relationships? I was used to being talked about, and both Christian and Dimitri would get over it soon, too. We were the biggest bad ass guardians around after all. Who cared about gossiping Moroi? Definitely not me.

Before the priest started the traditional procedure, he asked 'Is there anyone here who objects to the marriage of these people? If so speak now or forever hold your peace.' I finally ripped my gaze off Dimitris eyes and looked around in the church, hissing 'Don't even think about it, y'all.' There were a few chuckles but nobody said a word. Good for them.

The rest of the ceremony passed in a blur, and suddenly I found myself saying "I do.", with tears glistening in my eyes. Father Andrew declared us husbands and wives and then said "You may kiss the brides.", Christian and Lissa kept it simple and short because of the royal audience, but I ignored them all and threw my arms around Dimitri's neck, kissing him so passionately that the world around us disappeared. When he pulled away – at least five minutes later – I pouted and he grinned.

We held the reception at the huge lawn behind the church. Round tables and chairs were set up and in the middle there was a big free space – the dance floor. The opening song was Shania Twain's Forever and for Always, a song we had all agreed on with one consent after Lissa had suggested it.

After that song, I danced with Christian, my Dad, Adrian and any other guy who could say the words 'Can I cut in?', without getting slapped by me or killed by Dimitri. Finally I saw a face I'd missed a lot. I had hardly seen him in the past few weeks. 'Can I cut in?', he asked. I grinned 'You know, Eddie, I've heard this sentence at least fifty times today, but this is the one time I'm happy to hear it.', I told him. He smiled back, and it was just like old times.

While I danced with him, Dimitri went to take his turn with Karolina so I could talk to my old friend again for the first time in what seemed like years, but was actually only a few weeks. 'So, Hathaway. This is it, huh? You're married now', he said, spinning me around. 'It's Belikova now.', I corrected with a smile.

'I never thought I'd see the day you would get married. But I guess I shouldn't be so surprised. You never do what people expect you to do.', he grinned. 'I can only agree with that, my friend.', I answered with a cheeky smile.

A little while after that, we cut the humongous cake and I ate three pieces of it. It was delicious, filled with chocolate and strawberries. Around midnight we had to go. It was time to go to the airport.

'Promise to not get killed and buy me something tasty in Paris.', I told Lissa before we boarded the plane.

She giggled 'Of course, Rose. Have fun and get a nice tan in Jamaica.' 'I will', I responded with a cheeky smile. We hugged a last time and then were off to the plane. Of course Abe had to get us his private jet, full with bedrooms, bathrooms, kitchen, fully stocked bar and flat-screen TVs.

"I can't believe the old man is really giving us his private jet.", I exclaimed as we took off. Dimitri smiled one of his rare full smiles "I can't believe he owns a private jet."

A/N: Anonymous reviewer Cjrose: Thanks for the review, but I don't understand what you mean. Your review is a jumble of letters I don't get. Care to explain?

A BIG, MONSTROUS THANK YOU TO: kittenxxkisses! Your reviews are so awesome I could kiss you for them! I want more of those! To everyone, GO READ HER STORY 'You did WHAT?', It's so cool =)

So guys, I have no idea what to do about the honeymoons, so I guess I'll skip it altogether, unless you can help me of course :D

Questions: (Please leave the questions standing beside the answers when you review, it confuses me to read a yes/no beside a number. Just copy and paste ;D And delete what's in the parentheses, thanks)

1.: Do you guys like the outfits and stuff I picked out? (There's even Dimitri and Rose's place for the honeymoon!)

2.: Are you suspecting anything? (about what I'm planning)

3.: Liked this chapter? Why/Why not?

4.: How about the song they dance to, Forever and for Always?

6.: Preferred Genders and Names? (I LOVE William 3 But I'm not sure about girl names.)