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Summary: Alice and Edward comeback expecting everything to be the same but why is Bella so angry with Alice? Why does Alice care so much? Will Edward's true self show when he finds out the truth? AU Fem-Slash Bellice Early New Moon.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything familiar but I do own four pairs of raggedy old converse.
Rated: M for future Fem-Slash loving.
Title: Can't Go Back
BPOV
APOV!
I held Bella's clingy sleeping form in my arms and focused on her slow breathing. She was so angelic and beautiful. How could I have not seen her in this light before?
It seemed that each moment I have spent with her since coming back was going on a loop in my mind.
I recalled a few days after seeing Bella for the first time. I was weary of visiting her because of a troubling vision of her yelling at me with pained filled eyes. There was nothing I could do to prevent it so I figured I'd get it over right away. Little did I know that was going to be the most excruciatingly painful day of my whole entire existence.
I have never felt so guilt ridden and ashamed in my life. I should've fought harder to say goodbye even though I knew if I had I would've stayed even if it meant losing my family.
Looking back on it now I was so foolish to attempt to help Edward. After hours of him begging me to help him get his love back I gave in but only with hopes that Bella's broken heart would be mended.
Her words cut through me like fiery daggers. The pain of my birth into this new life was incomparable to the agony I had felt when Bella told me she didn't want to see me again. My cold dead heart shattered to pieces that only she could put back together.
I gazed at my Bella and was glad that her face had no trace of the animosity that was seared onto my eyelids then I vowed to myself that I would never leave my love again even if it was more so for the sake of my sanity.
I thought back to the moment when I went back to my room, Edward's depressing music defiantly didn't help. I still felt guilty for yelling at Jasper to leave the room when all he was trying to do was calm me. I don't know why I was so hurt. Maybe it was the strange connection I felt with her then that I now see is passion.
My thoughts were interrupted when Bella snored loudly which caused me to giggle.
I would do anything to protect her even if it cost my life. I was painstakingly devoted to her. How could anyone filled with the love I now realized I felt ever leave her?
I almost growled at the thought of Edward. I had tried so hard to get him to stay, showing him my visions, screaming how much he loved her, and vice versa. That little ass hat prude!
I snickered when I remembered how my anger translated to Jasper while he was playing chess with Edward.
He snapped the titanium bored, which we bought because chess got real intense in our household, and smacked Edward in the face repeatedly screaming "Checkmate bitch! Check mate bitch!"
I sighed at the thought of Jasper and realized since we first left we had already started drifting apart and it grew significantly when we returned but then I didn't know why. It was partially because I spent most of the day thinking of ways to get Bella not to hate me.
That's when I remembered I had kept Bella's scrapbook when Edward decided to take anything that had to do with us away from her. I had stared at my favorite picture of me and her for hours writing out a long apology letter which I had scrapped because I wanted to apologize fully in person. I was elated when I had a vision of Edward bringing Bella over. I decided then I was going to speak with her but that idea was tossed the second Edward man handled her.
My eyes went dark at the memory: I was sitting on the counter watching Bella and finalizing my apology in my mind while also convincing myself not to yell at her for cutting her bestfriend out of her life for not saying goodbye while her boyfriend had made his whole family leave not allowing a goodbye in the first place.
But when I hopped off of the counter I saw Edward roar at Bella and grab her wrist. Something clicked in me when I heard her groan. I was furious and couldn't hold myself back when I ran and slammed him into the wall.
"YOU WILL NOT TOUCH HER!"
My animalistic side came out and I dug my sharp nails into his skin.
I barely noticed Emmett trying to pull me off of Edward while I strangled him. Everytime Edward moaned in pain or growled I smiled inside because I knew I was so angry he couldn't stop me. When I decided to finally rip his head off Bella walked up slowly.
I was so ashamed that I had frightened her.
"Alice."
I calmed significantly when I looked into her chocolatey eyes but the guilt overwhelmed me so I glanced down dejectedly. Everything would've been okay if I hadn't of seen the splotchy purple bruise forming on her wrist.
What gave this asshole the right? I snarled loudly, picked Edward up, and slammed him into the ground. HOW DARE THIS ASSHOLE HURT MY MATE?
His eyes darkened. "WHAT DID YOU JUST THINK!..YOUR MATE?"
His polite never fight a girl rule was gone when he flipped me over and socked in the stomach so hard blood trickled down my chin like the equivalent to human vomit. Even when Esme screamed Edward kept hitting me, then I knew something in him had snapped.
When Emmett finally pulled him off of me Bella ran to me with a remorseful expression.
"Oh my god Alice, are you okay?"
I was so afraid that she would hate me for my new found shameful feelings.
I looked at her and even with all the worry I held I still felt butterflies.
"Please don't hate me."
She pulled me into her arms and her warmth almost distracted me from her response.
"I could never hate you."
I heard a snarling sound and glared at Edward.
"BELLA YOU WILL NOT TALK TO ALICE OR THAT MUTT!"
I have never been so afraid in my whole life, the thought of Bella being taken from me was overwhelming.
I glanced at Bella hopefully.
"Edward it's over. I am not property. Either be my friend or leave me the hell alone!"
Take that ass hat! He ignored my thought and laughed darkly.
"I guess you need more space."
He left and there was an eerie silence.
The amount of emotions I felt were almost to much to bare love for Bella, worry about Edward, Jasper and Bella, venom boiling anger for Edward.
My heart broke when I saw Jasper rocking in the corner his eyes were completely black.
Since Bella was still going to be asleep I decided to go on a quick hunt and sooth my mind. I kissed her forehead and ran out of the room.
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A/N I hope you enjoyed Alice's thoughts. The next chapter will also be in her point of view. I hope my grammar wasn't horrible. What did you like or not like? What do you want to see in Alice's thoughts? What can I do to improve? Review.