Summary: Alice and Edward comeback expecting everything to be the same but why is Bella so angry with Alice? Why does Alice care so much? Will Edward's true self show when he finds out the truth? AU Fem-Slash Bellice Early New Moon.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything familiar but I do own four pairs of raggedy old converse.
Rated: M for future Fem-Slash loving.
Title: Can't Go Back
BPOV
I managed to slip into a dreamless sleep which I desperately needed but was woke up when I felt like I was being watched. My sense of surrounding has been damn near perfect since I was so used to being around vampires. Even though I knew it was Edward I couldn't help the wave of fear that went through me. His prescence seemed to make me feel so uncomfortable. I hated that he thought my crazy heartbeat was a good thing because it absolutely wasn't.
"Bella it's time to go, get dressed."
I got up reluctantly and had to try very hard not to glare at him. I grabbed some clothes that for once weren't sweats and changed in the bathroom.
As soon as I walked out the bathroom he picked me up and ran to his home. I would've been paniced at him grabbing me without warning but it was so Edward of him to do. He always ran too fast. I was so tempted to puke on him purposely. I tamed my upset stomach and moved out of his arms when he stopped in the livingroom.
Everyone was in the there including Alice who I expected to hate me by now. She was wearing a deep blue silky v neck blouse, tight black skiny jeans, and flats. She smiled brightly and nervously at me. I blushed and looked away.
Edward cleared his throat and spoke.
"She's mine again."
I frowned at his possessiveness while Esme smiled and caught me off guard by pulling me into her arms.
I almost felt guilty when I winced. She pulled back and looked at me with pity filled eyes.
"I'm so sorry Bella."
I shrugged trying not to tear up at her concern. After taking a few calming breaths I looked at everyone.
"I really don't know what to say, I'm really angry but I don't hate you. Please give me time."
They all nodded respectfully and after a few awkward seconds of standing there quietly they all went back to what they were doing before I showed up.
Edward grabbed my hand and pulled me to the couch. I sat there cuddled up to him against my will feeling extremely pissed off.
A snarl caused me to look over at Jasper whose eyes were pitch black. I was about to apologize and calm down but my phone rang.
"Hey Bella. Wanna come to the res for a bonfire tomorrow?"
Before I could respond Edward growled, grabbed my phone and crushed it.
"I told you not to talk to that mutt!"
I stood up enraged.
"You don't control my life! I don't want you!"
He snarled loudly grabbed me and grabbed my wrist painfully. I was prepared to do something stupid like punch him but was distracted when I saw a blur and Edward being pinned to the wall to by Alice."
YOU WILL NOT TOUCH HER!"
Alice's eyes were pitch black and she was growling furiously. Her fingernails were leaving marks in his neck. Emmet tried to pull her off but it was no use she kept choking him even if it wouldn't really affect him.
I walked up to her timidly. I have never seen Alice so scary even when she killed James.
"Alice."
Her eyes lightened when she looked at me but darkened completely when looked at the quickly formed bruises on my wrist. She snarled so loudly my ears began to ring. Alice picked Edward up and slammed him into the ground. Edward looked calm but a few seconds later his eyes darkened.
"WHAT DID YOU JUST THINK!..HURT YOUR MATE?"
He flipped her over and socked her in the stomach repeatedly. Blood was trickling down her chin.
"EDWARD STOP IT RIGHT NOW!"
Esme's scream rang throughout the house. Edward kept hitting Alice until Emmett finally got him off of her. I ran to her feeling guilt and worry.
"Oh my god Alice, are you okay?"
She looked completely heartbroken.
"Please don't hate me."
I frowned and pulled her into my arms.
"I could never hate you."
I heard a snarling sound and looked up at Edward.
"Bella you won't be talking to her either!"
I was irritated by all of this and couldn't take it any longer.
"Edward it's over. I am not property. Either be my friend or leave me the hell alone!"
He laughed darkly and had a crazed look in his eyes.
"I guess you need more space."
He ran away before anyone could respond.
The amount of emotions I felt were so overwhelming. Jasper was rocking in the corner his eyes were completely black. Esme and Carlisle went to him and I felt even more guilty.
Alice was staring at me nervously but I knew any other time Alice would already be hugging me and telling me that everything would be okay. I needed her comfort.
"Why didn't you tell me how you felt?"
She looked like she was having trouble finding her words.
"I didn't know really until instinct kicked in. I knew I was very fond of you but not to what extent. I know it's a lot to process but no matter what I will protect you. But luckily Edward is going to Alaska for a while."
She was right it was a lot to process.
"I guess I should go."
Esme walked over.
"Bella you are family. You are always welcome here. But if you really want I'll take you home because Alice needs to hunt."
I expected her to lead me to her car but she carried me on her back and ran at a surprisingly comfortable pace to my room.
"Esme can you tell Alice I want to talk to her after she hunts please."
She nodded and left. I tried to stay awake until Alice came but I unwillingly fell into a dreamless void.
I woke up and felt cool fingers on my face. I opened my eyes and saw Alice smiling down at me. The second she saw I was awake she pulled back ashamed.
"Sorry for invading your space."
I smiled to reassure her.
"Its okay. Alice I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for pushing you away. You're my bestfriend and I shouldn't have hurt you."
She winced when I said bestfriend.
How could she feel anything more than friendship for me? I'm so plain.
"What happened with you and Jasper?"
She looked even more ashamed.
"He's hurt but he understands. Bella I know you don't feel for me. I'll try and act normal but it's hard for me."
I felt so guilty.
"Don't change I don't want you to have to guard yourself around me. Can you stay with me?"
She nodded and sat in the chair across from my bed. I found myself staring into her calming gold eyes and dozing off to sleep.
"Bella . . . Bella wake up."
I opened my eyes and saw Alice smiling at me with adoration in her eyes. I blushed invouluntarily and went to the bathroom to dress.
As we walked down the stairs Alice froze and started growling and someone started pounding on the door. I opened it knowing it was Jake.
"Hey Jake?"
He glared at Alice who was behind me.
"What is she doing here?"
I sighed not really wanting to deal with this.
"She's here because I want I want her to be."
He grimaced obviously not understanding why I would want her near me.
"So what happened with you and The Leech?"
I knew my response would calm him even if he had no chances with me.
"I broke up with him."
Jake smiled hopefully.
"Oh...you wanna hang out sometime?"
Alice stood in front of me before could say anything and snarled. I hugged her from behind and rested my chin on her head.
"Of course we can hangout . . . as friends."
He frowned and looked at Alice suspiciously.
"Do you want me to take you to school?"
Alice cut me off before I spoke.
"No I will be taking her to school . . . I mean Bella do you want me to take you to school?"
I smiled a bit widely. Even if she felt for me like Edward supposedly did she always gave me a choice.
"Yes."
Jacob frowned and left without a response. Alice closed the door turned around.
"Sorry for being like that, it's instinct."
I shook my head.
"As long as you give me a choice it's okay."
She reopened the door and we walked to her car. She drove at a comfortable pace. Actually no she was still driving insanely fast but I felt safe. Maybe it was because she was a physic or maybe it was because she was the only one I felt I could trust.
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A/N I like to update everyday unless I have writers block but don't worry What Am I Feeling will be updated soon.
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