Disclaimer: I don't own anything familiar but I do own four pairs of raggedy old converse.
Rated: M for future Fem-Slash loving.
Title: Can't Go Back
EPOV
I'll let Bella have her space but I know I'll get her back. She's mine and she better not take long coming back to me.
I knew I could only love her of all people because her thoughts were a complete mystery.
I knew I deserved way more than this clumsy human but her scent made up for it and luckily my family members didn't laugh at me for it as I knew James probably had. I deserve more than Bella but she will do.
She's lucky to have an Adonis like me and shouldn't expect to be changed to have me forever because I am not hers to have. She is mine to own and she will continue worshiping me like I deserve.
I sat in my room pounding my emotions out on my piano keys.
When I started playing something more melancholy Alice's thoughts entered my mind:
She doesn't want to see me . . . but what Edward did was far worse. She doesn't want to see me. She doesn't want to see me.
Her thoughts just kept repeating. Atleast Bella was more mad at her for something. She couldn't focus all her anger on me and I could easily win back her heart. I continued working on my piece through the night.
BPOV
I woke up an hours early screaming deafeningly due to nightmares of the Cullen's leaving and Victoria attacking me.
I took a long cold shower to wake myself up and got dressed in my usual comfy sweats. As I pulled on my shirt there was a loud knock on my door.
"Bells I'm going to work a little early today."
I kind of felt guilty because Charlie's been going to work early everyday because of my screams have been waking him.
"Do you want me to make you breakfast?"
I opened the door before he could speak so he just nodded.
I walked downstairs carefully and went to the kitchen. I quickly made a serving of bacon and eggs. I sat across from Charlie, handed him his plate and nibbled on an apple.
"So the Cullens are back . . ."
I nodded as he searched my face for any emotion.
"That means Edward is back . . ."
I nodded and decided now would be the best time to tell him.
"I broke up with him."
Charlie smiled but tried to hide it quickly.
"Jacob should be here to drop you off soon kiddo. Are you gonna get dressed?"
I gave him a dirty look and dead panned him.
"I am dressed."
He coughed and raised his eyebrows.
"Oh...it's just that you've been wearing sweats since...they left."
I frowned apprehensively.
"There comfortable."
He raised his hands in defeat.
"Whatever floats your boat. I hope you have a good day."
He patted my back and left.
I picked up his plate and put it in the sink. I figured I had a while until Jake got here so I started washing the dishes.
A few minutes after I was done there was a pounding on the door I sped over and opened it.
"Hey Jake are you trying to break my door?"
He smiled cockily.
"I haven't tamed these guns yet. Anyway your chariot awaits. I fixed the rabbit."
I hugged him that he was hotter than usual. Must of been because the Cullen's were back.
"Finally now I can ride alone."
I smiled so he knew I was kidding.
"You can drive me there today if you want."
We walked to my car and he took the wheel.
"So I smelled the Cullen's in your house. They're back?"
I noticed his anger was more guarded than it had been before.
"Its okay Jake they were just apologizing. I'm not friends with them anymore."
He grined widely as he pulled into the student parking lot. I kissed his cheek.
"Thanks for fixing my car Jake."
He blushed and nodded goofily.
As he exited the car a blur came over and I felt the truck being pushed. I got out the car and saw Edward holding Jake around the neck.
"She is mine!"
I was livid.
"Edward we are over. Let him go. NOW!"
Edward hissed at Jacob and after a few seconds shoved him away. Jake growled and tackled him to the ground.
"Jacob Black get off of him. You are not a dog!"
He whimpered and got up shaking then ran off.
Edward was beside me in a second.
"Ill give you your space but you will not talk to any filthy mutt."
I scowled at him. "Edward leave me alone and get your head out of your sparkly ass. I DUMPED YOU!"
His gold eyes darkened into the darkest shade of onyx.
"Ill give you a little more space but I will be back."
Before I could protest he was gone. I stood there for a minute feeling extremely parinoid. I tensed when I saw Alice across the lot looking at me with hopeful eyes. She started walking towards me and I paniced. I can't let any Cullen back in my life.
I sped to my first period class to avoid the situation hoping Alice would get the hint. I leaned against the building wondering what had gotten into Edward's head. Why couldn't he just let me go?
The campus started getting filled so I distracted myself by counting how many people stared at me as they walked by. The bell interrupted my count and as tempted as I was to cut I willed myself not to and walked into class. I sat in the back and pulled out my study materials.
As I started the book work and heard the chair beside me scrape against the cold floor. I looked to my side and saw Alice looking very fashionable as usual but still unkempt in a way. Her eyes were tired looking and darker than usual. What is she doing at school if she hasn't hunted?
"Bella I'm sorry. Please let me expla-"
I couldn't deal with her apology right now because I knew if she finished I'd be crying in front of everyone. I grabbed my stuff and ran out of the class without asking my teacher which caused him to run out.
"Isabella!"
I turned around hastily thinking of an excuse.
"I'm going to puke."
His eyes widened and he pointed to the nurses office. When he went back into the room I figure it was safe to walk. As soon as I got there I started crying my eyes out. The bell rang so to aviod being questioned I left before the nurse came in.
I walked to the lot and sat in my truck thinking about Alice and Edward for two periods. My phone rang
."Bells I got a call saying you cut."
Charlie's voice wasn't that concerned because I have cut quite a few times since they left. But everytime I needed an excuse.
"It was hard seeing Edward."
He sighed but I knew he was probably estatic.
"I don't want you cutting but if you're going to, call me. You're grounded."
I really didn't care if I was grounded.
"Ok...bye dad."
As soon as I hung up, my door opened. It was Edward with a very temperamental and determined.
"Bella I know you're mad at us for everything but I have given you your space. Come back to me."
He looked like he was ready to snap. Maybe it was because he missed me so much or he was crazy. I wanted things to be normal.
"Fine."
He smiled but looked a little surprised.
"I'll pick you up after school."
He never asked me what I wanted. I should be used to it by now but it was only more aggravating.
"Whatever but Charlie might shoot you."
I wish he did and that it actually did some damage. He ignored the hope I knew was evident in my voice and laughed. I might as well go home now since Charlie knows I cut. Edward offered to come with but I waved him off.
I drove home just focusing on what was ahead of me. I finally got home and walked up to my room. I was surprised to see my scrapbook on my shelf with a note:
I'm sorry.
I knew it was from Alice because of the flawless cursive she always wrote in. I picked it up and looked through the pictures.
I saw pictures of me and Edward. He always wore that annoying cocky grin I hated and I was there barely smiling.
After turning a few pages I saw pictures of me and Alice. I always loved her smile. Her eyes light up when she smiled. Her arms were around me and I was blushing. I always seemed to blush around her. This picture was taken on my birthday. It was like the calm before the storm. I missed Alice much more than I actually realized.
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A/N There will be no Bella Jacob relationship at all for those concerned about the kiss on the cheek. Was the emotions realistic? Was I descriptive enough? Was there anything you didn't like or I could improve in?